AN: Just a drabble about life in Helen's point of view. I'm going with the assumption that Haunted came before Sleepers, slight spoilers for those eps and End of Nights. Past Helen/John, sort of Helen/Nikola, but you can take it as whatever you want. I'm not sure if I'm happy with this so reviews and concrit are loved.
Just a note, especially those waiting for the next bit in A Vampire; I will not be able to publish anything else for about 3 weeks, but hopefully then I'll have a couple of things to upload. Sorry for the delay but it can't be helped.
Disclaimer: Mistakes are mine, nothing else.
Life is Painful
Sometimes Helen thought the Fates were laughing at her. Playing a game and watching how she suffered; seeing how much it took to make her break.
They'd taken away her mother, her father, her daughter and so many friends....always leaving her to carry on.
But now they'd gone too far. She was the last of the Five, destined to be alone for all eternity.
Griffin had been gone for a long time now. And then Clara...she hadn't seen that one coming.
Watson had fought till the last, and actually quite far beyond it. He'd always been a great friend, there for her through everything. He'd stuck close by and made sure she was alright when everyone seemed against her. But even he couldn't beat death
Then John. Afterwards she realised she'd lost him long ago, but she hadn't wanted to know. She had loved him once after all. It's hard to believe that the people you cared about could do such terrible things. She'd only just accepted that the man she once knew was gone.
Nikola had been one of the worst; at least John he'd chosen to go. She could still remember the look on his face as the de-vamper had stopped working. She knew his subsequent rage was a defence mechanism; to stop them seeing how much he was hurting. He'd always been so proud of what he'd become, felt as if he'd had a duty, a cause that he'd previously lacked. Okay, so maybe world domination and the revival of evil bloodsuckers wasn't the best aim in life, but she'd always had a soft spot for Nikola. He was so different to everyone else she knew; so full of life. And now all that had been stripped away. He put on a show for everyone else; pretending he was still the same arrogant, self-centred man. To some extent he was. Nikola had always been that man, just less so. Now he was trying to be everything the blood had made him, not realising that he didn't need to be. He could just be himself and she'd love him all the same. But she didn't know how to make him stop suffering.
When her friends hurt, she hurt. And her friends always seemed to be hurting. So all in all, life was rather painful.
~Fin
