Its been a while guys, but I'm back! Here's just a quick little one shot to get me back into the swing of things. Hope you enjoy...


And with that he was gone.

No love letter, no voicemail on my answering machine, nothing. Just gone.

And hell did I know where he was. Bruce Banner, the misunderstood monster that I couldn't get out of my head… or my heart.

And now he was gone, on a plane to god knows where…

Our relationship could never have been conventional, even if we tried. Me, the red headed Russian with a gun in her pocket and a smirk on her lips. Him, the anxiety riddled doctor with an introvert personality and one hell of a bipolar disorder. And yet we fitted like two pieces of a puzzle.

I can't really pinpoint the moment where Bruce went from big green team member, to friend, to the man that made me smile, made me laugh, made those butterflies appear every time he smirked that lopsided grin of his, shaking my body to the core. All those moments blurred into one as I fought to keep him out my heart and failed.

They say never have a romance in the work place, but the rules didn't work that way for us. I wanted Bruce and Bruce wanted me. Like it or not, the chemistry was there, the attraction, the undeniable force constantly pushing us together. He stirred feelings in me that id never felt before, feeling I never knew I could feel. They scared me. They excited me.

So many times I had tried to push him from my mind…

It'll never work…

He hates himself as much as you hate yourself…

He's a colleague…

That big green guy makes him as fucked him as you can get, Natasha…

I didn't care. Bruce was Bruce to me. His perfections, his imperfections, his issues, his problems. They were what made him the man who is.

And I loved that man.

For so long I'd only thought of myself. At the academy, on missions, no social life. Even to the point where my body could no longer bear children, my own life and future the only thing on my mind. My life was my work and my work was my life. Never had I allowed myself to love until he broke down all those barriers id spent years building up and reinforcing. He was my weakness and yet my greatest strength, the man I'd live and die for.

And after Ultron's attack, he'd proven that too, fighting to keep me from harm.

And now it seemed it was all too much. Now the only man id ever loved, ever given my cold and lonely heart to, was gone.

I'd come across many enemies in my time, but heartbreak was the toughest and strongest enemy of all…