Goodbye To You

Edited- the original un-edited version of this song can be found on my blog

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So I was going through youtube and found this song. I haven't heard it in forever. Goodbye To You, by Michelle Branch. Have a listen while reading so it will make sense.

I know now I need to do this, it has been to long, the pain is to much, to hard. I can't stand hurting him anymore and I can't stand hurting myself this way. I look at him and tell him the things I know are going to tear him apart, the things he knows already, the things he has felt for a while now.

The feelings I can't take anymore. I have to be with him. My heart breaks, his heart breaks. I have to do this for him to be happy, for me to be happy. I know there is no other way. He will never leave me, I have to do this.

I can't look at him his pain is to much, I know I should, what a coward, I love him so much, but I know if I look him in the face my resolve will crumble and I will give, I'll stop, turn back and it will be forgotten.

I can't stop thinking of the two that have me feeling this way, I need him, but my heart, my soul longs to be with him. I want them both. Two complete opposites, I want the sun and I want the stars. I am selfish I want it all.

I know I can't do this anymore this isn't the place for me, it never was. I was infatuated him, his love, his devotion to me, so I choose.

I run to the place where I know he will be, it's night and yet when he turns the sun is all I see, all I want. My sun.

So there it is, don't hate me to much. It's not that I hate Edward or anything, I like him ok, but yeah it should have been Jake.