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it's a pjo story. also i'm abandoning the Home is where the Hearth is fanfic. too cliché for me to continue.
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Sometimes, actually almost all the time it's hard for me to sleep.
Nightmares just keep on coming and the lack of knowledge of where Piper and Jason are kills me.
It's hard y'know?
Annabeth helps a lot, homework serves as a good distraction too.
But I still can't sleep. And it's so easy, you just close your eyes and rest. Why can't I do that then?
Before I knew I was a demigod, when I was living with Smelly Gabe, back in those days, I had similar nights where I can't sleep.
Where I can't stop thinking about what will happen if my mouth slips and I tell mom about what was happening. That he will beat me until I'm unconscious, maybe even after when I black out.
I'll lay on my 'bed' and think of what Gabe was doing to my mom.
Those were the bad days.
Really bad days.
Heh.
When I got home after my first quest and turned Gabe to stone, I thought that I won't have any bad days again! That mom and me will finally be fine.
But then the quests kept coming, and coming, so that led to me saving the world twice.
Or was it three times?
I've lost count.
I think I have PTSD and Anxiety.
Don't you think those look great with my dyslexia and ADHD?
I sure don't.
I'd get panic attacks as well. I usually have Annabeth or mom to help me through them.
...I don't think this is normal for any other eighteen year-old.
Annabeth agrees with me.
So I guess I'm right on that one.
I'm not usually right about anything.
Oh look, insecurity decides to make itself known.
Hm.
Maybe in the future I'll have depression.
Maybe Nico will help me with that.
Or maybe I should stop being so selfish and taking others for granted.
Maybe that's a good idea.
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Every day is a bad day now.
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