You know how every one talks about the little voice in your head? They usually talk about how it's the voice of reason the voice that saves you from doing something crazy or harmful. But what if it doesn't? What if the little voice tells you to do something bad? What do you do then?
I think over time I have grown numb to my little voice, the way she tells me bad thing and blames me for every thing. Debra I call her the bitch she is always talking shit or making me second-guess my self. Sometimes I have to lock my self in a dark room in order to get Debra under control. She likes to bring up old fears like how I'm scared of the dark.. Its not really the dark its more of what's in the dark and gosh can she go on about what's in the dark. Now Debra is not always In my head in fact as I have gotten older she has slowed her roll and has not visited me so often but when she does it's a shit storm. Its like trying to talk to some one who is screaming and hitting you. You can't control it but you keep trying to help and get them to stop. Its never a gradual thing it's a pop up one moment and tare your sanity away fuck up the nice grove you had going thing. she leaves me absolutely breathless it doesn't just affect me it affects my family and I hate her even more for it. I love my family even if they are not blood related I would die for my family and to know that my powers and my actions hurt them kills me inside.
