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CHAPTER 1
Things have been going well for Simon and Baz. Baz never thought that he would be this happy, he especially never thought that he would wake up to Simon every morning. Although he doesn't live with him, he might as well just move in. Let's face it, he's pretty much there everyday and Penny doesn't mind... well now she doesn't.
Baz turns on his side, with his right hand supporting his head, staring at Simon. Smon is laying on his stomach and he finally has a peaceful look on his face. Simon had another nightmare last night. Two years has passed since the Humdrum incident, but it still affects Simon, particularly every night. His nightmares take a huge toll on him, so Baz and Penny are left to pick up the pieces.
The first year was horrible. Simon had to get used to the fact that he didn't have magic anymore and that his wings and tail are a part of him now. Baz loves Simon's wings and tail, don't get me wrong it was hard on him too at first but he absolutely loves them because it is part of Simon and he is hopelessly in love with Simon Snow.
It was difficult for Simon, he couldn't go out until his wings and tail were hidden. But even then people always manage to trip on his tail or bump into his wings. In other words, Simon hitting people with his wings when they pass by. These problems still occur now but the worst part is laying down on his bed in order to fall asleep. He can't lay on his back because they get in the way, so he tends to move around a lot because he is always uncomfortable. Baz always has to cast a "BE COMFORTABLE" spell to help Simon fall asleep.
But then the nightmares came. Some of them are okay to handle but most of them are so terrible that it puts Simon in a bad mental state. It is always the same nightmare, Simon relives that incident Every. Single. Night. and it kills Baz because he doesn't know what to do to make it better. Which lead to Simon and Baz making a pact that he would wake up Simon before the nightmare got worse. Baz did this every night he was with him. But when he wasn't, Penny would take charge. It was a long year but things got better as the months passed by.
Simon had another nightmare last night. Baz was able to wake up Simon before his nightmare got worse. They talked for the rest of the night until Simon fell asleep again. Baz didn't have that leverage, don't get me wrong he got two more hours of sleep but he wanted to make sure Simon was alright.
Although Simon has gotten used to his wings and tail, he is still in a lot of pain. So Baz extends his arm and starts caressing Simon's back, being careful to not touch his wings. They can be very sensitive and wants Simon to keep sleeping, he needs it more than him. Baz knows it's working because Simon sighs and snuggles more to the bed. Baz smirks and continues to caress Simon's back when he hears a knock on the door.
"Come in", says Baz. Penny opens the door and looks inside Simon's room. She smiles when she sees Baz caressing Simon's back. "Morning. How is he?", Penny asks Baz while leaning on the door.
"Morning and he's good. He's sleeping peacefully", Baz looks at Simon with a soft smile. Penny looks at Simon as well and is relieved that he's getting the rest he needs. Penny looks at Baz and says "I'm making coffee. You want some?"
"Yeah, sure. let me put some pants on", Baz says smirking. Penny looks disturbed and says "Please don't tell me you're naked under there."
"Well Snow and me didn't see each other for a week. What do you think happened?" Baz says looking smugly at Penny. Penny just rolls her eyes and smiles, "I'll just wait for you in the kitchen". Penny leaves the room and closes the door.
Baz snorts and then looks back at Simon. He caresses his face, and then Baz gets a great idea. Baz quietly got out under the covers and looked for a pair of jeans. Simon's favorite to be in fact. Baz knows how much Simon loves him in jeans, so Baz likes to have fun with that. To make it better he decides to stay shirtless. Simon is going to go crazy Simon and him might be together but that doesn't mean he needs to stop torturing him.
Once Baz is changed he walks towards the side of the bed that Simon is sleeping on and kisses his forehead. He then quietly leaves the room and closes the door. Baz walks to the kitchen and the aroma of coffee hits him. Baz approaches Penny and she turns around with two mugs in her hands. She looks at Baz, rolls her eyes and says "Really?"
"What? You know I like torturing him. He loves me in jeans", Baz winks at Penny and takes a mug out of her hands. "Thanks. I needed this." Penny nods and looks at Baz strangely, "I know you're a vampire and all but you look like you haven't slept for days". Baz looks at Penny with wide eyes and tries to hide his surprise by taking a sip of his coffee, then he looks down at his mug and says "It was a long week, a lot of studying to do". Penny rolls her eyes and says "Bullshit". Baz looks at her with a smirk and says "Yeah you're right. I could pass those exams in my sleep". Penny sighs and looks at Baz suspiciously "You're keeping something from Simon aren't you?"
