A/N: Hello, Sophie here :) I really really need to stop starting new stories when I have so many things I am still working on, but this was playing on my mind so much and I had to get it out. Initially it was going to be a one shot but then I just felt the whole thing forming in my mind for quite a few chapters. So here we go!

Summary: Kendall and Carlos are University students at Yale, Kendall is an English Literature Major (like me) and Carlos is a Medicine Major, which is crazy I know because he's not meant to be that smart. Both boys are in love with their professors: James Diamond and Logan Mitchell ;) But in such large classes their professors don't know who they are... until a party.

Kendall and Carlos would be about 21 and James and Logan being teachers but quite young ones about 27, 28? So there's an age gap. BTR obviously doesn't exist and this is completely AU.

This is also written in third person but more focussed on Kendall, cause I love him more than air.

Disclaimer: I don't own the boys or BTR (which is a huge shame) or anything else you may recognise.

Please review and let me know what you think! :) xx


To say Kendall Knight thought his English Literature Professor was cute would be an understatement, it would be more appropriate to say he thought Mr James Diamond was amazing, stunning, beautiful, sexy, incredible... the list goes on. For you see Kendall Knight had spent the past three years at university obsessing over a man who barely even knew he existed in a class of over 50 students and knew that even if one day he did catch Mr Diamond's eye they could never do anything, cause you know... the law, which is important or whatever but Kendall doesn't really understand how Mr Diamond fucking his brains out against his desk is breaking the law.

Mr Diamond was like a God amongst men; Kendall just couldn't understand how someone so perfect did something as mundane as teaching at Yale University. He was relatively young for a professor, clearly straight out of university himself, which Kendall assumed made him about 27 or 28, but it didn't matter. Just looking at him would get Kendall's heart racing, that beautiful soft brown hair that fell lightly on his face, striking hazel eyes you could lose yourself in, a smile that lit up like the sun and his body... oh his body... please excuse Kendall whilst he drools.

Kendall only took English Lit. in his first year because he needed to make up the requirements for his major, and he had every intention of dropping it by second year but then there was Mr Diamond and Kendall decided "Fuck being a journalist, I'll be a... writer?" Kendall didn't really know what majoring in English would provide for him in the future but right now it had provided him with three blissful years of staring at and fantasising over Mr Diamond and that was just fine. Kendall was good at it too, like really good top of his class; it was a mixture of natural smarts and wanting to impress Mr Diamond. Not that he knew who Kendall was by face, but it gave Kendall great pleasure to know that Mr Diamond would always at least think he was smart.

Kendall had just started his third year of University and had of course signed up for the class he knew Mr Diamond was going to be taking this year: Romantic Classics. The subject was kind of girly but Kendall could make it work, and it would guarantee him one amazing year of simply staring and wishing, however this year things would end up being even more amazing than Kendall could have ever anticipated...

It all started one afternoon when Kendall was returning to his dorm after a massive study session at the library...

"Kendall! I haven't seen you in like a billion years" His roommate and best friend Carlos Garcia smiled as Kendall collapsed on his bed.

"I swear I'm never going to get this paper done in time" Kendall groaned, turning on his side to look at Carlos who had his head buried in a medical textbook.

Kendall couldn't help but smile to himself. It was no secret that the only reason Carlos had decided to switch to a Medicine degree over a straight Science degree was because of a certain professor named Dr Logan Mitchell. Dr Mitchell was like Kendall's Mr Diamond for Carlos, both boys obsessing over two completely unavailable men, it was rather sad.

Carlos and Kendall had been best friends since forever, growing up together through junior school, middle school, high school... going to College together sort of just seemed like the done thing to do, and of course they did everything in their power to be roommates.

"You always pull it off though buddy, no worries!" Carlos smiled, always happy and never letting anything get him down.

"Ugh I don't know about this one Carlitos. It's tough; I have no idea where to even begin"

"Why don't you go see your professor? I'm sure he will help" Carlos grinned.

It was no secret to Carlos that Kendall was completely head over heels for his professor; Carlos thought it was cute and also somewhat ironic that he too felt the same over one of his professors.

"Shut up. I'll be fine"

"Whatever" Carlos laughs. "You know if you want to get your mind off of things there's a party on tonight, being thrown by the medicine society at one of the sorority houses, it's supposed to be huge"

"Yeah?" Kendall asks, the thought of drowning his stress in a keg very appealing.

"Yeah let's totally hit it up! It's going to be awesome. I heard everyone is going to it, even a few of the professors"

"HA I knew it!" Kendall laughs, "You think Logan is going don't you!"

"No!" Carlos says as his cheeks flush red, "And it's Professor Mitchell to you!"

