Just a random bit of writing

Just a random bit of writing. It's in Terra's point of view, really just her thinking about what she's done in the past.

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My name is Terra. And yes, I remember everything.

I betrayed the only people who had ever been my friends to a man who treated me as little more than a slave. In my mind, I had my reasons. All my life I had done nothing but cause trouble and disaster to the people around me. I had had to live a nomadic life for years, terrified to stay in one place for a long time, in case I lost control like I had done so many times before. People died because of me, because of my lack of control, so when I was offered the choice of learning to control my power, to make the hurting stop, I leapt at the opportunity, and at the same time I betrayed the only people who cared for me.

When I realised my mistakes, I tried to fix them, but it was too late. In a hopeless attempt to redeem myself, I sacrificed my life to save my friends. That sounds brave, doesn't it? Like something from a heroic story, where I am a beautiful and selfless heroine, who gives herself completely for others. Well I'm not. Everything I did would have been unnecessary if I had not been such a fool.

Then, one day, I broke free of my grave. I wasn't resurrected, I had not died. I had used the last of my power to keep myself alive, and now I was a normal. When BeastBoy saw me, I pretended I didn't know who he was. I guess I wasn't ready to face what I had done, to face them. I thought I wanted a new life, a fresh start as a normal girl, but not a day goes by without me regretting not running up to BeastBoy, and hugging him and crying, begging for forgiveness, even though the Titans would never forgive me completely. I know now though, that I made my choice, to go down a path, and I cannot turn back, no matter how hard I try.

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Yeah, that wasn't really very great. I know that Terra doesn't really remember but it's fanFICTION, and I like the idea. Anyway, I just felt like writing a bit of something kinda nice about Terra because hardly anyone likes her. Please comment, constructive criticism is welcome.

-May

Btw. The title, 'Wash it all away' is part of the title of an Evanescence song. Anyone who can tell me the completed Evanescence song title will get this giant muffin (holds up the world's biggest muffin) come on, you know you want it!