Title: Finding Peace
Author: Shenandoah Risu
Rating: G
Content Flags: none
Spoilers: Season 2 "Seizure"
Characters: Ginn, Amanda Perry
Word Count: 362
Prompt: 27- SGU, Ginn & Amanda Perry, finding peace
Author's Notes: Written for stargateland.
Disclaimer: I don't own SGU. I wouldn't know what to do with it. Now, Young... Young I'd know what to do with. ;-)
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Finding Peace
Amanda is hiding from her; in their tiny prison of circuitry and data, she still manages to hide from her.
Ginn was angry at first; she wants to be with Eli so much, that all she knows is the pain of not being with him.
She analyzes her feelings, and the pain gets stronger every second.
She realizes she's found Amanda Perry. She's found her pain. It is identical to hers – and so much more, because unlike hers it is mixed with guilt, with disappointment, with betrayal.
Ginn has never tried to quantify her love for Eli, has never made him quantify his love for her. She's never tried to hold him hostage.
Ginn explores Amanda's pain, and she finds grief. Grief for a useless body vegetating in a machine for decades, grief for a brilliant mind trapped within, grief for physical pleasures denied forever, grief for another soul pulled into her personal hell.
And suddenly she understands the greed, the possessiveness, the struggle to hold on at all cost.
"I'm here, Amanda," she says. "I'm here, and it's all right."
There she is, furtive, faint. Phantom-like.
Ginn smiles. "I could never do what you did," she says. "But I do understand. I understand now. You want me to hate you. I can't. Not anymore. We need to stay together. Work together. Figure out how to eliminate the limiting parameter. Figure out how to get back. I can forgive you. But first you have to forgive yourself."
She reaches out.
It takes a long time, but eventually she senses something else: peace.
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