I hope you like my first one-shot.
I explain why I ended it the way I did towards the bottom.
Enjoy.
A wise person once told me that in a relationship there is always one partner that loves the other person more than that person loves them.
In Duncan's and my case.... that person was me.
I was the one who would have to change for Duncan. It wasn't that I really minded, at least not until I realized just what I was getting myself into... how different his world was from mine. But then again, my world was different than his so why shouldn't I be the one to change?
Now that I look back I realize that the reason I'm the one that changed for Duncan is because I loved him more than it was ever possible for him to love me. He was my life, the air that I breathed. I just wish I could say the same thing about myself in Duncan's position.
The morning I packed my bags and left was the morning I realized just how much I had given up for Duncan... yet I couldn't make myself regret it. I had loved him, and I have a feeling that some part of me always will. But its time for me to stop being a teenage girl run by her emotions... and grow up.
I would never forget Duncan, or the time we spent together. I also would never see him again for I certainly wouldn't be the one to re-connect. And like I've said before, and will say again, I'm the one who always went after him. I'm the one who always paid for our mistakes, no matter the size. I'm the one who couldn't get enough of the feeling of being cherished... until that feeling turned into a feeling of contempt. I don't think Duncan really ever forgave me for not being perfect, perfect for him that is. And I know that it may seem like we're sole mates... but one can really only take so much bickering. One can only brush it off and shoot a comment back for so long. My and Duncan's 'so long' only lasted, so long. And when a good thing is over... its over. And you just have to live with it and move on.
I'm not saying that I won't miss him, because I will. Every day, everytime I look into some other man's eyes and remember the way he looked at me. But I'm hoping that someday the pain will deaden and I'll finally be able to move on... maybe to someone who will love me more than I love him back?
Who know? Anything can happen in this world. I think that my relationship with Duncan proves that...
Duncan: WHAT!!!!????
Me: Sorry, I had to write a story where you were the bad guy.
Duncan: WHY!!!???
Me: Because... (sigh) you can't always be the good guy.
Duncan: WHAT!!??
Me: (Sigh) Try and get this through your head Dunk, you always get to live happily ever after in all of my other stories so in this one, you didn't.
Duncan: WHY!?
Me: (SIGH) I just explained to you why!
Duncan: I know, I just had you use up the last of my explination points/question marks. (Laughs)
Me: WHAT!!!!!????? WHY!!!!!?????
