Does he Love You?
Kendall/Carlos and Kendall/James.
The story is based off the song, Does he Love You by Reba McEntire.
I don't own B.T.R. or anything related to them so yeah...
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Chapter 1
Carlos knocked on the door tears streaming down his eyes. He had had enough of how his boyfriend was with him or more like without him. After a few months he started seeing less and less of him and more and more of an empty bed when he woke up even though he had gone to bed with him the night before.
I had to wake up early just to watch him leave. He never complained about work but he was never happy to go to work either. After a few days and a few tears shed, the Latino had chosen to follow him to see where he went. Thankfully, Logan was more then willing to help him follow his boyfriend but warned about what might happen when he found out where he was going
The door opened to the tall brunette flashing his perfect smile. "Oh hey Carlito's. What you- Are you okay?" he asked pulling the crying boy. He gave him a comforting hug that if Carlos had came with any other problem, he would have gladly accepted, but not with the problem at hand. He pushed him away from him before opening his mouth to choke out what he felt to the other boy.
"D-Don't play nice with me!" he choked out. He wiped a tear before continuing with more confidence. "I know you've been hanging around with Kendall..." he said.
James stood their innocently and feigning confusion. "Of course I have were still buddies just like you and Logan!" he explained knowing full well what the other boy meant by it.
"Don't lie to me! You know what I meant... You've been sleeping with him!" he cried out with more tears running down his face. He watched the other boy's reaction and was surprised to see him standing coolly.
"What are you talking about?" he asked changing his position putting his hand on his hip. He knew that the other boy knew, and on the inside he scowled but showed nothing on the outside.
The Latino shook his head raising his hand onto his forehead. He dramatically took it off before continuing, "I saw him kiss you many times, Logan even knows about it." At the mention of the last friend James reacted.
"Aw. I'm sorry I was just trying to take what was rightfully mine!" James spit at Carlos, "I guess he couldn't resist coming back to who he really loves. He always said I made him feel better than you ever did."
With that Carlos was on the floor on top of James, his fist hovering above his face. "You. Don't. Own. Anything!" he yelled. James was squirming below him trying to get him away all the time complaining about not hitting him in the face. The black haired boy didn't pay attention because he was so mad at him. His tears started falling back down his face and onto James. James took this as his opportunity to get out from underneath the Latino.
"Um... Look I said some unneeded things... I didn't mean it..." James said as he stood up, "I just still like him and I came onto him first... At first I wanted to get back at you, after all you got him overall and took his love away from me but then he started coming on his own... willingly."
Carlos looked up as he heard James' story. Even if it was true, Kendal should have been loyal or just have broken up with him so he could do as he wished. But no matter how much he wanted to be mad at him, he couldn't. He understood his need to be with the one he loved. He just wished it was him and only him but he knew that he loved him more because obviously they were living together not James and Kendal. After that he blew up once again.
"Your just there for sex!" Carlos yelled angrily, "he actually want me! He say that we will be together until we die. That we we're going to own a house and have children together and raise them. TOGETHER!" He took a breath before he decided to continue, "Has he told you anything like that! Does he say that his future involves you? I bet he doesn't! And do you know WHY!" He asked louder. He played with his shirt looking at James with hurtful eyes.
James leaned against his couch. He felt a pain his heart, a lump started forming in his throat. He held back tears as best as he could. Everything Carlos was saying was true. He never said anything about a future together. He knew that as soon as Kendall got to his house that the first thing that happened was a kiss and an 'I need you so bad'. There was no hi, no how is your day. After they finished he would get up and leave with no 'I love you' or anything. It was strictly sex and nothing else. There were a few times that they talked first but it was always when James was in a bad mood. James would never sleep with someone when he was in a bad mood so Kendall would listen and help out just to sleep with him.
James talked after swallowing his lump of tears. "Yeah... Because he just want's what you can't give him!" He was tired of the other boy yelling at him in HIS house. "Of course he would be with me. After all our sweet moments together before you came along as a 'love interest'... He always says that I am way better then you on your good day!"
Carlos was about answer when there was a knock on the door. He watched James as he opened it revealing the devil. "Oh hi honey! What are you doing here?" he asked waltzing over to his 'lover' giving him a kiss on the cheek. The Latino's arms were crossed. "Aw what's a matter?" he asked hugging him only to get pushed away.
"You said I was the only person you wanted to be with!" Carlos accused to Kendall who had a oh-crap! kind of look. Carlos had some satisfaction of seeing that Kendall knew that he was in the wrong.
