Disclaimer: I dont own anything of merlin or arthur not even the ring or nice coat
Shivering with the cold night air, Merlin rolled over to the warmth beside him and arms automatically wrapped around him. Arthurs warmth surrounded him but not all of the cold disappeared. There was a hole in his heart filled with ice.
"Merlin?"
"Sorry...go back to sleep" he rolled back out of the princes arms and swallowed. Arthur sighed and pressed against his back his arms going around Merlin again and resting on his stomach.
"Want to talk about it?"
"No..." Arthur sighed and stroked the black hair
"It's alright you know? I know."
"Know what?"
"Why you really left" Merlin shrugged
"We were stupid teens...nothing more"
"He was still your best friend...and your first...and he still died in your arms"
"I wish...I wish you had known him and not been at each others necks"
"Why did he save me?"
"Because he knew I belonged with you" Merlin rolled over and Arthur wiped the tears away
"I'm sorry" he kissed the pale forehead. "It wasn't your fault"
"I could have saved him"
"You know you couldn't" he watched blue eyes flash gold and felt a tingle go through him. Sighing Arthur kissed the pale pink lips and Merlin slowly deepened the kiss before pulling back
"I can't...not now" Arthur nodded and let Merlin snuggle into his chest. He watched eye lids flutter shut and kissed his scorer's forehead.
"At least...at least he had you whilst he was alive" he felt Merlin chuckle and nod. "Tell me about him"
"Why?"
"Well I want to know if he treated you right" Merlin looked up at him and he smiled "and as long as you remember him...he will know you never stopped loving him"
"Thank you"
"It's ok now no crying otherwise you will wake the girls" Merlin smiled and nodded
"When we were kids I mean like 6 we terrorised the village...his father was never there always training and his mother was best friends with mine, anyway and we went into the forest to play games like knights or princess and dragons...some reason I always ended up being the princess"
"Could never guess why" Arthur said swallowing his laughter only to have Merlin hit his shuddering chest.
"Shut up" he pouted and Arthur muffled his laugh by kissing him. The story could wait until he had calmed.
