a/n A lovely freeverse exploring Charity's character because I find her so interesting! (Just a little warning, there is a little bit of swearing)
You're the product of a
b|r|o|k|e|n
/home\
It's not an *excuse*
But you hope it
E
X
P
L
A
I
N
S
why you are
h-o-w you are
..
You grew up
T O O
Fast
Too q~u~i~c~k~l~y
to get away
from a house full of
{{neglect}}
where no one c/a/r/e/d
..
You let your head lead you
over your heart
because your head leads to you to
M
O
N
E
Y
And in your head
Money=happiness
£Money£ can't turn around and betray you
Hurt you
Money makes you happy because it can't
Bre|ak
your heart
..
So you meet a man
And let him
F.A.L.L
for you
Play him like a game
((-all because it's so easy-))
And he's £rich£
And remember
Money=happiness
..
It's then the whispers start
[who are you kidding? They've always been there]
They talk
And talk
~Talk~
Because you
M
A
R
R
I
E
D
the man
who you don't give a damn about
because he has money
and all you want more than ANYTHING
is happiness
..
(They should whisper a little quieter
Because you can hear them)
..
You get used to your new life
With all your husband's wealth
(selfish)
You put on an
a/c/t
playing everyone for fools
(manipulative)
And all because you need him
((no, not him, ££££))
You don't mind being
C~o~l~d
]Aloof[
A/l/o/n/e
You've never had
q|u|a|l|m|s
about breaking hearts
because if you break theirs
they can't break
y
o
u
r
s
(bitch)
..
You've been running from your past
All your l-i-f-e
From the bro|ken home
And the little baby with the beautiful eyes
((your little baby))
..
The little b/a/b/y
Turns up
Not so little
/Anymore\
Thirteen years old
*(((and counting)))*
With a life of her own
And you can't help but r-e-m-e-m-b-e-r
The time you couldn't even love your
D
A
U
G
H
T
E
R
enough to keep her
[(BECAUSE NO ONE TAUGHT YOU
how to love)]
..
Along with the l/i/t/t/l/e baby girl
Comes her f-a-t-h-e-r
The only man you really ever
L E T
in
because you were
y.o.u.n.g
and didn't
k~n~o~w
any better
..
He reminds you of a
T/+I/+M/+E/+
when the skies where blue
back before they t.u.r.n.e.d
GREY
He reminds you of happiness
((but how? He doesn't have any £money£))
It's now
When he comes
-C
R-
-A
S-
-H
I-
-N
G-
Back into your life
You r/e/a/l/i/s/e
That you
C A R E
About him
More than A.N.Y.O.N.E
Before
H I M
..
But he's not perfect
{{nowhere near}}
He's almost as b/a/d as you
When it comes *down* to it
..
The selfish manipulative bitch
Had to
F
A
L
L
For the
Cold
Heartless
Bastard
?Didn't she?
Made for each other
they were
..
Your daughter wants to be part of your life
And you t-r-y
Really try
But you don't
K
N
O
W
how
until she is nearly taken from you
_{{you know then}}_
..
But there they go again
Wait for it
Wait
(selfishmanipulativebitch)
Because you can't make anyone believe you care
Because you don't know how to love anyone
((not really))
Not even your d/a/u/g/h/t/e/r
Or the man you would
WALK
To the e-n-d-s of the
*Earth*
To s:a:v:e
((No one ever taught you how))
..
You know it's no e~x~c~u~s~e
You should have opened the textbooks
T\a\u\g\h\t yourself
But you haven't
What was that about
o-l-d d-o-g-s and n-e-w t-r-i-c-k-s?
Rubbish, *you* say
..
Your husband dies
and with him goes his
£money£
And you c:r:y
Because everything you had is
GONEGONEGONEGONE
And instead you have a daughter you barely know
And a man you love
((but don't know how to))
and you want to make things better
but you don't
*never will*
know how
..
You become a m-o-t-h-e-r
again
even though
you have never
ever even taken
the steps to learn how to
..
Men
-always with money-
come and go
f
a
d
i
n
g
into the past
because they never mean enough
..
{(((They still whisper
(selfishmanipulativebitch)
And the thing is
they're r/i/g/h/t)))}
..
You
fight
and
YELL
at the world
because you
C/A/N'/T
do anything
r-i-g-h-t
and never have been
able to
..
You are a bad person
-the *worst* person-
It's not intentional
It
Just
Happened
Because nobody ever
Took the time
To
L
Oo
K
underneath
so you put up a mask
and masquerade
and the only person who can ever see past
the person you have become
is the boy
(now a man)
who m/a/d/e you put it up
in the
F
I
R
S
T
place
