A/N: Just a try at songfics. The first few will be Adele songs, just cause she has good lyrics that fit our favorite couple from A Galaxy Far, Far Away. I'll be taking requests. ;)
Enjoy.
Hiding My Heart, and Other Love Songs of H&L
By GarbledWords
It was the first kiss that made me realize.
I had been shocked when I found myself willingly kissing Han, my hands moving up to his head, holding him and savoring his lips, his touch.
Then Threepio interrupted, which let fly the turmoil of emotions flood through me. I fled.
And I thought about it.
A deep, warm feeling fluttered within me, a feeling almost as old as time. I kissed him as I had never kissed anybody before. I had never felt the same warm feeling, spreading though my body and down to my fingertips and toes. I had never allowed passion or personal feelings to take over my actions. I had always hidden my heart. But now emotions seemed to explode before me as I sat in the cockpit, making me dizzy. Scared, even. Memories threatened to overwhelm my mind.
Memories…
A song…
This is how a story went, I met someone by accident. It blew me away, it blew me away.
And it was in the darkest of my days, when I took my sorrow and I took my pain, and buried them away, buried them away.
The Death Star… the torture. Alderaan. So many innocent people gone because of her. The fear that I might give so many more lives away again. I shut out my feelings for as long as I could. The trauma nearly killed my soul.
Later that night, he offered me his bunk. He insisted. My emotions still were churning about inside of me, and I accepted the suggestion with a silent nod.
The flashbacks tortured me in my sleep, even more terrible than usual. Alderaan exploding as Darth Vader beckoned to the torture droid. The pain-intensifying drugs being injected into my body. Bone cripplers, hot knives, poison needles probing, jabbing. Pain. The pain. Running away from the legion of white stormtroopers, led by the dark giant who controlled the insane destruction of so many lives.
Then, suddenly, everything melted away. Han's hazel eyes glimmered from the gloom, lighting my dreams. His warmth of his body pressed against mine. His lips gentle and warm. A soft, velvety darkness settled over me, and I slept peacefully.
He was my light in the darkness.
Our lips parted, and I stroked her dark chestnut hair. I loved her, I knew. I shouldn't have fallen so hard for her. But I couldn't help it. And as I watched her sleeping peacefully in my bunk, I ached to climb in beside her, cradle her, protect her from whatever would ever try to torment her. My heart beat in a way that it never had before.
Sure, I had spent time with many other women. But I knew that as soon as I set my eyes on her, that she was a completely different situation. I had only felt this way once before. And her…it was still painful to think about her. But Leia was so strong…so perfect. She could wield a blaster, keep her emotions at bay, and not even flinch when she put her own life at risk for others. But I knew that she was a lot more delicate than she acted. She needed someone to lean on. The kid was a close friend of hers, but she never seemed to feel so much but a good friendship with him. So I stepped in. I wished I could live closer to her, to declare my love more clearly than a by-the-by kiss. I watched her sleep with longing eyes.
I wish I could lie down beside you, when the day is done.
And wake up to your face, against the morning sun.
But like everything I've ever known, it disappears one day.
So I spend my whole life hiding,
my heart,
away.
The princess was the true feeling in my life.
Reviews please, and requests will be taken, too. ^^
