I hate this, I'm tired of being nice to people who are not nice to me, I'm tired of putting others into consideration only to say I don't. It's not fair I'm tired of being so nice only to have it thrown back in my face, I'm tired of being me I want to be someone else, some one who doesn't have to worry about things these things like a ghost. I don't want to be seen or heard I just want to be left alone.
I'm tired of locking up how I feel, my creativity, my thoughts on the matters, my problems and myself I don't want to be a door mat every living thing walks on I want to be my own person is that too much to ask? I cant make my self more forceful than I already am if I do they will hate me and I hate to be hated.
I cringe at every harsh word every disappointed comment. Most of all I'm tired of people giving me their problems to attend to, I'm tired of them expecting me to read their minds, I'm tired of dealing with their whining I'm tired of hearing how I'm not fair in my decisions, I hate trying to please everyone and trying to convince them its not my fault its so tiring so hard keeping this mask up but a break is too much to ask for.
