Welcome everyone! So my best friend James got me some music and one of the songs inspired this story. I had it written in my head before I could even get to my computer so here is something a little different from me. We start off in EPOV and I haven't decided if he gets to talk through all of it or if others will get to chime in.

I will be writing this along side On A Path to Sexual Discovery so I can't guarantee you an update schedule. I like to update once a week so that's my plan. I hope you all have a great weekend!

Disclaimer: all characters belong to Stephanie Meyers; what I do to them is all mine!

Enjoy!


May 22nd, 2004

"Ooh we can start out in Thailand where we can ride on Elephants before moving to China where we can walk on the Great Wall and then go to the Forbidden City," her voice is high with excitement while her smile fills the room with light. "Afterwards we can either go to Japan or Australia to see kangaroos and koala bears."

Everyday after school we plan our trip around the world. There are so many things to see that she decided we should see them all before deciding what we want to do with the rest of our lives. "We have the rest of our lives to be boring but only a small amount of time to be free and without responsibility," she says it so much I almost think it's her mantra. I watch her move around the map getting more and more excited with every destination.

"Where do you want to start?" her deep brown eyes bore into me and I have to take a breath. She's so beautiful that I wonder if anyone else could compare. "Edward?"

"Right," I shake it off. I want to kiss her but we aren't there yet; soon. "Well I think we should start in Ireland at the Blarney Stone."

I watch her face register slight confusion. Out of all the grand plans we've discussed starting off at a stone that's suppose to be good luck has never been a starting point.

"Why?" a smile forms across her full pink lips and I have to take another breath. If she only knew what she does to me.

"Well because it's where my parents met," I say it like it's nothing because I have heard the story hundreds of times. I was an odd child that didn't really care for the works of Dr. Seuss or fairytales. No I only liked one fairytale and it was my parent's life together.

"Your parents met at the Blarney Stone? How'd that happen?"

She leans on her elbows getting comfortable. She likes it when I tell her stories and I like to spend way more time then I should trying to come up with new ones. My parent's story is one I have always wanted to tell her. I smile at her, her smile as I get comfortable.

"Well my dad was struggling with the idea of medical school or any more schooling for that matter so against my grandfather's wishes, Carlisle packed a bag, booked a one way ticket and took off to Europe. It wasn't uncommon to do that so my dad knew he would be in good company.

"My mom finished her second year of college and was struggling to decided what she wanted to do with the rest of her life. So after talking to Irina and Siobhan, the three of them decided to pack their bags and head off to Europe as well. Now mind you none of the parent's are happy with this decision. They thought it was reckless and irresponsible."

Bella smiles since this is right up her alley. The rebel in her had gotten us in more trouble then I like to count.

"Then what happened?"

"Right well they started off in different directions. After a month or so Carlisle reached something of a fork in the road; his choices were either to go to Madrid and meet up with these other backpackers he met in Rome or head off to Ireland. He says something about Ireland kept pulling at him so after a night's rest he got on the boat that took him to England before making his way to Ireland.

"Meantime my mom had been in Ireland longer than she anticipated. Siobhan met and fell head over heels for Liam, a junior at Trinity University. Since Irina and mom didn't want to just leave her they ended up really seeing the island. Liam was finally able to leave for holiday but before they left my mom insisted that they go to the Blarney Stone since in her mind they needed all the luck they could get.

"Dad stumbled upon the stone clearly by accident. He watched as people tried to change their luck by kissing a highly "unsanitary" stone. I mean everyone from around the world for god knows how long have been kissing it. So naturally he was repulsed and about to move on when he heard this laugh. He couldn't put his finger on it but he had to find the owner of this laugh.

"It didn't take him long. In fact he thought at first it was Irina which upset him since when he took one look at mom and was a goner. He says he felt physically pulled to her; that everything seemed to right itself just with her presence."

I watch as a dreamy look comes over Bella's features. I love this look and it lets me know that she is hanging on every word. Bella is the biggest romantic I know but she tries to hide it with her tomboy exterior.

