Hello everyone, my name is Maria and I am new in fanfiction. I'm from Panama, so if I do write something with a bad grammar let me know. I have been reading fanfiction for, like, 3 months ago. And then, I started my own stories and I think this is the best one. If it isn't, pleaseeee, no flames.
Disclaimer: I own anything, just my crazy ideas XD.
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Josh POV.
I've been waiting for the summer to end, because this summer is the rest of the problems I've been through last year. At the beginning of last year, some thing started to work for me. I get diagnose with diabetes, so I started to do training every weeks. I lost weight and my health got better. The training helped me to get away from the problems at home. Here is where the story turns wrong. My parents, well, my father and my step mom whom I care a lot about, as if she was my biological mother, were breaking down. Since my dad cheated on my mom, everything got worse. My mom started to cry a lot and be depressed all the time. She took anti-depressive pills, but that only made her intoxicate a couple of times. My dad started to drink and be away from home a lot. And when he came back, there was always a fight between them. It seemed to be only affecting me, because Meghan was always at her friends' house, and Drake really couldn't care less. When my dad was gone, I was the one that had to deal with my mom. I cried silently with her a lot of times at night. I used to think of my dad as a role model, and now, as you can imagine, I only think of him as a man that threw his career and his family and all his effort to make us happy to the trash. The only thing that seemed to stay by my side through all was my girlfriend Mindy. She was really understanding with my problems and always made me feel that I was going to be fine. I even believed it a couple of times. I tried to spend as much time as possible with her. At afternoon I would leave and go to her house. And when I couldn't because my mom was really down and I was scared of leaving her alone, she would come to my house and help me to take care of my mom. Most of the times, we weren't making out, just talking. But one horrible day in May, even Mindy got away from my life. A few weeks before that, she was being really secretive and when I asked her for help, she started to give me a cold shoulder. I told Drake about it and he only said that the girls are sensitive and stuff like that, but I knew something was wrong. I walked that afternoon over to her house, and I saw it. There was an ambulance and two police cars out of her house. Her parents and her brother were outside crying. While her father got upstairs to look for something, her mother walked over to me and told me these exact words:
"Josh, you made our daughter happier than ever. Since she had been on the psychiatric hospital after blaming Drake of the incident at school, nothing we could possibly do brought our happy Mindy back. Only you did. After she got out of the hospital, she was diagnosed as a chronic depressive and a bipolar person. That meant that today she could be the happiest girl in Earth, but tomorrow she could be miserably depressed. A few weeks ago, we decided to move because of my husband's job, and she got depressed about leaving you. She told us that you needed her and that she loved you, and that she rather be dead than leaving you. And she got so depressed. And today, she didn't get out of her room. And her cries were so loud that we could hear them downstairs. When we stop hearing her cries, I came up to her room just to see if she was okay. But she killed herself by sleep pills."
My hearth was in pieces after I heard that, I started to cry, but I didn't sob. I felt so helpless. Her mother came to me and hugged me, whispering "I'm so sorry, Josh". Then Mr. Crenshaw walked to us and handed me a letter. And then he told me:
"Thank you so much Josh, for make our daughter's life special when we couldn't." -He said before adding- "Her funeral will be on Tuesday, we would be really pleased if you'd come. We know she didn't have a lot of friends, so it's okay if your brother does not come."
I could see the hurt in him, and he had always been a cold man. Mindy told me that when she was a kid, she used to give him a kiss on the cheek and tell him goodnight before go to sleep, but she realized that he was always uncomfortable when she did that, so she stopped doing it. I told them thanks and get back to my home feeling so lonely and broken. The person that I was considering as the love of my life killed herself at the thought of leaving me. And I was alone in this. I really had nobody. I got upstairs to my room, Drake wasn't there as always. But this time, I was thankful. I opened the letter and I read it. The letter said this:
Dear Josh:
I am really sorry about the damage and pain I am causing you and my family, but specially you. We felt alone at the same time. We opened up to each other to calm our pains. I can't believe my family wanted to take me away from the only thing I ever loved when I walked around Earth: you. You were able to forgive me when I almost got your brother to a reform school. I was so exigent with you when we started this relationship. The thought of being in a place without you helping me, was just horrible. I know I left you in a moment where you need me so much. But I just couldn't stand it. The thing is just so messed up. When I looked at our pictures for last time, I saw us happy, and I can't imagine how you are holding on. I need you to be strong, because I know you are and I know you are going to find someone that will make you happier than I could ever make you. You deserve to be so happy and successful. I love you so much, don't ever forget that. Please Josh, just be stronger than me.
Love you always and more,
Mindy.
The next two or tree months, I could refer as myself as a zombie. I barely got out of bed, and barely eat and barely sleep. My life wasn't life anymore. The only things that made me hold on were my mother and Mindy's wish, for me to be stronger. My mom told us about two weeks ago that finally she and my dad are getting divorced and that one part of the demand is that my father has to go to rehab if he wants to see us. I'm happy that my mother finally reacts in front of the situation, but being my father I know I'm going to miss him. I can't wait for the school to start because I know it will help me to forget about my problems, and I will go back to training. I can only hope one thing; the school will heal my bruises.
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Soooo what do you think????? This is just the prologue, and in the new chapters a new girl will come into Josh's life. Please review… If you can.
Bye, thanks for reading.
