This story was written on a challenge given my BMG (bas_math_girl) over on lj. In which, at the end of her story The Girl From Beyond, Rose gets punished in a rather...unique way, and the Doctor refusing to talk to her, leaving Donna to explain it. This is the story of Rose's punishment and what comes of it.


Through Jackie's Eyes

There was something incredibly terrifying about this place. The pink walls seemed to close in on her, the beams of the ceiling likely to collapse, caving the roof of...what was this? Her mother's mind? The small window-like screen was the only thing in here that made it possible for her not to go insane. It showed the outside world. No, more than that, it showed the outside world that her mum saw, not what she, Rose Tyler, saw. Even worse, the outside world of the past, not her mum's present.

It was surreal. She hated surreal. It didn't fit in to her nice view of her life with the Doctor. No matter how crazy that would get, he would always explain things to her in ways she would understand, so she knew what things were. He made the surreal, real and identifiable.

But he hadn't with this. He had dragged her out by the ropes around her wrists and left her here, with Donna explaining the room as some sort of prop from a movie that would make her see and feel everything her mum went through while she had gone off on her adventures with the Doctor.

She wasn't looking forward to it. For one thing, that first trip out she had come home a year late. Her mother had been so worried and lost and angry at that she had blamed Mickey for it, thinking her boyfriend at the time had murdered her.

Mickey was useless though. She had only dated him because he had a car and could get her from place to place without having to catch the damn bus all the time. How he would possibly have had the guts to murder her, or anyone else was beyond her.

She remembered her mum going on at one stage about how lonely she was, alone in the flat for the first time ever without her and she had rolled her eyes. She would have left home soon enough anyway, once she had gotten the money from her job, if it hadn't been blown up by the Doctor that was.

Rose figured that her leaving for her own place and going off with the Doctor was much the same thing. She'd occasionally visit, or call when the Doctor prompted her to, and catch up with the local gossip over a cup of tea, before leaving again to live her own life.

Her life was on the TARDIS. She didn't belong anywhere else any longer. And when she finally got back to him, she'd found that the Doctor had shacked up with the fat cow Donna Noble and had two fake children to look after.

Or was the girl, the one who almost shot her the stupid little bitch, real? She hadn't really been paying attention when it was explained to her, but either way, none of the children was truly theirs.

She still had a chance to get the Doctor away from the fat cow of a woman who dared to call him her husband. All she had to do was get through this experience, and he'd pick her up and welcome her back with open arms. This was a test to see if she still had what it takes to be with him.

Well, fine then, she thought, taking a seat that was just before the window screen that showed her what her mum saw years ago.

After all, this stuff had already happened to both of them, and how badly could the past hurt her? She'd already survived it without feeling any worse for wear and it was possible the cow was just trying to scare her, telling her she'd feel everything her mother did.

Eager to finish her test to get back to the Doctor she leaned forward and peered through the window.

She knew the scene that started playing before her eyes. Her mum was watching telly and she had just gone in to say bye to her as she went off to work for the day. What had happened between her going off with the Doctor and her meeting the Doctor that had freaked her mum out so much it would be part of this?.

She felt a longing to be back with one of her Doctor's, this one was her first, after all. How could she ever forget that? It's like the first time you have sex. But better.

Soon enough, she was lost in her mother's memory and feelings of the first day she met the Doctor.