"You are baby, James was the one that wanted to be with me one last time before we were official, and I gave it to him but he never stopped." he said as an excuse, "he keeps sleeping with me, he would rape me if I didn't agree to it!" He looked like he was telling the truth but there was a shine in his eye that told Carlos that he was lying to the poor boy.
James laughed at the excuse the newcomer was making, blaming it on him, even if it was true that he did ask for it the first time, almost every time after was Kendall crawling back on his own after a fight or after not getting his way with Carlos. "Don't lie! You know you come crawling back on your own!" he defended. He was not taking the blame for this when obviously there were two people that could take the blame. They continued yelling as Kendall continued blaming him and James defended himself.
Carlos scoffed and looked at the two evilly as they argued non-stop. "Look! Now that everyone's here let me get off my chest what I've been wanting to say!" The black haired boy sighed, took in a deep breath and continued, "if you two want to see each other still. Okay. I'm still your guy's buddy, even though I'm going haywire right now, but who wouldn't be! Anyways, if you two want to be together, I'll learn to be okay with it alright... I'm just tired of this roller-coaster that you two didn't even know I was on..." He looked down at the floor before looking at Kendall, then James and back. His bit his bottom lip blinking his eyes rapidly trying desperately to push the tears back into their ducts. He wouldn't show weakness anymore, not for a cheater and a home wrecker.
Kendall looked at James with a tinge of sadness over how he made the Latino feel. He turned his attention back to Carlos taking a hand in his and rubbing the back of it with his thumb. "You know... You know I love you Litos but I guess I still kinda love James too..." He was surprised when Carlos went into his arms holding the other boy who finally admitted his feelings. He closed his arms around the smaller boy putting his head on the nest of black hair. He felt the tears falling on his shirt soaking into the material and touching his skin. He tried comforting the boy as best as he could before looking at James who had now moved around in front of Kendall.
-James' POV-
On his face was a smile, like the one he gave them when they were all just friends. He walked out of the room to give them privacy for what he knew was coming. He closed the door of his room and slide down the wall and onto the floor. He finally willed for the tears to come out, muffled cries from the hand that covered his mouth. He shook his head and figured that it would be for the best, after all things were getting really awkward seeing Kendall and Carlos sharing affections of love when him and Kendall would do the same behind everyone's back. He heard nothing from the others until he heard a door open and close. He opened his door wiping his tears walking back to the room where the heartbreaking had began.
Carlos finally broke the embrace and stepped back wiping his own tears with his finger before looking at Kendall. A chuckle escaped his mouth as he saw the new design he had added to his shirt. Kendall couldn't help but smile even though the tension in the room was still there.
"I'm glad you finally told me how you felt..." Carlos said quietly looking into the orbs of green before him. He grabbed the bottom of his shirt fumbling with it for a while before saying what was in his mind. "We should take a break from each other..." he said finally causing Kendall's heart to break.
"What? Why? I thought we solved this!" Kendall said desperately, "I thought you forgave me...!" The blonde was panicking now. He couldn't lose Carlos too, like he lost James years ago. He didn't know what he could do without him because regardless of what he was doing he still loved him. Now it was his turn to let the tears fall, slowly and one at a time. "You can't do this to me Carlos..." he complained taking a step forward to embrace him once more in hopes of convincing him otherwise.
Carlos evaded the hug and walked to the door and put his hand on the door knob watching as he was about to turn it. "No... I can do this to you after what you did to me... It's only fair." he explained. He turned around and opened his mouth and finished saying his thoughts, "I don't want this permanently... You know I don't. You know I love you too, or else I wouldn't have came over here to get you for myself... Knowing that you still love James hurts though and I think you need time to figure out who you want..." His sentence quietly came to an end. He finally came to his resolve and decided to make it even easier for his now ex-boyfriend. "When you get home I won't be there anymore... You need time on your own so you can figure out what you want without anyone to interrupt you... It'll just make it easier for both of us."
Kendall was shocked completely at what the Latino was telling him. It was bad enough he was dumping him but now he was even leaving his home. "Where will you go?" he asked quietly knowing the Latino had no one to go to. He didn't really keep much contact with his family. He figured the boy would say Logan since he was the only person that involved in the drama that was now coming to an end.
Carlos smiled at Kendall one last time before turning the door knob and exiting the house. "Don't worry. I'll find somewhere to go... Promise." he said. With that he closed the door behind him leaving a shocked Kendall all alone and leaning against the couch to register what had just happened. It was over for now there was nothing that he could do now to take him back except for find out his own feelings.
-End of Chapter 1-
