Disclamier: All rights to the characters belongs to Cassandra Clare.

Summary: A buch of one-shots about the true meaning of Love


To Love Is To Sacrifice

Kissing Magnus in front of the entire Clave was the most bravely thing I've ever done. But I had to do it. Not just for the rest of the world to know, but for him. He doesn't deserve the treatment I was giving him lately. Worst boyfriend ever? Yes that was me. Being all lovey- dovey in privet? Yes that can work. But in public…I stayed away from him as far as I could. So no wonder that he ignored me when he came to make a portal for us to Idris. He ignored my calls too. Can't blame him. But he didn't understand that I loved…ok, thought that I love Jace. But Clary showed me the truth. When she draw that rune I saw Magnus…and I was like…what the hell, how Magnus can be in two places at one time. I was looking at the both of them with confusing written all over my face. Then I realized that I love Magnus. I mean…how could I be so stupid to ever think that I love Jace that way. By the Angel he is my brother…when I look at him I don't have the same warm inside my body like when I look at Magnus. And as much as I hated to admit that in the first place…I love that feeling that he's giving to me. So yeah, that was the majority impulse to kiss him in the Hall of Accords before the battle. The other reason was that I had a feeling that we might not got back from the battle. But I wanted that so badly. I wanted us to survive, so we could built a real relationship, without hiding anymore. So after the battle that we survived we were having a fun, we were dancing, but tomorrow I knew that my parents wanted to "talk". They may act normal now, but I know, that deep down…they won't probably approved. I mean…who ever heard about gay Shadowhunter in a relationship with a Downworlder, a warlock? That didn't happen before.

Now I was waiting, along with Magnus, till they choose the new Consul. I was holding his hand in mine. I didn't care that other underage Shadowhunters were looking at me with disgust. Oh…I wanted to kiss my warlock now…just to make them feel more disgust. Oh…screw them…I'm in love. And so what if I'm in love with another male? It's nothing new in this days. Mundanes don't make such a deal from that, so why the Clave can't get it?

„Alec? You ok?" asked Magnus. I looked at him and smiled. God…he was so beautiful.

„I'm fine. It's just…I want to go home.

„I promise…after that meeting…I'm taking you home" he leaned to my ear and started whispering" and I'm not going to let you out…for a long time.

„I would like that" I said silently as I started blushing. God his voice was so seductive.

„And then we can go on some trip? Would you like that darling?"

„Where?"

„Wherever you want. Name a place and we can go there." he winked at me.

„I can go wherever…as long as it with you" I whispered. He squeezed my hand gently. I smiled at him and then the Gard's door opened.

My mother went out and she pointed at us. We quickly got up and Magnus was about to let go my hand but I tightened my grip and led him into the Gard. When we stepped inside I saw my father, Amatis Herondale, Jia Penhallow, Arthur Blackthrone, and many other adults. My mother took a place next to Jia Penhallow. Then I saw that Mrs. Penhallow wears a grey Consul's robe. They chose her. Magnus and I stood in the middle waiting for someone to speak. Most of them were watching us with a disgust and disrespect. Ok…they could disrespect me…but Magnus didn't do anything wrong.

„Alexander" started Jia Penhallow "your yesterday's actions were…surprising for the Clave. How can you explain yourself?"

„Explain?" I blurted "I believe I explained everything with what I did."

„What you did was wrong" said my father in a cold tone.

„Wrong? How being in love can be wrong?"

„No my dear" Jia was looking at me without any express now "Being in love isn't wrong. But being in love with a Downworlder…is against the Law. And you know that Alexander.

„Let me get this straight…you disagree just because he is a Downworlder? And not because I'm gay?"

„That's the other…problem"

„Alec…" spoke my dad "Why? Why him? Couldn't it be any Shadowhunter? Why a Downworlder?"

„Well…maybe because he actually loves me?"

„There's no future for a warlock and a Shadowhunter. It's against the law!" stated Robert. I was angry at him. I looked over at Magnus. For the whole time he was silent and had a lowered head. "Unless you want to be stripped from your marks!

„NO!" shouted Magnus. "Please! I…I leave Alec. I disappear from his life for good. Just don't strip him from his marks. He didn't deserve that. I won't come back, I won't come near him anymore…hell I move out from New York. Just don't punish him. Please.!"

„Magnus!" I cried out. I don't want him to leave me. Not after everything we've been through.

„Alec…I can't let you sacrifice what makes you...you." he caressed my cheek gently and mouthed 'I love you'. When he turned around to leave I grabbed his wrist firmly. "Alec…"

„No! You won't leave me!" I turned to the Clave "You want to strip me from my marks just because I'm in love with Magnus? By the Angel…you're so hypocrite. Since when being in love is such a crime? Huh? So what if he's a Downworlder and I'm a Shadowhunter. It doesn't matter! Because when you're in love nothing else matters. It's not wrong being in love. All of you in some part of your life were in love…so why can't you let me experience that?"

I made a long pause. All of them was shocked. I smirked. Once I made them shut up.

"So if you want to strip me from my marks…so let it be. I'm willing to sacrifice myself for the man I love…because that's the meaning of love. To love is to sacrifice. So if you want to take them off of me…you can do it. Because I prefer to be a happy mundane with the love of my life, than a Shadowhunter who lies to himself. You know…I prefer to follow my heart and being truthful with myself than live among you!"

After that I wanted to take Magnus and to storm off…away from them. I was shocked that I told them that. Magnus was stood there dumbfounded. I believe he didn't expect this kind of words from me. Well…I didn't expect them either. I turned around to my warlock and started to going to the door. When we were close to them we heard that someone spoke.

„Wait!" said firmly Jia. We did as we were told and we turned around to them. She pointed at us and we came closer to them. "Alexander…what you said…was really brave. Are you truly willing to sacrifice your marks for the warlock? Are you sure of your words?"

„Yes!"

„No! He's delusional. Don't listen to him" interrupted Magnus. I glared him.

„I'm sure of my words. I'm willing to give up being a Shadowhunter for Magnus Bane. I love him…I can't change it. I don't want to change it. You may not approved this…but I'm not going to break things off with him…no matter what." I stated. "Because to love is to sacrifice."


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