Chapter1- Slightly Killed (Bella)

I never actually pictured how would I die or where would I die. All this time

I feel like I'm missing something in my life. What am I thinking who in the world

cares.

"Bella come on we're going shopping!!" Annalisa said excitedly. Jumping like

A little girl.

"Annalisa I told you I'm not going and I don't think Renesella does too!" I

shouted. And continued to study.

"Fine! Be that way! No wonder boys don't ask you out! Ugh!" She screamed and

slammed the door. I rolled my eyes and took a deep breath and continued to study.

My name Isabella Marie Swan. But that's a bit too much. I prefer to be called

Bella and nothing more than that. I have brown eyes, brunette hair, and pale skin.

I'm clumsy; I'm not that much in to sports. I read books, I prefer comfortable clothes, and I'm a laid-back girl. I have two sisters. Annalisa, she is tall, long blonde hair, slender, tan skin and blue eyes. She is a total drama queen, loves fashion, so suspicious and so impatient. I would be irritated by only listening to her.

Then there's Renesella, the youngest. We're really close. We have this deep connection, like when I'm in trouble she knows how to find me. And somehow we can talk to each other in our minds which are crazy and cool at the same time. Her skin is pale white snow. Golden-brown eyes sometimes it changes color, thin, an angelic face, and a nice smile. She is smart for her age just like me only more advance. She loves kids and animals. She also loves to read and write stories in her spare time. She loves mixing and matching clothes that are given to her; she can also make her own clothes which is amazing. She is mostly shy, really quiet, and has a deep secret that she can't tell anyone but my mom and her close relatives. This is really unfair that I can't know. Though she acts strange she doesn't eat often, she doesn't come out on very hot sunny days, well she once but she has to wear long –sleeves, pants , a hat and gloves which is very odd. She would keep her distance from us like she might hurt us. I wonder what's wrong with her. If she can tell me her secret I could anything to help.

"Bella, Harvey and Carly wants to know if you want to go to the movies with them." Renesella yelled.

"Tell them I'm studying and can't go you know the drill!" I yelled back. We have a test tomorrow and studying is important now.

"Sorry she is studying maybe next time. Thanks for calling." She said cheerfully and hung up the phone. I heard her coming upstairs then she went in my, and closed the windows. After that she lay on my bed and hugged one of my pillows.

"Bella, why do you decline an invitation every time your friends ask? If you keep on doing that they'll never invite you again or be your friend." She said disappointed and sighed.

"Well Sella—I mean Renesella, I've got loads of homework to do." I told her. And my sister does not want her name to be shortened unless she says so.

"Ok… umm you can only be the only one saying "Renee", "Renes", "Sella"

Or what ever but not in front of mom and Anna got it!"

"Don't worry Sella, my lips are sealed." I promised.

My mom Renee has recently divorced my dad Charlie. She's really amazing for a single mom no… she is currently dating Phil a baseball player who is suspicious every time he sees Sella when he's visiting. Though I always glare at him furiously when he does that to her. I don't get it why mom has to date him, but if she's happy then I'm happy.

"Renesella, can you please tell me your secret? Please I'm curious!" I pleaded. I stared at her hoping she would tell me. She sat up straight and looked at me. I can tell that she was angry, shocked, sad or unsure to tell me. She sighed and said. "You know I can't to tell you, honestly I want to tell you, but I can't!" She said sadly.

"Then break the rules! You know I can keep a secret." She looked at me with eyes like

I know you can keep a secret look. "Sorry. I made a promise to Uncle Karsh, Aunt Amelie, and their family and friends. They are dead serious of me keeping it." She said seriously and scared.

"I only saw them once, but you are the only one who spends more time with them, I always felt jealous that they like like you better than Anna and me."

"Don't think of that ok. They love you both; they just want to be careful when they see you both. To be honest they feel really guilty for not seeing Anna and you." She sighed and gave me a hug and let go. I heard a car parked outside and cut the engine. Surprise… surprise it was Phil. And he carried a big bag with lots of stuff. Hope he doesn't mess up again. Then mom's car arrived, and boy they shopped till they dropped. Sella went downstairs to open the door and greeted them. I also went downstairs, as I went down I heard Renesella screaming.

"Ah--!!! Get him off me!!! Get him off me!!! Ah--!!!" She screamed at the top of her lungs. It was Phil he was on top of her holding a sharp knife.

"Phil! Get off! Get off you jerk!!!I said angrily and pushing him off Sella. "Are you crazy? What are you doing, chopping her into pieces?! Damn It Phil!" I was holding Sella in my arms, and she was scared and crying. "She's better off dead than alive!" Phil said rudely. "What's going on here?!" Mom said furious.

