Hey guys this is my first GG story, and I do not own GG as I'm sure you all know ;-). This has been in my head for ages so please read and review! It was originally intended as a one-shot but it's turned out a little differently now it's actually written so tell me if I should write more, explaining how they got here and stuff. Enjoy.


Set at Rory's 21st birthday party. Ever since she was a teenager she has been living a double life, posing as sweet and innocent Rory by day and partying hard with the other rebellious trust fund babies by night.


Chapter 1 - Gone.

Let me hold you for the last time

It's the last chance to feel again

But you broke me, now I can't feel anything.

Rory storms into Richards office just as Richard, Emily and Lorelai are arguing over Richard and Emily's discovery of Rory having sex. Rory is startled at finding them in the study but continues over to Richard's desk.

"Are you ok honey?" Lorelai enquires.

"I'm just peachy" She deadpans.

Lorelai shares a look with Richard and Emily as her tone tells them she is pissed. Rory proceeds to pick up a glass and pours herself some scotch. The three simply stare at her as if they've no clue who she is.

"Rory what are you doing?" Emily asks.

"I'm 21 Grandma, it's legal and last time I checked this was my party."

"Yes but-

She was cut off by Logan's abrupt entry into the room. He looks furious.

"Yeah Rory go on pour yourself another goddamn drink."

Quiet gasps escape Lorelai and Emily's mouths. Rory laughs cruelly.

"Logan how dare you be so rude to my granddaughter" Richard booms.

Logan looks as if he just notices the others in the room for the first time.

"I'm sorry Richard I apologise, Rory's had a bit too much to drink but I shouldn't have spoken so harshly."

" Your damn right you shouldn't have-"

"Oh Logan always the gotta charm everyone into thinking your perfect, she sips her drink, when actually you're a bastard." She growls out the last part forcing all the hate into the word. She turns away from her stunned audience, the people closest to her and lets a silent tear fall down her cheek. She lifts the glass to her lips and gulps down the last of her drink, letting the familiar burning sensation comfort her.

"And you're a drunk" He spits out. She tightly grips the glass at this and spins back round.

"Alright what the hell is going on?" Lorelai begs.

"I am what you made me baby"

"No, Logan pauses, now I see my Rory is gone forever." He also looks close to tears.

"Whatever I am you did to me, I hate you." She screams. She launches the glass at his head, he dodges it and it smashes against the wall. Her mask begins to slip and her pain starts to show as more tears escape her haunted eyes. Her mother and grandmother instinctively edge towards her.

"I can not do this anymore." She puts her hands into her long brown hair as if she wants to pull it out.

At this Lorelai walks straight over to Rory and attempts to touch her, which Rory shrugs off.

"Please-

"I knew you were corrupting her, you tricked that girl!" Richard lunges forward as if to hit him but is stopped by Emily.

"Richard, no."

"Richard, I like you - both of you you're very respectable people and I hate to spoil you image of a perfect Rory but I cannot live in this, pause ,charade! There's more than just us to consider in this."

This snaps something inside Rory and she instantly composes herself. She looks into her mothers blue eyes and sees fear, part of her wishes she were innocent in this situation but the truth was they were both to blame.

"I'm ok, could you just give us some space?" She whispered pleadingly.

Her mother stepped back from her clearly hurt that Rory wasn't jumping to tell her what was going on. Oh give me a break mom I don't have to tell you everything about my life Rory thought upon seeing the look her mother gave. Rory stood up tall, glaring at Logan. She saw something flash in his eyes that she thought was amusement as he knew what was about to happen. War.

Rory considered what to say but what could she say, so her mind wandered to the various bottles that lingered on the small table behind her, that had become such a constant in her life. All of the great moments in her life had had them, alcohol - and Logan. Her eyes shifted a little to the side where she knew they would be and this didn't go unnoticed by Logan as she saw the look on his face. He could no longer be hurt by her need for a drink, her need for it rather than anything else for he too has once shared this need. But I grew out of it. He thought almost sadly as his jaw tightened just a little.

"Tonight was the final straw Rory, you can keep your precious liquor but we are done." He said in a final tone but not nastily as he did still have feelings for the Rory he once knew.

"But you did this" She cries.

"You can tell yourself that for the rest of your life if it makes you happy but we both know the events of the last 10 years."

Richard, Emily and Lorelai still look on dumbstruck by the scene in front of them, preying that their Rory is not lost.

"Ten years what the hell are they talking about, what is going on?!" She hisses at Lorelai.

"You think if I had any clue about any of this we would be standing here like idiots?" She hissed in reply.

"You used to be like this too, you started this - all of it and now your making it worse so how dare you blame me!"

" Used tobeing the key word Rory, he repeats quietly, used to."

" Screw you Logan, you think just because you're a little more tame that your different, better? I don't fucking think so Logan, In Omnia paratus." She spits.

" Don't start your little games to try and get me mad, how many times have you said it before. I'm tired of this and I'm leaving. He turns to leave but turns back again. Don't think I'll be coming back because I'm not. He pauses once again and casts a sympathetic look at Rory's unsuspecting family as they were in for even more shocks.

I want a divorce and I'll be getting custody of Sophie."

At this Rory cackles with evil laughter, I've got the upper hand now she thought and she was gladly enabled to go and pour another drink opting this time for vodka. She knew the laugh would stop Logan from leaving as they both fed on drama, hell of course they did after all these years and all the shit that had happened they were still together, they couldn't live without it. Already this argument had went on for half and hour and would no doubt continue for years to come.

Logan knew with that laugh, that cold laugh that represented so much heartache in a lot of lives, that Rory had just been given ammo, that she was now going to put up a fight and he gulped and slowly closed his eyes. He should walk out the door now it would make things a lot better, she wouldn't come after him and so the next time he saw her she'd have calmed.

Lorelai's ears were ringing with the last few sounds that had been uttered in the room. Her daughter had married - without telling her. To a type of boy she could not stand. And Sophie, she did not even want to let herself think about it but she knew who this Sophie must be, her granddaughter. Even after those two huge revelations she had still thought her tarnished relationship with her daughter could be repaired but when her daughter had laughed that thought shattered, this person was no longer her daughter, Rory was gone.

Well that's the outline of the story, shall I continue? Review please.