My Lovers Dead.
By: HK LOVES DENY
Disclaimer: I do not own… the normal thing…
Warning: Suicide and also xover with YnM…
Rating: M
Summary: Shuichi has committed Suicide. How dose Yuki take it? And yes I know this summary sucks but I'm going through a hard time right now and I'm very depressed and this is the best way to get me out of this suicidal state…
Genre: A lot of angst! Also this is a dark fic.
I hope you Enjoy this extremely Angst ficlet of mine.
Yuki was typing away at his computer when he heard the front door to his and Shuichi's apartment open and close gently. Thinking that it must be Tohma or Mikia and he hoped it wasn't his brother Tastsua. Deciding that the task at hand was more important he continued on.
After about an hour he thought that whoever it was must have left. Looking at the time he saw it was 21:49 in the evening and he began to wonder why his lover wasn't home yet. Deciding to finish at least one more page before going to go look for him.
But while in the living room, Shuichi sat on the couch looking at the knife he held in his hands. 'Yuki doesn't love me. I know that, but… it hurts so much being used as a toy. I thought that I could live with just being a sex-toy…but…it hurts so much.'
With the last thought he brought the cold steel of the blade down to his wrist and quickly slit it.
The cut was deep, very dangerously deep. He watched as his blood fell to the floor mixing with his tears that he was now shedding. Creating a mess on the floor. 'Yuki's going to get mad at me for making this mess.' He thought as his mind slowly began to fuzz out. Quickly, with a shakily hand he cut his other wrist. Wincing some at the pain, but smiled none the less.
He looked over at the goodbye note he left to Yuki and his friends.
Dear Yuki and friends,
I know what you all must be thinking. "Why did you kill yourself Shuichi?" there is a simple answer, and here it is.
I love you so much Yuki, but I can not live as a sex toy. Well that's not entirely true. I could have if only you loved me like I do you. But I couldn't bring up the courage to just leave you. I love you too much to do anything.
So Yuki I'll say this one last time for it will be my last and I won't ever bother you again.
I love you Yuki and all of you. But I just can't live like this anymore.
Goodbye,
Shiuchi Shindou.
Soon his mind blacked out and he fell to the now blood covered floor.
Eiri Yuki was just about to save his work when a thud snapped his head up. Worried that he is being robbed by some lunatic, he quietly walked down the hall that lead to the living room. But what he saw was neither a lunatic or a robber. What he saw was the cold lifeless body of his lovers.
"Shu..Shui..chi" His heart sank while he quickly grabbed the boys body and held it in his arms.
"SHUICHI! SHUICHI!" he began pressing his figure to Shuichi's neck looking for any sign of life. He felt nothing, not even a faint heartbeat.
He saw the knife lying just across from them and realized that this was suicide. Tears slowly welled up in his eyes and fell down into the puddle of blood and tears that will forever stain that once beautiful carpet.
He saw the note but knowing Shuichi he knew the reason for him doing this.
"Shuichi…even though you know I don't say it…I do love you too…" he cried over the now soulless body.
"Aniki! Me and Ryuichi have come to cheer you al…" Tastua stopped in mid sentence upon seeing the site before him. "Aniki what happened to Shuichi?"
And for the first time in any of there lives, Ryuichi fell to his knees and cried into his hands. His Kumaguro lying down beside him as he cried.
"Shu-chan! Why did you have to die!" Ryuichi screamed as he ran out the door nearly knocking Hiro over.
"Hey what's wrong with him?" He walked in and saw what all the fuss was about. Quickly he ran to his long-time friends' side, and yelled his name a few times. But when no response came, he allowed the tears to fall.
Everyone is devastated by the death of our beloved Shuichi Shindou. But something else is happening in the Ministry of Hades.
"Huh? Where am I?" our young Shuichi Shindou asked no one in particular. But jumped when a tap on his shoulder signaled that he was not alone.
"Umm You must be Shuichi Shindou." Shuichi looked up to the brunette and nodded. "Well then I have one thing to ask you…. Can I have your autograph!"
Suddenly a much smaller sandy blonde boy whacked him in the head. "Baka! We are not here for his Autograph! We are here to retrieve him!"
"But Soka'!"
"No 'buts' now lets just go, Tatsumi is waiting for us to return." Shuichi stared at them with some amusement. But wondered why he wasn't in hell.
The taller of the two grabbed his hand suddenly they were all in a small office facing another brunette with rectangular glasses on.
"Well here he is Tatsumi! Now I have some unfinished business to do in my work office with Hisoka." He grabbed the boy's sleeve making sure not to give him direct contact with his skin.
"Tsuzuki! None of that here!" but they were already down the hall too far for them to hear him.
"Umm excuse me but…where am I?" The pink haired boy asked.
Deep blue eyes met purple. Taking a deep breath he spoke. "You are in the Meifu, but this place is known as the Ministry of Hades or the Judgment Bureau." He looked at the small boys face. "You are no longer alive… you are going to be tested to become a Shinigami…"
: OWARI :
TBC…..
Well how was it? Oh and this is just the first chappie too…. I hope I did good in it… more will come soon too….LOL