"Mom! Phil tried to kill Renesella" I told her furiously and still holding Renesella in my arms, her face is all red and puffy from crying. "That's ridiculous! Phil won't" she looked at Phil who was still holding a knife on his hand and she was shocked.

"We need to talk!!" she pulled him to the living room and closed the door. There was a lot of screaming and crying I hope mom is making good decisions whatever she's thinking. I brought Sella upstairs to the bathroom. She went in and closed the door then locked it. I heard her crying for a few minutes and freshen up. She walked out and went inside her room, were she was swearing, angry and crying all at the same time. I listened to her through the door and wouldn't imagine her saying this in my entire life.

"Damn it! I'm a freak! I'm so stupid to open that door! I… I… I have to leave." She cried angrily. Then there was silence it was quiet, she stopped crying and finally relaxed. "Fine. I'll try and find them. How hard can it be?" It was like she was talking to someone in there. She stopped again and caught me listening. "Come in Bella. There's no need to hide. I know your listening!" In a dark cold voice. She unlocked her door; opened it and sat at her bed. "Sorry, Sella. How are you?" I said ashamed.

"Fine still hurt but fine. Bella I can't stay here any longer. I have to leave." I gasped and breathing heavily. "Why? Yes—you can—you're the only one who understands me, and we are sisters we have a deep connection you can't leave me!!" I stammered.

"Bella, Phil nearly knew my secret. He tried to kill me!! It's not safe for me here! I can't live with mom, Anna, and you anymore!" She said firmly. She looked away from me and was moving next to her phone. "Where are you going?" I croaked. I can't believe she is doing this to me. "Forks. Going to see Charlie. I have to call him." She dialed his number then waited patiently for him to answer it was a long distance call after all. "Bella, guard the door please so no one can come in. Thank you" she said grimly still not looking at me. "Sure." I sighed heavily; I watched the door and cried quietly.

"Hello, dad. It's Renesella!" She said happily like she doesn't have any problems.

"Hey kid! What's up?" He said. He has never heard from her since our last call when she was 5 years old, and our last visit is when she was 3. She loves Charlie so much.

"Dad… I was wondering if I can come over to Forks, I know its last minute but I'm finding Uncle Karsh's friend and possibly staying with them. So it is possible that you can pick me up and help me find them." She asked. She waited for Charlie to answer.

"Sure, of course! I do anything I can. I missed you. Billy and Jake are looking for ya too and they miss you. How's Bella doing?"

"She's healthy as a horse! Do you want to talk to her?" She smiled at me and I was starting to feel better. "Yeah… I miss her so much." He said sadly. "Ok. Hold on. Bella its dad." She handed me the phone and watched the door or locked it and sat beside me. "Hey char—I mean dad. How are you" I said happily. Ok I do have to admit I miss him and it felt good to talk to him. "Good. How's your Renee doing? He asked. Even if they're divorced dad still cared for mom a lot. "She is doing well. She is currently dating Phil." I said. "Ok. Are you going to Forks with your sister?" He asked eagerly. I looked at Sella; she shook her head saying "no" and gave me an apologetic look.

"No dad. Maybe next time." I said grimly. "Sure, I'll tell Jacob, He's been asking about you lately." He said. Renesella tap my shoulder and held her hand out for the phone and mouthed "sorry". I shook my head and told her in my mind "its ok, no need to apologize" She gave me hug and I told Charlie. "Ok Renesella wants' to talk to you. Bye dad, love you."

"Bye Bell's!" I handed Sella the phone. She told me; she wants to talk to dad alone. I got out of her room, and then she locked it. I don't know what they're talking about but it must be important. So I went to my room, and listened to some music.

After a few minutes later, Sella went to my room, and sat on my bed. She looked sad but decided. Just then mom came in with Phil and Anna. "Phil wants to apologize. He didn't mean to kill Renesella." She said solemnly. She nudged Phil on the arm. "Sorry for nearly killing you Renesella. It's an adrenaline rush you know." He said. Renesella smiled a little. "It's ok Phil, guy thing right?" She accepted his apology. "Right you are! Okay got to go! Bye every one!" He kissed mom on the cheek and left. "Bye Phil!" We shouted back. Then mom looked at Sella and me. "So what were you both doing up here just now?" She asked. Sella and I looked at each other and didn't know what to say.

Sella sighed, and gave me a regretful look then faced mom. "Mom… I—have… something…" She was struggling how to tell mom that she is leaving. "Yes, you know you can tell me anything Renesella." Mom said comforting Renesella. "I'm going to Forks to visit dad!" She blurted out loud. Mom's mouth was wide open and she closed them and said. "What—honey you don't have to go." She said sadly.

