A/N: Another Vampire Knight oneshot! Yay! I decided to post this separately from my collection of VK oneshots because it didn't really fit. This is a bit sadder than a lot of my other ones. Soo…this is a song fic for the Vocaloid song, Just Be Friends. There are some amazing Nico Nico choruses for the song on youtube, so check them out.
Erm, as you read this, you'll probably notice I didn't include the parts that actually said 'Just be friends, etc'. It didn't really fit with the theme of the story, so I left those parts out.
Now that I got all of that out of the way, let's get on with the fic, shall we?
Disclaimer:
Zero: Heartache-chan, thankfully, does not own Vampire Knight.
Me: Thankfully? O.O
ENJOY!
Zero stared up at the intricate fabric of the black canopy above him. His body felt numb, as though his mind and heart were in a different place. Next to him, Kaname slept soundly, his breath coming out softly and evenly.
It came to my mind in the early morning yesterday
As if I gathered broken pieces of glass
The hunter wasn't sure what to do. It felt like everything was coming to a screeching halt. There were too many factors, too many what ifs. How were they supposed to go on living this lie? Soon, this idyllic school life would be coming to an end. Soon, someone would find out. Was their love really strong enough? Zero wasn't so sure.
What the heck is this? Drips from my cut finger
Is this really what we'd hoped for?
Passion. Really, that's what this was all about. A passionate hate transformed into something deeper. Then again, maybe it was there all along. Could something fueled off of anger, sadness, betrayal…could that really be worth fighting for? Worth making sacrifices for?
I knew it at the bottom of my heart, the hardest choice would be best
My self-love refuses it and repeats self-contradiction
When can I tell it to you?
"When?" the silver-haired teenager whispered to himself. "Maybe if we had been born in a different time, as different people. Maybe then this would work. Maybe if society was different. But now, as things are, this isn't meant to last."
In the slowly decaying world, I'm struggling but it's the only way
Carving your faded smiles, I pulled out the plug
"Maybe." Zero jumped as a voice called out to him suddenly. "But maybe if everything was different, we wouldn't have found each other in the first place." Kaname rolled over to face his beloved. "We wouldn't have fallen in love."
Zero shook his head vehemently, "This isn't love, Kaname. It's an ache, a loneliness. We were just desperate to find someone to understand, to fill the void."
I screamed with my hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain
"Isn't that what love is?" the pureblood argued. "Wanting someone to stay by your side so you won't feel that ache?"
"No, that's not what it is."
Anger at Zero's stubborn denial flashed in Kaname's chocolate eyes. "How would you know about love, Zero?" Instantly, he regretted his harsh words. He only spoke them out of fear, but the damage was done.
Nothing is left at the end of an unchained me
Zero sat up and glared down at the pureblood. "You know as much as I do. Has anyone ever loved you, Kaname?" They were both fumbling around, trying to hurt each other more and more. Just as they shared the power to lovingly heal, they also shared the power to lovingly hurt.
Coincidences that stuck us degenerates into the dark and are broken in pieces
A peal of cold laughter escaped the other vampire's lips. "For someone so stubborn, Zero, you're very willing to give up on this. Does this charade mean so little to you? Are you willing to let our relationship lie down and die?"
"No matter what we do, life is just like that," I mumbled
The ex-human's voice dropped to a defeated murmur, "I tired of fighting for everything and everyone."
Somebody's tears flowed down dried cheeks
A mirthless smile was Kaname's response. "I see." He understood that he wasn't worth fighting for. The graceful pureblood stood and exited the room.
Kaname exited the gates along with the rest of the Night Class. The young ladies squealed and gushed as the vampires walked out. His remote eyes immediately sought out Zero's wonderful shock of silver hair. They needed to talk, as Kaname was unclear as to where they stood now. If Zero really didn't want this, he would press the matter no more. But…
What should they do?
Yesterday a tranquil night made me realize
It'd be useless to pick up fallen petals
As he walked by, Kaname deliberately made eye contact with the taciturn prefect. Almost imperceptibly, Zero nodded.
Once the rest of the vampires were safely escorted to class, Zero went to meet with Kaname. There, in a small grove surrounded with trees, Kaname stood waiting patiently. How will this end?
Because it'd never bloom again
"Do you really…want to give up on this?" Kaname asked gently. His face was impassive and his normally warm eyes carefully hid what he was really feeling. The mask was up once more.
It's tiny but already dead on my palms
Our time stopped long ago
Zero looked around at the beauty of the forest around him, desperate to look anywhere but the eyes of the man in front of him. Despite himself, he felt tears pooling in his silver-lilac eyes. He had resigned himself to his fate, but it was still hard for him. Here was where it all began. They had shared so many special moments in this very spot.
I remember the season we first met and your grace smile
So many kisses, so many whispered words, never to be spoken again.
"Why, Zero?" Kaname asked when his lover didn't speak. "Do you really not love me? Do you really think my feelings are so insincere?"
The hunter couldn't speak.
"Or are you afraid?"
"It's not worth it!" Zero finally blurted out untruthfully. Kaname's questions were hitting a little too close to home. "The consequences aren't worth it." 'I'm not worth it.' The most important thought went unspoken.
Bringing up old issues, we hurt each other as badly as possible
Our minds are full of thorns
Kaname nodded. "I understand." He turned away.
With this continuous dull relationship
Grievously I can't change my mind
Zero choked on a sob. He knew he didn't have to do this; nothing had to change. But he was so afraid. What should he do? Was there anything he could do? No…his prince was already walking away…
I still love you, I don't wanna be apart from you, but I have to tell you…
This fear of not being able to live without Kaname, this fear of being ripped from his side…it was tearing apart from the seams. He couldn't do it anymore. This emotion, this dependence, this soul-piercing fear…
It's raining heavily in my mind, I'm stunned, I'm standing dead, my vision is blurry
Despite my determination, the pain is still penetrating
The bond between us has come apart and is dying away in everyday
Kaname smiled gently. It was probably the most wonderful expression Zero had ever seen. "Goodbye, my Zero."
Goodbye, my sweetheart, it's over
We have to leave without turning back
Heartbroken, Zero fell to his knees as Kaname walked away. He pressed the back of his hand to his mouth to hold back a scream. This was the right thing to do. It was for the best. They would be better off without each other. It wasn't meant to be. It wasn't meant to be.
Just once, just once, if I could have my wish to come true
I'd be born again and again and go see you on those days
Maybe, in another lifetime, they'd meet again. Maybe then, it would be love.
I screamed with my hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain
Zero cried. He felt empty. The ache was back.
Nothing is left at the end of an unchained me
There was nothing left.
The bond between us has come apart and is dying away in everyday
"Goodbye, my Kaname."
Goodbye, my sweetheart, it's over
We have to leave without turning back
Nothing.
It's all over.
A/N: Sooo… I hope none of you are pissed at Zero because, well, it was kinda his fault. Please don't be mad at him…or me. XD
So, tell me what you think? Please please PLEASE REVIEW! I love reviews. I like to toss them in the air and dance through them like a cloud of cookies and rainbows.
Zero: very lovely mental image…
ANYWAY, I have a bunch of stuff lined up as far as VK fanfiction is concerned. I have gotten re-inspired for this idea I came up with a not too long ago, so I'll probably be putting that up soon. And of course I shall continue working on The Darkest Dream.
Zero: That's not a bunch of stuff! That's like, two stories!
Me: Shut up, Zero! No one asked you!
SEE YA NEXT TIME!