"You're so cute when you're embarrassed" Kendall says with grin, "But seriously, if Profs are going is it going to be any good?"

"Umm that's why the cool Profs are going, because it will be good, duh!"

Nearly two hours later they are walking towards the Medicine society building looking hot, single and ready to mingle. Carlos and Kendall are good looking guys... seriously. Sometimes one should wonder why they obsess over unobtainable men when they could have women and even other guys hanging off their arms if they wanted.

"Shit, this party really is huge. How come I didn't hear about it?" Kendall muses as they walk through the front doors.

"Because you're a lame Arts student" Carlos chuckles, leading him and Kendall towards where the drinks are.

There are people everywhere, and people ranging from all levels of intoxication. There are some merely drinking and talking animatedly to others, some busting and grinding on the dance floor without a care in the world and then there are the ones who have already started playing strip poker in the corner; this is going to be a great party.

"Wow you medicine geeks really are freaks" Kendall grins as Carlos fills up his cup from the keg.

"You know it" Carlos grins, lifting his cup up to propose a toast. "To not giving a fuck"

"To not giving a fuck" Kendall says with a big smile, downing his drink in a matter of seconds.

After about 4 cups of beer later Carlos manages to drag Kendall onto the dance floor, much to Kendall's embarrassment. It isn't long before the women begin to descend, dancing around Carlos and Kendall with smiles on their faces and hope in their eyes. Kendall is far beyond the point of caring who he dances with tonight, he accepted a long time ago that there is no point saving himself for someone and something that is never going to happen.

"Hi my name is Jo!" A cute girl with blonde hair and a pearly white smile says to Kendall over the insanely loud music.

"Kendall!" He responds, extending a hand to shake her dainty little fingers.

"Dance with me?" she asks.

Kendall doesn't answer, instead grabbing her by the waist and pulling her in until they are positively grinding on the dance floor. To not giving a fuck, remember?

"Kendall!" He hears Carlos yell in his ear after what could have been minutes or maybe hours of dancing with this Jo girl.

"Mm?" He murmurs, looking towards his best friend but hands not leaving Jo's hips.

"Can I talk to you? Like right now?" Carlos asks, practically jumping where he stands.

"Sure" Kendall says, turning to Jo and saying with a smile "Will you excuse me? Best friend troubles"

"Of course!" She gushes, reaching up to hug Kendall and then whispering in his ear "Come find me later"

Kendall can't help but grin as she walks away.

"Kendall focus!" Carlos yells over the music, snapping Kendall out of staring at Jo's ass.

"Ok sorry, what's up?"

Carlos doesn't answer straight away, instead of grabbing Kendall's arm and dragging him off the dance floor and back to the quieter kitchen.

"Ok so again, what's up?"

"He's here!" Carlos whispers.

"Who's here?"

"Professor Mitchell of course!" The Latino says excitedly.

"No shit really?" Kendall replies with the same level of excitement, eyes beginning to scan their current location.

"Yes! I really want to talk to him, but I won't of course. That would be stupid. He doesn't even know who I am; he probably doesn't want to be bothered by his students"

"Why the hell would he come to a student party if he didn't want to be bothered by his students? That seems stupid"

"Oh come on Kendall! You know what I mean!"

"Yeah yeah" Kendall laughs, "So where is he?"

"I saw him outside on the deck, talking with a few other professors"

"Ok come on" Kendall smiles, taking Carlos by the arm and leading him back through the crowded dancers towards the deck.

"No! No no!" Carlos whines, protesting as Kendall practically drags him.

"Come on you're going to talk to him!"

"No I can't!"

"Yes you can! Now which one is he again?" Kendall asks as he peers through the window at the small clusters of people outside.

"That one, see the kind of short guy with the really dark hair? Cute dimples, gorgeous smile, just generally amazing?"

"Ha yes I see him" Kendall laughs, but soon the laughter is stopped dead in its tracks. "Shit!"

"What, what is it?" Carlos asks frantically.

"Professor Diamond is here!" He almost yells, face practically pressed up against the glass to get a better look.

It's definitely him, in all his sexy, magnificent glory, and he looks incredible. The most casual Kendall has ever seen him in a pair of dark denim jeans and a dark blue t-shirt that hugs his tanned muscles incredibly well.

"No way!" Carlos exclaims. "What are the chances of our two dream lovers being friends?"

And they definitely are friends; it is obvious by the way they are smiling, laughing and certainly look like two buddies who hang out on frequent occasion.

"Ok new deal, I will talk to Professor Mitchell if you talk to Professor Diamond!"

"No!" Kendall exclaims in pale face horror.

"Yes! Come on, let's go talk to them!"

"Fine!" Kendall sighs "But I am so nervous. I have like never spoken to him before and oh my god!"

