101 Thing's Amy Will Never Tell the Doctor

(Idea came from my weird habit of rehearsing speeches that i would love to say to people but im too polite/terrified/embarrassed to do so)

A few notes. Some of them are like Amy/11th but some of them just are like background things. Please give ideas in reviews

Also this is set after a Christmas carol and Rory has gone home for reasons unbeknownst to the doctor. Amy is 'saying' all the things she would never tell the doctor. This is my first doctor who fic so be kind

Its rated for themes there will never be graphicness...

Enjoy

1-10 Things Amy Will Never Tell The Doctor

"I realise we will never be anything more than friends and i have never kidded myself otherwise so do not say that i am stupid or unrealistic for being in love with you. I know i could never happen but i really do not have a choice in the matter."

"The real reason i ran off with you on my wedding night was that i never wanted to get married at all and I probably wouldn't have, had i been able to remember your existence at the time."

"I love Rory. But i love him like a brother and i love you like a lover."

"My aunt left me alone every night which is why i was so keen to go away. I barely remembered my parents and my aunt was never there, i needed to go somewhere where i would be wanted."

"Every night i struggle to get to sleep as the guilt about my feelings for you and my loyalties to Rory tears me apart. It really isn't fair on any of us and sometimes i wonder if i should just leave you both alone."

"The real reason Rory left was that during a discussion about the future and baby names, i said that i wanted to name one of our children Andrew Doctor Pond. I only wanted to do it as i know we cant travel with you forever and i wanted to give you some kind of legacy, but we had a huge argument about how you would always be on my mind and would probably come before my own children, had i ever been given a choice. Which by the way you wouldn't, but Rory did not believe that which was what ultimately led to his departure."

"When we met River the only reason i probed you so much about your relationship was because being in love with you, even if still unrequited, is so much easier whilst your not in a relationship."

"I told all my therapists about you and how i knew you would come back to me to take me away in your magic box. This led to my aunt believing you to be a paedophile and i wasn't allowed out after dark until i was 15. Thanks for that by the way."

"Your bow tie drives me absolutely insane. Surely you realise how sexy it makes you look? I always ask you to take it off so that i would no longer have to fight the urge to take it off myself."

"When i was 18 i dated this boy (The only other one aside from Rory) who later dumped me half way through sex. I shouted the words 'holy hell doctor' when i climaxed and he was convinced i was cheating on him with someone with a doctor fetish so promptly dumped me."

These are the things ill never say.

Amy.