I am a swimmer so I thought why not use swimming references... not mine the song is Choices by George Jones
As I sit here all alone in the dark I realized that anybody that I have ever loved I have lost the main person being Mrs. Rayna James the Queen of Country music, the love of my life. She is also the person I hurt the worst with my drinking problems because I was dragging her down in the water with me. For a while she tried to keep both of us afloat but I got to heavy and was weighting her down. So in order for her to survive and keep living she had to let go and swim to someone else who could could hold onto to keep her afloat for a change. I hate myself for giving her a reason to let go and swim to someone else so she can live. But when she let go it gave me a reason to fight and start to tread to keep myself above and so far I've managed to tread and stay above water for thirteen years. Sometimes Rayna swims back over to make sure I keep fighting and kicking especially when I feel like I can't keep kicking any longer, unfortunately she always has to swim back over to Teddy. Thinking about all of this reminds me of a song that I use to love by George Jones called Choices, so I pick up my guitar and start to play it.
I've had choices since the day that I was born
There were voices that told me right from wrong
If I had listened, no I wouldn't be here today
Living and dying with the choices I've made
I was tempted, by an early age I found
I liked drinkin', oh, and I never turned it down
There were loved ones but I turned them all away
Now I'm living and dying with the choices I've made
I've had choices since the day that I was born
There were voices that told me right from wrong
If I had listened, no I wouldn't be here today
Living and dying with the choices I've made
I guess I'm payin' for the things that I have done
If I could go back, oh, Lord knows I'd run
But I'm still losin' this game of life I play
Losing and dying with the choices I've made
I've had choices since the day that I was born
There were voices that told me right from wrong
If I had listened, no I wouldn't be here today
Living and dying with the choices I've made
Living and dying with the choices I've made
I'm drowning again only this time it's not because of alcohol but because of my choices, my addiction, and my broken heart. I am all alone wishing I could have made different choices
