Diary
of
Abigail Winifred
Dear Diary,
Let me start by saying this, Everything you read here is true. That is of course assuming that anyone ever takes a look at this book. I bought the diary because it is just too hard on me to have all of these thoughts and memories circling in my head constantly. I sit here at my heavy wood desk in my bedroom writing this. I don't know how far I'll get with this first entry but we'll just have to see.
Where to begin? At the beginning I suppose... I was dying. I had tried taking my own life soon after having moved to Forks, Washington. I had found a clearing in the woods close to a reservation called La Push. You might be asking yourself why I had tried to kill myself. A broken heart is the only way to describe it. Make no mistake, I am not weak. I am not one of those people who mope and cry for weeks on end after breaking up with a man. However, the death of a child is the worst thing a parent can witness. From that point on, I was already dead inside. That was why I moved to Forks. To get away from it all and just fade away.
I thought no one would be able to find me. That after time, my body would just become one with the earth. I had no way of knowing that the blood from my slit wrists would draw my angel to me. I did not even hear her approach as I lay on my back in the grass, bleeding out. Suddenly she was there. Standing over me and looking into my eyes. The Cullen's never hunted this close (as I was told later) to La Push but she had been able to sense my fear. Esme took pity on me.
She had told me later that she would have brought me home to Carlisle but that my heart was already so weak... I would not have made it. I was Esme's first time."Why?" She had asked me and her voice seemed to be a mile away but I could still hear her. My own reply had been less than a whisper. Suddenly I didn't want to die. The tears formed in my eyes. I guess it had been the finalism of it all that just then hit me. "I'm sorry." I had said as if it had meant anything to her. I had no way of knowing that Esme was going to give me the second chance I needed.
Abi
