Chapter 1

Bella's POV

He didn't want me. He had said it. He didn't love me anymore.

That was 6 months ago. I knew I had to move on, but I couldn't. I still loved him, and it didn't matter if he loved me or not.

I looked at the screen of my cell phone. Maybe if I called him. I thought to myself

No, I couldn't do that. He wouldn't want me to. I would just seem like some needy girl, that couldn't get over a break up. I had to move on. Jacob had said he loved me. It would be easy to be with him.

But I wasn't weak. I would stay strong. Maybe Edward would someday realize that he still loved me. No, he didn't. He had told me that he didn't love me any more. I believed him. I knew that I was just a lousy human. I wasn't worth his time.

Maybe if I just called Alice She had been my best friend. Maybe if I just called her. But what was I supposed to say? Oh, well.

I found her name in my list of contacts.

My finger was shaking when I pressed the call button.

I put the phone to my ear. I could hear the dial tone. It was working.

I heard someone answer the phone.

"Hello?" I heard someone say. It was Alice.

"Alice?" I said, my vioce cracking.

"Oh, Bella." She sighed. "I'm not supposed to be talking to you." She said.

"I'm sorry, Alice. I miss you." I said.

"I know. He said that I wasn't allowed to even talk to you. But he's not here. And he can't tell me what to do." She seemed to be talking to herself.

"Alice?" I asked.

"Oh, sorry. I miss you, too." She sighed.
"Oh, Alice" I sighed.

"I know, Bella. It's been hard on us all. Oh, Jasper wanted me to let you know that he's sorry. He says it's his fault."

"It's not his fault. Not at all." I said. I didn't want Jasper feeling guilty.

"I know. I told him that. But, he wanted me to tell you anyway. We all miss you, Bella. Espescially Esme"

"Wait. You said he wasn't there right now. Where is he?" I asked. I probably sounded nosey.

"Oh, he's been in South America. I don't know what he's doing." It hurt me to hear that.

"Ok. Tell Esme that I miss her, too" I said.

"Oh, Bella, I have to go. Edward's calling me." When he said his name, I flinched.

"Okay, bye Alice. Please call me back soon." I said.

"Ok, Bella. Bye." I heard the line go dead.

I put the phone down. That phone call hadn't done me any justice.

I needed to start on my homework, so I pulled it out, and started on that.

Last month, somehow, that pain had gone away, and now I could think of all of the memories I had when they hadn't left. As long as I didn't think about him too much, the pain was gone.

I finished my homework, and started doing the laundry, when the phone rang.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Bella, its Alice." She sounded worried. Why had she called back already?

"Hey, Alice. What's wrong?" I asked. I had a shirt in my hands, and was twirling it through my fingers.

"It's Edward. I think he is coming to see you." She said. The phone slipped out of my hands.

Why would Edward come back. He didn't love me any more. He had told me himself.

I picked the phone back up, and put it to my ear, but she had hung up.

I put the phone back. She was probably just wrong. Her visions changed constantly.