A/N: okay this is the first fanfic I've written so please go easy on me thanks!!

Disclaimer: All belongs to S.M. Inspired a little bit by my sister's keeper

Prologue:

Running Up That Hill

BPOV

It happened when I was fourteen they diagnosed it. Leukaemia. They didn't think I would survive, they said they didn't catch in time. Mom always said that I just bruised easily. I partially blame her for this, could she not read the signs? But I don't hate her; it's hard on her losing her only child in matter of years it bothered her that she would outlive me. It was on my last stay in hospital she decided to have transferred to one of the best oncology units in the country, the Port Angeles Grace Memorial Hospital. Luckily enough for me I'll be staying with my long-lost father Charlie. He really isn't long-lost he just never was around. He called a few times when found out about it, but talking to him was kinda awkward I knew nothing about him and he only pitied me 'cause of the leukaemia, everyone did and I hated it. I'm nearly eighteen now but I feel like a four year old, mom just believes I can't do anything for myself anymore that I have to have round the clock supervision and I can't handle it, I never really could. Even when I was fourteen, before the diagnosis, I was always sneaking out, smoking, partying, you name it I did it, I still do it.

Renee never really cared much back then about the sneaking out but it was the weed and drinking she went mad about, she doesn't go crazy over the weed now, I say its for medicinal aid It does help it burns the numbness of the situation out and lets me relax.

To feel normal is what I want more than anything, I hate when people say they understand when they have no clue at all

My last hospital visit was almost seven months ago, mom thinks this is good I'm just waiting for the inevitable to happen it always does.

The only thing that keeps me sane is my iPod the sounds of rock is what keeps my soul alive when the rest of me is dying.

A/N: Okay I know a little bit depressing but it will get a little lighter soon okay!!