"Mom, I hardly ever seen dad and I might visit Uncle Karsh and Aunt Amelie. You know they expect me to see them every other month or year." She reminded mom.

"Yeah, but I just got you back and you're leaving again." She cried.

"Its complicated mom and you know my secret and if anyone knows I have to leave. Don't worry, Charlie will pick me up and will help me find Uncle Karsh's friend but till then I'll stay with him. Then if we found them I will live with them possibly forever." She said regretfully. She didn't look at mom and she back 3 spaces away from her. Mom went closer to her and gave her a big hug, she hugged her back and let go. "Can't I make you stay?" She said. She stroked Renesella's hair. She shook her head. "No. Sorry, I cause a lot of problems before and--." Anna cut her off. "Finally! Please you're doing me a favor that I wish to happen."

"Annalisa Swan! How dare you say that to your sister?!" Mom was angry again.

"Not my fault! She's a freak, Oh my gosh! She doesn't eat often, she can't come out on hot days, and she acts weird! So Renesella please leave." She said rudely and went to her bedroom and slammed the door. "Okay. I'll be leaving in a week. I'll call you when I arrive Forks. So good night." She quickly ran to her room. Last night was miserable and horrifying. Why? Two problems made it that way. First, Phil tried to kill Sella, no literally killed her. Second, Sella making a decision to go to Forks and possibly leaving us forever. Sella will be leaving on Saturday.

There was no sun the whole day only clouds. That means Sella can come out! I got dressed and went to her room. "Renesella come out! Let's go to the park?" I said. Knocking on her door, no answer. So I tried again. "Come on its cloudy today." Still no answer. So I opened her door, it swung open I went in and closed it. "Sella… Sella… this isn't funny. Come out!" I was beginning to worry. Just then mom came in yawning. "Bella's what's wrong? Where is Renesella?" Mom asked. Checking the room too. "She's gone!! She's not here!" I cried. Mom didn't believe me. "Impossible! She will leave in a week. And she can't run away! I locked all the doors with our keypad lock." She assured me

"Mom! She. Is. Gone!! Go ahead wake her up!" I cried furiously. "Fine! I will. You have to calm down. Renesella sweeties wake up." Mom said sweetly. She pulled the blanket, and nothing. She touched the pillow, bed nothing. No flesh, no body, no sound just an empty bed. "Oh my…"Mom gasped and fainted. "Mom, get up! Mom!"I shrieked. "What happened now?!" Anna snapped. "Renesella is gone! She ran away!"

"Yay! Let's--." She gasps when see saw mom on the floor. "Mom wake up! Wake up!"She was panicking just like me a while ago. "Don't worry; get her a glass of water hurry!" I ordered. She went downstairs getting water. I searched Sella's room, there was a recorder. I think this is her farewell letter to us.

Mom regained conscious, and sipped the water Anna gave her. "Bella, what's that you're holding in your hand?" She said weakly. Anna helped her sit up straight.

"Renesella's farewell letter it's recorded." I told her. "Play it please." Mom begged.

"Maybe we shouldn't, not till mom is ok." Anna growled. "Anna shut up ok! We have no time for you being a drama queen now!" I yelled furiously. She ignored me and was silent. I played the tape; it was Sella's voice saying:

By the time you find this, I'm already making my way to Forks. I know I should wait for Saturday- (sniff) but I can't see you all cry and your faces. If there's someone to blame…it's me—I would give up anything to see you all again. But I can't change the way I am. I can't cause more burden in your lives… though I love you all so much. Please don't come after me, and that's an order! You'll be safe without me, where I can't harm you or hurt you all anymore. This is the last time you'll ever hear my voice forever. It's like I was never in your lives! (Sniff, sniff still crying).

Be safe, happy, and please forget about me! And like I said. Don't. Come. After. Me. (in a harsh voice) I'll fix this all by myself. Please forget about!

Love Renesella. That's all what she said.

Mom and Anna left the room; I was the only one there. I opened the tape recorder. The tape that Sella recorded had the other side recorded too. I flipped it to side B, locked the door and listened. Sella was crying here too:

Bella…Bells I know what you're thinking. Please don't for my sake! (Sniff).

Don't come after to Forks I felt something bad happening to you! Stay in Phoenix, take care of mom ok. (Crying stops). If you heard the previous recordings follow it. Please don't do anything foolish or ridiculous. Promise me! I'm never coming back!

So forget that I existed and be happy with Anna and mom.

Believe me it harder for me than it is to you. I love sis. Renesella

(A.k.a Sella). Then it ended.

I shook my head I won't sit and do this. I made up my mind; I'm going to Forks and find Sella. I don't care if she gets mad. I need her to tell me her secret and the whole truth no matter what. Ready or not Sella I'm coming.