Chapter 1
Disclaimer- I do not own Clannad
It has been 3 years since my 6-year-old daughter got lost. There was a festival in a town 5 hours away from where we lived and we came there to celebrate, me, my husband and my daughter. We were having fun, so much fun stopping over booths eating, laughing and playing three of us hand in hand. Then, my daughter saw those fire dancers flocked by a crowd, she immediately ran to its direction breaking free from our hold. Of course, I ran after her, so did my husband but she vanished from our sight. I panicked "Ushio!" I called "Ushio! Ushio!" I cried my lovely daughter's name. By the end of the dance, I still can't find her. We did every single possible thing we could. Reported it to the police, sent and posted out fliers, distributed posters. Our families and friends all helped. I know, we know that my daughter is still alive…yet lost.
Okazaki, my husband engaged in heavy drinking, He would go home very late at night and I wouldn't bother to ask why. I always stay at home and cry on the bed looking at our happy picture and I would seldom eat.
Today was supposed to be Ushio's 9th birthday. Day passed without Okazaki home and me not eating just laying on our bed thinking about past birthday parties. I giggled like I was mental, alone but laughing and crying at the same time. Then I heard a thud, Okazaki is finally home. I took courage and stood up wiping my tears away I approached him.
"Okazaki, whe-where have you been?" I asked with my eyes still sore from crying.
"A mini store outside" He responded a bit drunk.
"To-to-tomorrow, we-we got to go to the other town to check news about Ushio" I said my tone of voice decreasing
then I gasped! Tomoya punched the wall "GIVE UP! GIVE UP! NAGISA!" he shouted "SHE'S DEAD, HELL DEAD! DEAD DEAD!"
I covered my ears, tears dropping on the floor
"if you don't want to come ill ask mom to accompany me" I said as calmly as I could even though I'm hurt as hell
"It has been three years Nagisa, 3 YEARS! We hired policemen investigators; we spent all our money for those posters! We sold our furniture we quit our jobs JUST TO FIND HER!" Okazaki told me with his hands on my shoulders.
I can see the tears in his eyes. Yes, he wanted to move on but at the same time he doesn't want to leave Ushio in the past, I can see it
"She is our daughter, our precious daughter" I whispered.
"Not anymore. Her existence is unknown to me now. All she gave was burden to us, to me!" Tomoya exclaimed.
My eyes widened in shock as my husband wiped his tears his face was replaced with anger
"No… no…" I took a few steps backward "She was never a burden, Okazaki. She-She Ushio will never be a burden" I said breathing heavily
"Never? Look around you! It's because or HER, Why all of this happened! I give up. She will never be found again" Okazaki looked down and walked in a drunken manner, he headed to the sofa and lied.
'He is just drunk… just drunk' I thought. I sobbed covered my eyes and ran to the room.
I woke up around in the morning, depressed. I fixed my things and headed to my parents' leaving my husband on the coach sleeping and snoring like nothing happened. I was thinking was it all a dream?
I knocked on the door and saw mom, she opened it "Are you okay, my dear?" She asked me a bit sadly.
She also grieved for my lost.
"I'm fine" I said "let's go?" I forced a smile.
I called mom yesterday telling her to accompany me for today so she understood me.
With no further questions we started to walk heading to the train station.
After 6 hours we arrived at the police station of the other town where I lost my child I talked to one of the police while mom waited for me outside, after a few minutes I went out to see my mom with a sad look on my face. I guess you know what that means.
Mom looked at me and hugged me "the time will come" She muttered.
"When will it be?" I replied
