A/N: Not meant to be that good. I just randomly wrote this in Physical Science class, better than listening and learning about gravity. I think I may have an obsession about writing as Edward. I seem to enjoy it, even though I hate Edward. He's just easy... (lol) Just a short little ramble of Edward's emotions after he left Bella in the forest. Hope you enjoy. If not, oh well.
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I turned from Bella and ran away as fast as I could. I didn't want a chance to think it over. My vision blurred as I delved deeper into the forest. For the first time, I was afraid I would hit a tree. I chuckled grimly. Bella had been right to be afraid. I slowed down, and eventually I stopped running. I leaned my back against the nearest tree and closed my eyes. My breathing as ragged. I seemed to be gasping for breath, though I knew I didn't need to breathe.
I don't know how long I stood there, unable to breathe. I was too wrapped up in my thoughts.
What have I done?
All I could see was Bella's face as I rejected her. All I could hear was the pain in her voice as she said, "You don't want me?" I wanted to wrap my arms around her and apologize for being so foolish. I wanted to comfort her, to wipe the tears from her face. I knew I couldn't, though. As terribly as it pained me, I had to protect her. I had to sacrifice my own happiness to save her life. She may not have realized it, but in time, she would move on; she would be happy without me...
I tired to support my own weight and leaned away from the tree, only to fall down to my knees. I hung my head. My arms were hanging. I couldn't move; I couldn't move; I couldn't breathe.
What have I done?
Soft footsteps approached me. Edward?
"Hello, Alice," I muttered, still looking at the ground. I felt a cool hand on my shoulder.
Just remember: you did it for her. It's for the best.
"Did I, Alice?" I found myself getting angry. "DidI really do the 'right thing'?" I stood up, my 6' 2" frame towering oer her 4'10" height. "Can you see that? Do our futures look bright?" I lost my anger and force then. I mumbled, "Will she be happy without me?"
Alice opened her mouth, about to say something comforting and encouraging I was sure, but I didn't give her the chance. I ran. I didn't even stop at home to tell Carlisle and Esme where I was going. In truth, I didn't know yet. All I knew was that the further I was from Bella, the easier it would be to move on... for us both.
What have I done?
I needed a distraction. I told Bella I would be easily distracted. I searched my brain for something while I ran.
Victoria. I snarled, my anger returning.
I veered east, leaving Forks behind me and carrying Bella in my heart.
Sorry about the cheesy ending... Just needed someway to end it.
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