This kind of change in character of misa, cause she pretty stupid for acting like that.

I don't own death note.

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Behind the mask

Day one

I look at outside my window while it rain.

I like the rain it make me feel like angels wore crying and took away all the dirty things in life.

I wanted to be outside and let my body soak while I dance to it and cry my lies and the crimes I had committed.

My name Amane Misa, im a popular idol in Japan and the helping hand of 'Kira', as know as Light Yagami, the man who i lie to love.

Yes all my life is been a lie seen the day I met Light, I told him I will be devoted to him, but I knew that he will use me and throw me away.

Why did I let myself in this situation?; I don't know why, I think it was my hunger to see what this 'Kira' will do.

Rem is my shinigami, she is 'god of death' and she protects me. I was happy to have her with me and what made me happy was that promised she told to Light that she will kill him if I die on the time I wasn't suppose to die, So of course he complied.

The other reason I wanted to help kira, cause I believe in justice and to get revenge for my father and mother, oh how miss mother when she stroke my hair and smile to me telling everything was going to be ok and father always nagging me for wearing those short skirts.

I think I can't hold onto my tears , for my lies of love and me being this person.

Im not an idiot, nor am Im in love to him and Im discussed it to myself and him.

I move away from the window and turn on the tv, their Kiyomi Takada, the messenger of kira tv or something, sends a message about some guy who committed adultery was killed by kira and she goes that we should praised kira 'the new god'.

"God…were are you?", this world is coming to end and we are damned for our sins, please God hear me out, if you exit don't let Light Yagami be the next god.

I turn off the tv and think about the fool who got killed, 'did he to had to be killed by kira?', but what am I talking about im too a killer and murder of what I believe to be justice, i should not pity him what so ever.

I say goodnight to Mogi, one of the police officer who is pretending to be my manager and taking care of me. He then ask me if I was ok, I used my mask and tell him "super duper", god i think im going to get sick. He waves goodnight and I exit to my room.

My thought go back once again to the past when I met Ryuuzaki, as well know as 'L'. he was one of our victims, the one who kira beat.

I rely like him, he was funny, he got a kind smile, he was weird, he ate to much fat food and dint gain weight and sited in a weir way. I some time wanted to ask him how does he do it and does it hurt, then I laugh quietly so no one can hear me.

Then I wonder some more when the time when he touch my bud and panic about it, I still laugh about it, im still mad that he did that. Specially for putting on that scary place, I never though that something like that will ever happen to me.

Wonder if should love him, no… he is dead now and it was my fault.

Why was he killed, did he to need to be punished by the justice of the new god kira.

I closed my eyes and let the darkness devoured me and hope i don't wake up.

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