Resurfacings
spegiel-octopi
A/N: I suppose it's in poor taste to say that this is my first fanfic but...it is. BUT KEEP READING PLEASE. I am no Lilac Summers or Alicia Blade, but I will try my best! Please read, review, and tell me what you think. If it sucks let me have it, if you like it then by all means let me know. Just to clarify this is set at the end of the Stars season, summer break (because it's convenient !)
Oh and fair warning I'm going for the more-angst-ridden-than-a-Dashboard-Confessionals-song-approach (It might not be quite apparent yet, but hey it's just the prologue!).
Prologue
Usagi was alone, gut-wrenchingly alone. Looking around her all she could see was nothingness, a vast and desolate empty that she wasn't ready to cope with. She wrapped her arms around herself and shivered, despite the lack of cold. Her eyes closed tightly trying to combat the memories of the past few hours that clouded her mind.
She had seen them die, all of them, one by one. Each of them fought fiercely to protect her but each of them failed. Her shaking grew more violent as she remembered holding Rei's fading body, the rest of her precious inner senshi scattered around her, stripped of their star seeds. She remembered staring into her friends violet-eyes, and being startled at the pain they held despite the air of pride she tried to put on. But Usagi, saw it, and it had rattled her more than anything else had in her short life. She saw the fiery priestess-in-training give up. She stared around her and saw the same expression of hopelessness on the faces of Venus, Mercury, and Jupiter.
Even the Outers, the impossibly ellusive and voracious Outers had fallen. Usagi's eyelids clamped down harder as she thought about Haruka and Michiru's faces when they found that Galaxia had no star seed. They had killed Saturn and Pluto for nothing. Their traitorous actions went completely un-justified and they were killed. They were together, even in death.
"Once again Sailor Moon saves the world from immenent doom." She sarcastically mused to herself. Sure, she had defeated Chaos, but the sacrifice it had taken hardly seemed worth it. What did it really matter that the world was safe? What good was her life going to be now?
"That's selfish." she quietly chastized herself.
Her eyes slowly fluttered open silently hoping to herself that when they were open she would see everyone there in front of her, congratulating her, telling her that they were proud of her. Rei would call her Odango Atama and Usagi's face would flush, she'd stomp her feet and insist on her calling her by her real name.
"My name's Usagi, Baka." she said quietly to herself almost willing them before here, as if actually speaking would make them appear. Slowly tears began to sliently trace their way down her cheeks.
"Ami, tell her my name's Usagi."
"No, Minako-chan, it's a ROSE by any other NAME would smell just as sweet." Usagi forced a giggle as the tears began to pour more freely.
"Oh, Lita she can't help it."
"No, Rei-baka it has nothing to do with the fact that we're blonde, you're just jealous." She choked back a sob and brought a hand to her face to wipe at her persistent tears, but instead it stopped at her bare chest. Her eyes widened slightly and placing her hand over her heart her composure completely collapsed.
"Mamo-chan..." She murumered letting her fingernails dig into her skin as she felt the void inside her chest. He wasn't there, she couldn't feel him anymore. Even after Galaxia had shown her his star seed, she couldn't bring herself to believe her. But this proved it, he really was...
"Gone.." she whispered almost inaudibly.
"Gone, gone, gone, gone..." she repeated while shaking her head, each word gaining more volume and emotion, like a litany chanted during a right. Her small hands began to frantically claw at her chest, feeling the chasm inside her growing.
"Usagi-Chan!" She heard a voice echo through the emptiness.
"USAGI-CHAN!" It called again, more persistent this time. There was something so familiar about the insistent condescending tone calling to her. It almost sounded like...
"LUNA!" Usagi screamed as she sat straight up in bed clutching tightly to her sheets. She looked around as if seeing her surroundings for the first time, a slightly confused look on her face. Her bangs stuck lightly to her damp forehead and her breath was coming out in labored gasps. Without realizing what she was doing a hand flew up to her chest and grabbed onto the material of the tank top she was wearing. She felt it, that persistent little tug that assured her he was still there.
"You were having another nightmare." said a slightly disgruntled Luna said from Usagi's feet where she had landed when Usagi sat up suddenly, catapulting her across the bed.
Usagi put her head in her head tiredly before raising it to examine her surroundings once again as she drifted farther into consciousness. Sunlight poured through the window, forcing her eyes into a squint. She raised her arms of her head in a languid feline-like stretch and collapsed back onto the bed.
"What time is it?" she said trying to change the subject. Ever since the final battle with Galaxia she'd been having these nightmares and every night they got worse and worse. They weren't all about Galaxia either, some of them were from memories she thought she had buried long ago, or memories she didn't even think she had. Just last night she had dreamt about the fall of the Moon Kingdom. It had seemed so real, almost as if she was there experiencing it through the eyes of her past self.
Luna sighed and shook her head, but decided not to pursue the subject further. She slowly waltzed onto Usagi's chest and layed down.
"It's almost noon." she said before lazily shutting her eyes.
"WHAT!?" Usagi screamed and scrambled out of bed throwing Luna unceremoniously to the floor. She began flailing around the room and grabbing random articles of clothing while simultaneously stripping out of her pajamas.
"It's summer! Where do you have to be so early?" Luna inquired shaking off a shirt that Usagi had flung in her direction.
"Scout meeting..." she said,skillfully putting her hair in her trademark Odangos.
"There haven't been any youma attacks in weeks!" Luna retorted sounding almost indignant.
"Rei has a feeling" Usagi said emphasizing the last word in annoyance. As she reached for her purse she happened to catch a fleeting glance at her clock.
"REI'S GOING TO KILL ME!" she wailed as she ran out of her room leaving a slightly dazed Luna in her wake.
As she jogged towards the Crown Arcade Usagi found her thoughts drifting back to the nightmares's that had been plagueing her sleep for the past month or so. Every night they kept getting more vivid and every morning when she woke up the lines between dreams and reality got a little fuzzier. She'd considered talking to Rei about them but decided that she would just call her a big baby.
"Besides," She thought to herself. "We were all pretty traumatized after the battle with Galaxia, why should I be whining? I didn't even DIE." A bittersweet smiled played on her lips as she picked up her pace rounding the corner towards the arcade.
A/N: Yeah, I know, not much yet but I wanted to cut off there because I didn't want it to get too lengthy and annoying. I'll try to have Chapter 1 up hopefully within the next few days but definitely within the week. Until then!
