A/N- So this is my first NCIS: Los Angeles fanfiction, but I really want to see more Callen/Kensi pairings out there!

Disclaimer: I own nothing NCIS realted, although I wish I could have Callen. Hehe.

Enjoy! Review please!

Kensi and Deeks sat next to each other at a table at the team's favorite bar. They were laughing and cracking jokes with each other.

Then Callen and Sam walked in and greeted the pair and went to sit at a table a few feet away from them.

Kensi still found it hard to be around Callen since what happened. They had been working late doing paper work, the last ones in headquarters, when Kensi went to sat on G's desk.

"Callen?" Kensi spoke softly, looking at her boss. Callen could sense something was wrong with his favorite agent and sat back in his chair giving her a questioning look.

"What's up Kens?" Callen had looked at her with true concern in his eyes.

Kensi had been building the courage up and had an entire speech planned out, but it completely went out the window when she looked into his bright blue eyes.

Without a second thought, Kensi was kissing him, half sitting on his lap. Callen was kissing her back with equal force, pulling her closer and closer.

Out of the blue, G had pushed her back from him, and took a deep breath. "Kens… I can't…"

Kensi's eyes immediately filled with tears and she got up and grabbed her stuff from her desk next to him and bolted out the door, ignoring him calling her name over and over.

The next day, neither of the two even spoke to each other. Kensi knew she had ruined everything. She would never forgive herself, but she went back to work as usual.

A few weeks later, everything had gotten back to normal. There was still some tension between G and Kensi, but for the most part, they were talking and acting natural. Like the kiss had never happened. But both of them couldn't see the pain the other was feeling.

Kensi sat in the bar, lost in her thoughts, when her partner snapped her back into reality.

"Kensi? Hello?" Deeks waved his hand in front of her face.

Kensi shook her head and laughed, "Sorry. Got lost in my own head."

They continued talking. Kensi kept sneaking glances up at Callen, and caught him staring at her at one point, and she blushed and looked down. They were mostly avoiding each other.

But just then, a song came on from the jukebox, which caused the pair's eyes snap up.

We broke up, yeah, it's tough
Most guys would've been crushed
Wasting their time wondering where they went wrong
No way, not me, hey, I'm doing just fine
I'm not afraid of moving on

Kensi's eyes filled with tears, but she risked a glance at Callen, whose eyes were unfocused as he looked at the jukebox.

It's easy going out on Friday night
Easy every time I see her out
I can smile, live it up the way a single guy does
But what she, what she don't know
Is how hard it is to make it look so easy

Callen gulped and immediately looked down at his hands. He had hurt Kensi, he knew he had. She didn't have that sparkle in her eyes anymore. He had caused that. And he felt like a jack-ass for it. Because he really did have feelings for her. He was denying it, because he was her boss.

The truth is, I miss lyin' in those arms of his
But I don't ever let it show
I laugh and I act like I'm havin' the time of my life
As far as he knows

Kensi just looked down at her hands. Not risking another glance at Callen. Who was looking at her, with a sad expression on his face.

It's easy going out on Friday night
Easy every time I see him out
I can smile, live it up the way a single girl does
But what he, what he don't know
Is how hard it is to make it look so easy
Oh, it's easy, yeah

The tears in Kensi's eyes fell, and she looked up in just enough time to see Callen looking at her. He saw the tears fall and he immediately jumped up to go comfort her.

Oh, it's easy going out on Friday night
Oh, it's easy every time I see him out
I can smile, live it up, forget about the way it was
But what she, oh what he don't know, what she don't know
Is how hard it is to make it look so easy

Oh, look so easy
Look so easy
Yeah, ooh

Kensi jumped up and immediately ran out of the door. Leaving Deeks, Sam, and Callen behind. Callen ran his hands through his hair and went straight for the bathroom.

Deeks immediately looked to Sam and Callen's table, where he only saw Sam, who had the same confused expression on his face. Both men shrugged at each other and took a long gulp of their drinks, throwing money and following their respective partners.

Kensi broke down on the side-walk, sitting on the edge of the concrete, her face buried in her hands. She couldn't let her feelings for G do this to her, for a bunch of reasons. The team for one; and also because every man she ever loved ended up dead. She wasn't girlfriend material; she didn't know how to trust anyone. Although through the years she worked with Callen and the team, she had developed a bond with him, everyone knew that she was his favorite agent. Hell, he had said it on a few occasions in front of the rest of the team.

"Kens," She heard Deeks voice come up behind her, "What happened in there?"

Kensi immediately stood up and wiped the tears from her eyes, "Nothing. Just tired. I think I'm gonna head home. Sorry Deeks."

"You're a horrible liar." Deeks smirked at her, which reminded her of G's trademark smirk, which caused a pang of hurt surge through her heart.

Kensi shook her head, "I don't really wanna talk about it."

Deeks held up his keys in his hand, "Well then at least let me drive you home, you've had more to drink than I have. Plus you don't seem to be in any condition to drive."

Kensi opened her mouth to protest, but Deeks shook his head. "Nope, you don't get a choice. Come on."

Huffing in irritation, Kensi followed Deeks to his car. She was quiet the whole ride to her house, but she thanked him for the ride and offered him a small smile before heading into her apartment and hopping in the shower. She needed to clear her head and rinse the tears away as she cried.

Back at the bar, while Kensi was outside with Deeks, Sam had been dealing with G.

Callen's fist made contact with the bathroom wall and he growled in anger. He knew why he couldn't love Kensi, it was dangerous, for so many reasons. He wasn't a good guy; he had a very rough past. Also, they worked together. If he let himself love her, it would put them both in danger in the field. He couldn't risk his team for his own happiness.

Sam leaned against the bathroom door, "Man, what's going on with you? You've been acting weird for 2 months now. And what's with Kensi?"

Callen glanced up at his partner and just shook his head, "Kensi is what's wrong with me Sam. 2 months ago, when we were staying late doing paperwork, she kissed me. I kissed her back, but then I pushed her away and told her that I can't."

Sam smacked the back of his partners head, much like they had seen Gibbs do to McGee when they came down from DC months ago.

"Really? The Gibbs-slap man? " Callen glared at his partner, but Sam ignored his comment.

"That's why Kensi had been in bitch mode? Dude, what the hell? I've seen the way you look at her, why did you tell her you can't? Can't what?"

G shook his head, "Can't do this. Be with her. First of all, because of the team, what if we broke up? Our team is too valuable to lose. Also, if I let myself have feelings for her, I'd always be focused on making sure she's okay, I'd be distracted. I'd get somebody killed Sam. Plus I've never been a relationship guy, I'm not good enough for her."

Sam Gibbs-slapped him again. "The next time you do that, I'm going to shoot you!" Callen growled.

Sam just shook his head, "The teams too valuable, remember?" He mocked him, but he made a point.

"G, you can't do this to yourself or her. She ran out of here crying. I've never seen Kensi cry, expect when Dom died." Sam's voice softened at the end of his sentence. Dom was still a sore subject for all of them, especially Sam.

G nodded his head, "I know, it hurt like hell to see her cry like that, and know that it's my fault."

Sam grabbed the top of his shoulders, "Talk to her."

Callen nodded, "I will."