Yeah... wow, she's alive, right?
Ahhh, where do I even start?
It's been a while, I know, I know.
I see that I have unread messages, things I haven't answered...Basically, well.
I'll just come out to say it, I basically tried to kill myself.
I became so lost in my mind in an untreated mental illness I had no diagnosis for that I was pushed to the absolute brink of despair and... well, we all do silly things from time to time, right?
Well this wasn't one of them... and I am shamed to say that it's simply another chapter in my life.
I am not sure if I have inspiration left in my body, and my spirit has been broken and person violated to the point of numbness, but... I will put a reluctant statement out there.
I'm kind of back?
I am aware it has been years, but there has been healing, counseling, even physical therapy.
I write this not as an excuse, but as an explanation as to where I have been and how very real these things are.
Please, for the love of everything, if you feel something might not be right with your mind or emotions, SEEK HELP.
Do it before it is too late, because everything you feel is valid. Do not let someone tell you that you are less than that, or your insignificant in comparison to others because it is not a tangible illness that some others can understand. They are real. You are worth it, and you have to be the one to reach out.
Thank you very much, and I will still take any emails directed my way.
With a heavy heart, but cautiously optimistic,
Kat L.