"Drop it Bunce", says Baz. Penny was about to say something else until she sees Simon walking out of his room with boxers and no shirt on. Penny smirks and looks at Baz who has his mug frozen in thin air with his mouth open. Penny laughs and Baz forgot for a second that she was there and glares at her. Penny just smiles and says "Looks like you're not the only one who wanted to torture someone".
Baz rolls his eyes and says to himself "Dammit Snow". Simon looking all cheery from getting the rest he needed says "Good Morning everyone!" Simon walks closer to the kitchen when he suddenly stops and sees Baz leaning against the wall, shirtless, with jeans on. "Dammit Baz", he says to himself. But since Baz has super hearing he heard exactly what Simon said and starts to look smug. "Morning love"' says Baz to Simon as he walks towards him and gives him a kiss on the cheek and winks at him. Simon still speechless checks out Baz and asks him one word "Why?" Baz snorts and says "I could ask you the same". They stay staring at each other.
Penny feeling awkward decides to interrupt and ask "Simon you want some coffee?" Simon broken from the spell he calls Baz stutters "Uh y-yeah, s-sure". Baz enjoying this smirks at Simon and takes another sip of his coffee. Simon hurries to Penny's side and takes the coffee mug from her. He takes a sip and says "This is great, thanks Penny". Penny nods and looks towards Baz and then looks back at him. Simon catches her looking and shakes his head. Penny snorts and says "Should I leave you two alone?"
"Maybe later!" Baz answers her. Simon starts to blush "Um I'm going to go to the living room now". Simon leaves the kitchen, while Baz and Penny laugh. "You just couldn't help yourself", Penny says. "Nope. You gave me an opening and I just had to take it. Besides I love seeing him blush". Penny shakes her head smiling, she was going to say something back when she notices Baz looking down deep in thought. "What is it?" Penny asks. "He's keeping something from me"' Baz says. Penny stiffens up and thinks oh no! "What makes you say that?"
"It's Simon. I know when he's hiding something and by the way you stiffened up means I'm right. What's going on Bunce?" Penny sighs, looks down and looks at Baz, "I promised him I wouldn't say anything". Baz upset looks down and says "right". Penny looks at him and feels guilty and thinks, I'm sorry Simon. "But I'm going to tell you because you deserve to know", says Penny. "You would break your promise to him?" , asks Baz shocked. "Yes because I don't think I can keep this any longer from you", Penny says. Baz looks at Penny and asks "What is it?"
"You know the week you weren't here?" Baz nods. "Well Simon had another nightmare and well he, um he..." Penny says unable to get the words out. "Spit it out Bunce!" Baz says frustrated. "Simon wasn't able to wake up in time and it was a really bad nightmare Baz. Worse than last year. He woke up screaming and sobbing and he was a huge mess. I've never seen him this way. He was rubbing his arms and saying "What did I do?" "What did I do?" I tried to get close to him but he screamed at me to stop. That I should stay away from him because he was a murderer and that he might kill me too", Penny stops and looks at Baz with tears in her eyes and notices that Baz is trying to keep his tears at bay. "I didn't know what to do and the only thing I thought about was to call you. So I left the room to get my phone but he was right behind me and took the phone from my hands and begged me to not call you. He went down on his knees and begged Baz. I couldn't say no to him".
"T-then what happened?" Baz asks. Penny sighs and says "He just shut down. I helped him back to his room and he shut down. He didn't say anything. He laid down and put his head on my lap and cried silently. He never went back to sleep, neither did I and the next day he made me promise to not tell you what happened". Baz clenches his jaw and tries to breath in and out slowly, looks at Penny and asks "Did he tell you what happened in his nightmare?"
"No but whatever it was, it wasn't the same nightmare he always has. But Baz you can't tell him I told you. You'll have to wait until he's ready to tell you". Baz nods and looks down upset, "I thought we told each other everything". Penny looks at Baz , closes her eyes for a moment and says "Everyone has their secrets". Baz looks at Penny and says "Yeah but not this Bunce. He should have told me from the moment it happened. Why would he keep something this big from m...". Baz gulps and stops himself from finishing the sentence when he knows perfectly well he's hiding something big too.
