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Fix You by Coldplay
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
"Just what your worth"
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream, down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...
Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
Chapter 1: Moving On
Flashbacks are in italics
"No. You cant feel sorry for me. Not about this. This is not YOUR problem, Derek, it's mine. The report said, it said, they..." she began to ramble, one of the qualities he loved about her, but it shook him up nonetheless. "Here." She shoved the lab report to him allowing him to read over the words that had earlier changed her life.
"Not Pregnant. Reasons: Old scar tissue." He read aloud. Scar tissue? What? He looked up at her, his eyes questioning everything. She met his gaze and only six small words, "I need you to fix me." Seeing the fear in her eyes, he knew this was big. He wrapped his arms around her and held on for dear life, "I promise you Mer, if it's the last thing i do, I'll fix this and make this right. I'll pick you up and glue all your pieces back together. If its the last thing I do Mer, i promise to fix you."
One Week Later
"Are you sure about this?" Derek asked Meredith as she fiddled with her fingers in the seat next to him. She turned and looked into his steely blue eyes, "Sure? No. I'm not. Ready for a change? Definitely." She stared at the window watching Seattle disappear below her.
It was time for a change. She and Derek never had a chance in Seattle. Too much had happened. Too much damage. Too much baggage. Sure, her friends were in Seattle, her job was there too. But her life? Her life had been permanently stalled when the news of her pregnancy test had come in. That had been the last piece of glass falling to the floor in the story of Meredith Grey's life.
She felt Derek rest his hand on her thigh, giving her an assuring squeeze. She was glad he was with her. Mind you, he was the center of a lot of her issues, but she needed him. She knew he was it for her. She knew he felt the same way. Brainless as he could sometimes be for a neurosurgeon, he was her soulmate. She sighed, stealing a quick glance at him before closing her eyes and falling into a peaceful sleep for the first time in as long as she could remember.
Derek watched her sleep. She looked so much like an angel, her blond locks whisping around the edges of her face, gently moving each time she let out a sweet breath. He couldn't help but smile. He knew she had never stopped loving him, but she did what she had to to survive. He knew he had caused her more pain than she deserved, but here they were, still together and promising to be stronger than ever. A new start, he thought. Something they had never really had. Everytime they had given their relationship a try, something or someone stepped in their way. This time, he smiled, this time would be different. He would prove himself to her. He would prove his never ending love for the sleeping beauty as his side. He was going to make damn sure that she never felt another ounce of pain again.