"And; then what happened?"

"He moved over to the group as it was their turn to lie on their backs over a cliff to kiss this stone. Liam help Siobhan while some guy that Irina was friendly with held her but my mom had no one so she patiently waited her turn. This is when dad stepped in to offer his services. He greeted her and made his offer…"

I pause for dramatic effect. It drives Bella crazy.

"Go on!"

"Then mom looked in his eyes for a few moments before giving him her brightest smile and agreeing. My father was flabbergasted that my mom would be so willing to trust a stranger with her life but didn't argue. He holds her legs as she kissed the rock but on her way up needed a hand which of course my father provided.

"Mom says the moment their hands touched there was this energy like electricity that moved through her body. She's never felt anything like it so she continues to hold his hand as they join the others in their group. Introductions are made and soon Carlisle is being invited back to the inn where my mom is staying. Couples break up for the night and dad offers to buy mom a drink.

"They sit in the pub drinking beer and watching the others around them but this question has been plaguing my dad so he looks at mom and say:

"How could you trust your life to someone you just met? Is that a habit of yours?" Carlisle's voice isn't judgmental just curious.

"Well I thought about it," she blushes thinking of her reason. Sitting across this gorgeous man she can't help but be honest. "I took one look in your eyes and I knew I could trust you with my life. To be honest I never felt so strongly before in my life."

"Dad smiles since she has just confirmed that he isn't going crazy as he reaches across the table for her hand which she gives him eagerly. He changes his plans and follows mom, Irina, Siobhan and Liam around the rest of their itinerary. At the end of the summer dad has to make a decision: go home and start medical school or disobey his parents and become a bum following my mom around.

"Mom pushes Carlisle to go back for school. She knows through their conversations that he really wants it but he doesn't want to leave her. Irina and Siobhan want to stay but my mom decides she doesn't want to leave dad either so she follows him back to the states. Once they get back Carlisle heads to California and Stanford while my mom goes to New York."

"Long distance? That's insane," Bella's voice fills the room as I smile at her anxiousness.

"It doesn't last long. Over several phone calls Carlisle tells my mom that he can't get into any other schools until the following term. My mom hasn't decided what she wants to do so against her parent's strictest wishes, she packs her bags and moves to California. Mom gets into Stanford since her grades and records are stellar plus it also helps that her father is extremely wealthy.

"They spend every minute possible together and after a long engagement they get married followed by my arrival to this great planet and the rest they say is history. The end," I smile big as I end the story. Bella's wide eyes look as though she could cry but she quickly recovers.

"He followed her all over Europe just to be next to her," her tone is soft.

"Yeah and to make up for it she now follows him wherever his medical career take him. They call it an even exchange," I laugh before Bella joins me. Minutes of silence pass as Bella processes the story. Her smile gets bigger and it pulls my heart. I am enamored with this girl.

"OK you win, we start off at the Blarney Stone," she laughs again. "Hell if we're lucky maybe we'll meet our soul mates there."

Her words hit me like a Mack truck. I am nauseous at the thought of someone else being more deserving of her then me. I have spent years being completely lost in the person Bella is becoming. I know everything about her from her moods swings to her facial expressions. By her comment I would guess she doesn't see me the same way.

"Maybe," I try not to let my face fall but I can't help it. I feel her hand on mine before I look up.

"What's wrong?"

It's one of those moments that can define your entire life. Looking into her deep brown eyes I know what I want to do…I just have to suck it up and follow through. I have had moments before but I chicken out every time. I'm running out of time. Soon all the guys will know how amazing she is and I will lose her forever.

I lean in to see her reaction but she doesn't move. That's promising. I continue to lean in until we are face to face. I have never wanted anything more in my life then to kiss those soft lips. Bella closes her eyes and I know this is actually going to happen. I quickly lick my lips before placing mine on hers. Everything stops when I feel her softness on me. I want this moment to last forever.

