A/N: This is a spin off (sorta) from samandjackforever's "Cut" With her permission I borrowed some of the lines from it. I thought that, after reading a couple of other fics with this theme, this might be what Rodney was feeling while he sat in his room, just before John showed up. I hope you enjoy, even though I know its a little dark
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Drip drip drip
I watch
Drip drip drip
I wait
Drip drip
It should hurt
I listen a while longer
Drip drip
As it slows I listen
There is no pain
Only the feel of the blade
Drip drip
It intoxicates
How can I live without this?
This is ecstasy pure bliss
They don't know
They can't know
They won't understand
Drip drip drip
Once more, and I'm done
Cool blade, warm flesh
No pain
I hear the door
I look and see
Suddenly there he is
"Shit…" I see the pain
But I can't feel it
His arms are around me
Suddenly I realize I'm crying
"Shhhh," he whispers
"You don't have to hurt anymore…"
He doesn't understand
I can't feel the pain
I watch as the blood stops
Crying silently
I feel his concern
I feel his arms
But I can't feel the pain
We kiss, I feel the joy
I look in his eyes
"I love you Rodney"
He tells me
But I still can't feel the pain
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Disclaimer: By the way, I don't own the characters (unfortunately) or the plot, I just borrowed someone else's toys, Thanks MGM for the characters and Danielle for the inspiration.