"Kendall, you're acting like you're about to meet Justin Bieber, stop fangirling" Carlos laughs.

"Shut up! Meeting Mr Diamond is far better than meeting Justin Bieber"

Carlos simply rolls his eyes and gives Kendall a small smile, "You ready?"

"No, but whatever. What are we going to say?"

"Um... let's just go introduce ourselves. They will recognise our names from our assignments"

"Ok good point" Kendall says as he takes a deep breath, giving himself a small pat on the back for being a straight A student.

With one last deep breath and calming moment the two boys step out onto the deck and nervously make their way over to where the two loves of their lives are standing.

"So I said to her" Kendall hears Mr Diamond say as they approach "I say, if you want to put your shit in my office don't expect me to be fucking nice to you"

Fuck he sounds sexy when he swears Kendall thinks, he has never heard Mr Diamond swear, except for in his fantasies.

"Ha that's classic" Dr Mitchell laughs in return.

"Um hi" Carlos says nervously, interrupting their conversation.

The two men turn to look and Kendall and Carlos and they don't look upset about being interrupted, which is good at least Kendall thinks. Kendall's heart is beating like crazy as those beautiful hazel eyes look into his own.

"Hi boys what can we do for you?" Mr Diamond asks politely, shifting his intense gaze from Kendall to look at Carlos.

"Well my name is Carlos Garcia and Dr Mitchell I'm in your biomechanics class, it's my favourite class" Carlos says with small smile.

"Oh hi Carlos!" Logan says enthusiastically, extending his hand to the dark haired boy. Kendall is fairly sure Carlos is about to pass out at any second. "I recognise your name; you're a really great student. It's Logan by the way"

"Thanks Logan" Carlos gushes, grabbing Logan's hand and clasping onto it tightly.

"And you are?" Logan asks, turning to look at Kendall with a kind smile.

Time to turn on the charm Mr Knight.

"I'm afraid Logan I am not in any of your classes, I am an Arts Major"

"Good man!" Mr Diamond interjects with a laugh.

I swear if he smiles at me like that one more time I am actually going to pass out.

"My name is Kendall Knight"

"Kendall Knight, really?" Mr Diamond asks, well more like coughs as he chokes on the beer he is drinking.

"Really really" Kendall smiles in response.

"You're my favourite student!" He exclaims, placing a hand on Kendall's shoulder. "I've been trying to figure out who you are for the past three years, every single class you've taken of mine, every single assignment has been flawless and incredible!"

Ok that's it, I'm dead.

"Well thank you so much Mr Diamond." Kendall blushes.

"Please, it's James"

"Ok, James"

The two smile at each other, eyes connected in a deep stare and Kendall can feel sparks fly.

"So! Kendall, Carlos" Logan says with a slight cough, interrupting the intense moment between James and Kendall. "Are you two enjoying the party?"

"Totally!" Carlos smiles. "Are you? I wouldn't expect to see you two at a party like this"

"Oh James and I usually try to slip into these things, so much better than the staff parties" Logan replies with a wink.

Kendall wonders how Carlos is even still breathing and can't help but smile to himself.

"Kendall if you wouldn't mind, I'd love to chat to you about the current assignment" James asks, causing Kendall's heart to start jumping out of his chest.

"S-sure!" He says quickly, cursing himself for stammering.

"I on the other hand, don't want to talk about school work" Logan laughs, turning his attention to Carlos. "Carlos do you want to join me for a drink back inside?"

Kendall actually has to nudge Carlos slightly because he is pretty sure the short boy has gone into a state of shock.

"Yes, yes of course!" He says quickly, grabbing Logan by the hand and leading him back into the house.

Logan looks slightly taken aback for a second by Carlos' hand on his but his lips soon turn into a grin and he winks at James quickly before disappearing.

"Wow your friend Carlos is pretty friendly isn't he?" James chuckles as he turns his attention back to Kendall.

"Yeah, there's definitely no one like him" Kendall laughs in return, trying not to freak out over standing here with James.

"Want to find somewhere to talk?" James asks casually, looking around him presumably for a good place to sit.

"Um yeah I think there's like a little courtyard this way" Kendall says and he walks to the edge of the deck where a small path is partly hidden by an array of bushes and shrubs.

"You know this place pretty well huh?" James laughs as he follows Kendall.

"Only because Carlos drags me here like every other weekend for some party or another"

"And yet you still remain a model student? I'm impressed"

"I balance my priorities" Kendall shrugs as he rounds the corner to a quiet, secluded little courtyard which is perfectly equipped with a little bench, a small fountain and even rose bushes. It's almost... romantic.