Bella moves slightly and it startles the moment. I open my eyes not to see fear or anger like I expect but a smile and warmth that melts my heart. Bella leans in the small distance to place her lips to mine and my life is complete. I thought she would run away but instead she returns my feelings, or at least my kiss. My head swims with what this could mean. I try not to get ahead of myself since Bella is very unpredictable.

We continue to kiss for a few minutes before Bella pulls away. She smiles at me as she looks to the now crinkled map. She motions me to move so I do. She folds up the map and places it back in its hiding place. I watch her in silence as she moves like nothing happened. Panic grows inside me as she moves to my bedroom door.

"I have to be home for dinner. See you tomorrow?" her tone is soft as she smiles at me.

I can't so anything but nod. I am stunned into silence. I didn't expect this response. Bella stands reading my face for a minute before turning her back. She takes a step through door before stopping again. She turns and walks back over to my standing form. Leaning up on her tippy toes she kisses my lips again.

"Is there something you want to ask me?" her smile gives me courage as I take a deep breath.

"Will you be my girlfriend?" my voice is soft but confident. I watch her face for tale-tale signs that she's going to bolt but there's nothing but…happiness.

"I thought you'd never ask," she kisses me before I can even be shocked. I pick her up as bliss moves through me. A minute passes before I set Bella down and move slightly away from her. "Took you long enough."

I can do nothing but smile as I kiss her forehead.

"That's not really an answer," my tone is mischievous as she shakes her head.

"Always one to want things spelled out. Yes Edward Cullen, I would love to be your girlfriend," her smile takes over as I kiss her again. She's been waiting for me…Nice one Cullen. She pulls away too quickly for me to stop her.

"Hey…"

"Gotta go, dinner," she moves over to the door before turning around. "I'll see you tomorrow Boyfriend."

One more smile and she's gone. The girl next door that has been everything since we were eight was now my girlfriend and my first kiss. I am on cloud nine as I move to the window to watch her go inside her house. She smiles at me knowing I'm watching her before disappearing. I wait a moment in the hopes of seeing her again but once inside she's gone.

I move to our hiding place that we've had since we were ten and pull out the map. I look over all the marks and words written across this map. We've been working on it for four years; the perfect trip. We haven't decided if we're going after high school or college. I want to go after high school but Bella wants to get a couple years of college out of the way before we take off.

I take the blue pen, my pen and circle a small town in Ireland. This is where we will start. An adventure of a lifetime with the girl of my dreams; it doesn't get any better than that. I fold the map back up and return it to its hiding spot. I can hear my mom calling me for dinner but I think I might actually be too happy to eat. I have been waiting for this for so long.

It can only get better from here.

X^X

May 22nd, 2010

It's been six year since that day. I look back on it now and see myself for the sap I truly was. I laugh before the pain slowly creeps in. My memories of her always end like that…in pain. I open the top desk drawer and steady my hand. I can see the ribbon as I hear someone move behind me. I don't pay her any attention as she moves around the room; I assume gathering her clothes.

I wait to see what Mindy, Muffy or whatever her name is has to say before she leaves. I won't call her or see her again. She served her purpose for the evening and now all I want is solitude. I hear her heels making there way to me before her arms move around my neck. I tense under her touch as her foul breath moves to my nose. I want her out right now.

"Hey lover, when can I see you again?"

"Are you really that girl?" I move her arms off my shoulder as I turn in my chair to look at her makeup stained face. Blonds…why always blonds with blue eyes? "Please tell me you know what this is?"

My tone is crueler than necessary but I want her out and sometimes this is the only way to deal with these girls. I watch her back up before looking around suddenly self conscious. A twinge of guilt moves through me as she turns to leave my room. I listen as the door opens and closes. She moves clicking quickly down the hall and out of my life.

I turn back to my desk. I know that I'm good looking which makes them flock to me. The fact that I am very wealthy doesn't hurt either; but I also know my reputation. I am a screw em and leave em kinda guy and I don't even try to sugar coat it. Females swarm to me thinking they can be the one to change my dismal out look on love but I quickly let them know that the only thing I need from them is a quick release before I send them on their way.