Penny looks at Baz concerned and asks "Baz are you ok?" Baz looks at Penny debating on whether to tell her or not and decides that he might as well, "I think I'm immortal". Penny unable to speak for a few minutes, whispers "What?" Baz looks down and sighs, "I noticed that I stopped aging". Baz closes his eyes and looks at Simon in the living room. Penny shocked at what she's hearing, realized that she needed to sit down. So she did on the kitchen stool and Baz followed her movements. Penny making sure Simon is not looking at them, she asks "How can you tell?"
Bunce, I'm a vampire I can tell, trust me". Baz says looking at Penny like she has two heads. Penny just rolls her eyes, looks at Simon, then looks at Baz, "Are you going to tell Simon?" Baz looks at Simon and says "I don't know. If I do it's going to break his heart". Penny looks at Simon too knowing that Baz is right. This would destroy him but then she remembered something , "I thought you told him you would change him if you turned out to be immortal, that way you two can be together forever or am I wrong?" Baz sighs and looks back at Penny "No, you're not. I said it. I definitely said it. But how can I change him to become like me. Being a vampire is torture. Craving for blood all the time, it's disgusting. I can't do that to him Penny. I won't".
"You need to tell him Baz. The fact that you just said my name means that this secret is destroying you". Baz looks at Penny with so much pain in his eyes and says, "You have no idea". Penny reaches out hesitantly and puts her hand on Baz's shoulder and says "Tell him". Baz exasperated shrugs off her hand and says "Then what? Break up? Because you know that's the only thing that can happen after I tell him and I don't think I can handle that".
"Simon would never break up with you", Penny says wondering why would Baz think that Simon would breakup with him, these two idiots are completely in love with each other. Baz interrupted her train of thought when he says "I'm not talking about Simon". Penny has always been protective of Simon and she can't believe that Baz just said this, Penny glares at Baz with so much hatred and tells him "If you hurt him, I'll kill you". Baz knows she is serious, hell if he ever hurts Simon Snow, he would want someone to do exactly that. "Well start getting prepared then because no matter what happens, this news is going to break him and I need you to be there for him when it happens. Promise me" .
"Penny softens a bit, although she knows that Baz says stupid stuff sometimes, she knows that this is really hard for him. "Always. I promise. But you need to promise me something too", she says. Baz looks at her expectantly and says "What is it?" Penny looks at Simon for a bit and sees that he is looking at their direction curiously. Penny looks back at Baz and lowers her voice, "Don't you dare break it off. You two are better together than apart and knowing Simon, he will never let you go that easily. He needs you and you need him too and I know you two will work this out. Now go over there because he keeps looking over here and if he finds out that I told you his secret then I'm done for". Baz smiles a bit and says "Okay, okay. I promise, thanks". Penny and Baz smile at each other and then Baz stands up and heads over to Simon in the living room.
Simon looks down at his phone pretending that he wasn't looking at them, wondering what they were talking about. Baz shakes his head for a bit with a small smile and sits really close to him. Simon gulps from how close Baz is sitting next to him. Baz smile gets a little bigger because making Snow feel uncomfortable is the highlight of his day. Simon looks up from his phone to look at Baz and thinks, How is it possible that he gets more handsome as the years go by, It's unfair. Baz stares back at Simon with one eyebrow raised, knowing exactly what Simon is thinking of. But one look at Simon and all he thinks is God he's gorgeous.
Simon blushes from the way Baz is looking at him with so much love and that's when the guilt comes back on. Baz notices how Simon's face changed from blushing to sad in a split second and he thinks maybe Simon will tell him about his nightmare. "Is there anything you need to tell me Snow?", Baz asks with an encouraging Smile. At the moment Simon thought that maybe he should just tell him but then decides against it. "I just don't know whether to jump you or not. You know I like you in jeans. You're driving me crazy", Simon smirks at Baz. Baz smile fades a little, knowing that Simon is deflecting and then covers it up with his famous sneer and says "That's the point". Simon and Baz smile at each other for a bit even though they are both hurting inside.
Then Baz and Simon decide that they should probably put more clothes on so that they can go on with the rest of their day. It also has to deal with the fact that they both didn't feel like torturing each other anymore, especially since they are both feeling guilty. They went throughout their day pretending everything was okay but when they laid back on Simon's bed that night, all the guilt came back at full force.
Not once did Simon mention his nightmare to Baz.
Not once did Baz mention his immortality to Simon.
Maybe tomorrow.