"Wow" James says as he takes in his surroundings. "This is um... really nice"

"Yeah it's pretty nice." Kendall is now realising how awkward it is that he has taken James to his favourite place he takes all his hook ups at these parties because they always go on about how beautiful and romantic it is.

"Are you going to join me?" James asks with a grin, taping the empty space next to him on the seat which fits two people perfectly.

"So, I'm your favourite student?" Kendall says with a suggestive smile as he sits down next to James.

"Of course! Everything you write is perfection. Your analytical essays, your book analysis' and don't even get me started on your actual writing. Can I admit something to you?" He asks shyly.

"Yes?" Kendall replies nervously, hanging off James' every word.

"You know the assignment I set in first semester? The one where you had to write a poem about lost love?"

"Ugh yes" Kendall groans, now embarrassed.

"Don't be embarrassed" James says softly, placing a hand upon Kendall's. "It was so beautiful, every word you wrote was so strikingly powerful and it touched me to the core, it made me cry in fact"

"Really?" Kendall asks shocked. "I didn't realise it was that good"

Kendall is consciously aware of James' hand on his own and he makes no action to remove it.

"Oh Kendall it was more than good, it was heart breakingly beautiful. In fact... I still read it sometimes."

"Y-you do?"

"Yes" James says with a small smile, and then he does something that has Kendall's heart almost stop; he begins to recite Kendall's poem.

"No words I write can ever say
How much I miss you every day.
As time goes by, the loneliness grows;
How I miss you, nobody knows.
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name,
But all I have are memories
And photos in a frame.
No one knows my sorrow,
No one sees me weep,
But the love I have for you
Is in my heart to keep.
I've never stopped loving you
I'm sure I never will;
Deep inside my heart,
You are with me still.
Heartaches in this world are many
But mine is worse than any.
My heart still aches as I whisper low,
"I need you and I miss you so."
The things we feel so deeply
Are often the hardest to say,
But I just can't keep quiet anymore,
So I'll tell you anyway.
There is a place in my heart
That no one else can fill;
I love you so,
And I always will."

Before Kendall has time to think what he is doing he leans in and presses his lips to James'. He knows it is wrong, knows there is a part of him that is saying to stop but that feeling is being crushed by the man of his dreams holding his hand, looking into his eyes and reciting his own poem back to him. This moment is perfect; something that only happens in the movies, Kendall has never felt his heart explode with so many feels in one moment but this... this is perfection.

And the funny thing is, James isn't stopping the kiss. In fact if anyone were to see them now there would be no doubt that James was an active participant, hand now gently cupping Kendall's face as they share a kiss fuelled by passion and desire. However almost as soon as it began...

"Shit" James murmurs against Kendall's lips, pulling back slightly. "I shouldn't have done that"

"I think that was me" Kendall says with a small smile.

"True, but I shouldn't have kissed you back"

"Why did you?"

"Because..." James sighs, "Because I think I'm in love with you"

I'm sorry... WHAT?

"That came out wrong" James says with a smile, leaning back to look at Kendall in the eye. "I have been reading your work, your novellas, short stories and poems for three years and over that time I have been falling in love with you purely from what you write. I know it sounds crazy, but the words you write touch me in a way nothing has ever touched me before. I know I didn't even know who you were or what you looked like, but it didn't matter"

"Wow" Kendall breathes, trying to take it all in.

"Obviously I am not going to act on this, because you are my student and I don't want to take advantage of you"

"Oh please take advantage of me all you want!" Kendall blurts out before he even has a chance to think about what he has said.

James merely laughs; a beautiful, enchanting, melodic laugh. "I'm sorry?"

"I have been in love with you too. I was a journalism major and was taking your class in my first year really for just something to do but from the very lesson it was... it was love at first sight for me really. My world at university pretty much revolves around you. You make my heart beat faster, you put a smile on my face and you inspire me to be the best that I can be. I know this might sound completely creepy but –"

James silences Kendall then, bringing their lips together once more for the most passionate kiss Kendall has ever experienced.

"Mm" James sighs in slight frustration against Kendall's lips. "I shouldn't do this"

"But you want to..."

"Yes, I definitely want to. But I'm a teacher, you're a student. End of story"

"Come on... just let go, for one night, and don't give a fuck about anything"

"But it won't just be one night; I'll want to be with you again, and again... and again"

"Good" Kendall smirks, leaning in to seal their lips together once more but James places up a hand to stop him.

"I'll see you in class Kendall, now that I know who you are" James says with a small smile as he stands up to leave.

"Bye" Kendall mutters as James leaves the small courtyard without one more glance Kendall's way.

Now that Kendall has tasted his desire he is going to go after it, there is no backing down now.

"I'll get you" He whispers to himself.


First impressions? :)