I move loose items in the drawer before I grab the ribbon bundle. I close my eyes trying to understand my need to put myself through this, again. I quickly untie before the pictures spill forth. I pick them up to find her face looking back at me. Oh to see how far I've fallen. I allow the memories to surround me as I look in her beautiful face. Her eyes, her lips, her scent, her body, and my fingers through her thick mahogany hair; I close my eyes feeling overwhelmed.

I can't tell you how many times I have tried to burn these pictures and their memories. I light the match but then the thought of having nothing left her causes the match to burn down every time. I am haunted by the perfection of time and bitter from the emptiness left behind. I can still feel her and then am immediately pissed off by the thought.

I tie the pictures back up before moving away from the desk. Enough of this shit. I am thinking about someone who couldn't be bothered with me. I am tired of the power she has on me even after all these years. I hear voices and I know Jasper's back. I grab a beer from the fridge before flinging myself on the couch.

The door opens and closes and I know immediately Jazz isn't alone. I can hear a high pitch as I take another long pull of my beer. Jazz and his need for obnoxious twits; at least my conquests have some class. They enter the room and I wish I was inebriated. She's not unattractive in fact she's quite hot but then she opens her mouth and I immediately want to destroy my own eardrums.

"Maria this Edward my roommate," his southern drawl fills the room as she moves to me while eyeing me up and down. I lift my beer to her hoping Jazz will finish quickly and send her packing.

"So," she smiles at me. "Will he be joining us?"

I look to Jazz who lightly shrugs. I give her the once over. Her body is amazing, most likely fake but her dark hair is stopping me. It's black and goes nicely with her green eyes. I hesitate before the need rears its ugly head at me. Looking at her pictures always stirs something in me.

Well obnoxious, today is your lucky day.

"Sure, why the hell not," I can think of one way to keep her quiet.

Apparently she's thinking the same as she moves to my lap to undo my pants. I watch Jazz for a brief moment wondering where the hell he picked her up. It's not uncommon for us to, shall I say share the ladies we bring home. There isn't anything other than friendship between Jazz and I so we tend not to have threesomes since that shit always gets awkward afterwards.

I feel Maria free me from my pants as her hands reach for my now erect member. I take another pull from my beer as her hand moves up and down my shaft. I close my eyes and wait to get off as her hand tightens around me. My breathing picks up as her tongue licks my tip. I hear movement in the room but I keep my eyes closed.

Maria stills for a moment before her head is thrust into my lap. She moans around me as Jazz plows into her from behind. I can hear him grunting and panting as her moans and squeals get louder. I am almost there as she works me over hard. A few more minutes and I'm coming down her throat. She brings me down before releasing me so Jazz can finish getting himself off.

I polish off my beer and I fix my pants. Now that her mouth is free, Maria is squalling and I really wish I hadn't finish so quickly. I can't move so I have to wait for them to finish before I can take a much needed shower. With a couple more thrusts Jasper falls on top of the girl unconvincingly faking her orgasm. I give them a whole minute before I am on my feet and out of the room.

I need to wash this night off.

Once showered, I move to my bed to check my messages; I have three. One is from some girl which I delete. The second is my cousin Alice letting me know she will be on an earlier flight. The last is from my mom. My parents are retiring and as such they are moving from my childhood home. They aren't selling it but they want everything put in storage.

I erase my messages and turn off my light. I need to sleep; I have finals tomorrow and in a few days summer break will commence. I think about the significance of this break. I am heading to medical school like my father and this is the summer where our perfect vacation was to take place.

I groan, pissed off at myself for letting her back in my head. I can't fight it so instead I embrace it. Her eyes bright with light as her laughter fill the room and my heart. Her hands in my hair pulling me to her as her soft full lips move over mine while our tongues dance. This is my heaven and my hell. I play this out until her voice fills the space.

"I'll see you tomorrow Boyfriend."

Not fucking likely.


There you have it, the first chapter. I hope you like it. I can tell you right now that this will be a rollercoaster filled with highs and lows. I invite you along for the ride!

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