A new story YAY YAY YAY. So as you know I have been trying to figure out which story to choose but well I couldn't so instead I'm bring this one early, much much earlier really (I mean it's not even Wednesday yet and I'm posting this). And I plan on starting a Hunger Games fic soon, I promise It will be out some time next month the title will be Going With out Basic Instincts. I have not decided if it will be featuring neko Peeta yet but I'm working on the plan now so we will see I guess. This story is about Peeta starting over in a new city about to start university but struggling with who he wants to be anf the parts of himself that are holding him back. Obviously it will be from Peeta point of view. Cato probably won't make an appearance straight away but I promise it will come. This is ofcourse going to be a Peeto story after all :D. Anyway please please review and tell me if you loved/hated/etc and if I should continue or not. :)

As I have said before, all grammar and spelling errors are my own and I apologise ahead. Also I do not own any part of the Hunger Games... wish I did but I don't still thank you Suzanne Collins for your amazing series.

Warning: smut, swearing, possible drug use, violence, boy on boy, possible girl on girl, talk of abuse, OOC-ness and all the wonderful bad things in life.

The Broken Pieces That Make Me Who I Am

Chapter One: A New Beginning

I sat on the window seat in my bedroom and stared out at the city buzzing below me. Even at this late hour people were still out on the street, lights blinked, the street brought with it constant noise of traffic and life. It was so new and so different. Watching the city below excited me, but scared me at the same time. Its was a fresh start, a way to let go of the past. It also would bring new challenges and honestly the city intimates me. Coming from a not so large town to this was such a large change.

I turn back around and look at the room I would now call home. It was small, a shoebox really but it was my own. It was just able to fit my queen size bed, my art supplies, a chest of draws and a small unit with all my books on it. Luckily I had a built in wardrobe, if I didn't I have no clue where I was put my clothes. I had unpacked almost everything, just one box to go. But I had lost my motivation, instead thinking about all the possibilities this new city brought with it. I could be whoever I wanted, I wasn't going to let the past follow me forever. That part of my life was over. I had to move three-thousand miles away just to escape it but now that I was here I have to say it was worth spending every spare second I had working my two jobs and saving every cent I made.

I moved to Panem City just three days ago. I'm here to study fine art and painting at the Art Institute Of Panem City. One of the finest art universities in the country. It had been the one thing I dreamt about doing once I got out of that hick town. It would not have been possible if I had not gotten a full scholarship, and my best friend Delly moved out here with me. We spent our whole lives dreaming of getting out of the town of Twelve. And when fate came knocking we jumped at the chance to finally get away from that hell hole. If it wasn't for Delly I probably would not be here right now. I really mean that I don't think I would still be alive if she had not been there through high school. She was my light at the end of my long depressing tunnel the kept me going. She was my rock and now my house mate. I found a small two bedroom apartment that wasn't to far from either of our schools a month ago and as soon as I told her she convinced her father to help buy it. She was going to be studying at the Fashion Institute several blocks way but if we cut through the large park across from us both of our trips would be a lot quicker.

I get up and head to the kitchen where I find Delly sitting on a stool drinking warm tea. "Have you finished unpacking?" I ask grabbing a mug and a tea bag.

"Barely, I kind of want to paint my room before I unpack everything. What about you?" She smiles, the bags under her eye revealing how exhausted she really was.

"I think I almost done." I pour some hot water from the kettle into my mug and look around at the place we would call home from now on. The kitchen was smaller then my bedroom but it was big enough for the two of us. To the left was the hall way to my bedroom, bathroom and laundry. That was one thing I was glad about, we each had our own bathroom. It would make all the difference in the mornings. Infront of e was the small lounge and to the right Delly's bedroom and bathroom. We had a small dining table to the right of the kitchen, that was a few meters away from the front door. It was small but it was ours. "Excited to start school in a week?"

"I mean yes but gosh I'm so nervous." Delly replies curling a strand of her blonde platinum hair in her finger. It was a nervous habit of hers I thought was awfully cute. "Aren't you?"

"Nervous?" I ask and she nods. "Yes so nervous. This whole city makes me nervous. We are going to have to start looking for jobs soon." I turn to the fridge to see if we had any milk. We didn't, all that was in the fridge was day old Chinese, a bottle of vodka, an apple and the left over pizza from dinner tonight.

"I know and we need to go down to the grocery store and get some food." She smiles at me. "Not that I want to upset the whole struggling art student vibe you may be going for but it would be nice to have something over then last night's dinner or vodka to eat in the morning."

I smile back at her. "What you seriously don't think we can't survive on vodka and day old Chinese and pizza?" I joke, laughing at myself.

"Well the vodka can stay but maybe some bread and milk wouldn't hurt. God it's so weird living here, just to two of us. You know my mother has called me twice a day since we lwe got here." She says taking about sip of her tea.

"What do you except her baby moved three thousand miles away. I'm surprised she hasn't told you she's coming to visit for a week yet." I snicker blowing on my tea.

"Don't even joke about that she probably has the place bugged and now you gave her the idea she going to ring tomorrow and tell me she coming to stay for a week and help us settle in or something stupid like that."

"Do you miss her?" I ask finally taking a sip of my tea.

"Well I mean of course but she knew this day would come. We always talked about it. Remember as kids when you used to sleep over we would tell her how we were going to come here and become famous and get married and be happy. God if only we knew you were gay back then, the dream wouldn't be shattered." She laughs pretending to wipe a tear from her eye.

"Whatever we could still get married. We would both just and to have a man on the side."

She laughs again, hard this time almost spitting her tea out. "So the dream is still intact just with two sexy pool boys to satisfy our sexual needs."

"Exactly you will have your own clothing company making the millions while I will be the amazing painter without a cent to my name."

"Oh it sounds wonderful." She says sarcastically. She clears her throat and looks deep into my eyes. "Do you miss anyone from back home?"

The room suddenly got serious. I think it over for a second. "Honestly not really, well I'm not sure. Its different not having them around. I mean I don't really feel any different about my father, you know he never seemed to notice me. As for my brothers I guess I do. I dunno with all the teasing they put me through it nice to be away from that, and it's even nicer to be away from her."

"Yeah I bet it is." She says dryly. Delly knew about all the things my mother put me through. I don't remember a time I didn't question if mother ever loved me and Delly had always been there to try and make up for that.

"But we are here now and it's going to be different. No more abusive parents, no more round the clock bullying from my brothers or the guys at school. We finally got out of there." I say trying to stay positive and not listen to the voice in the back of my head.

"Exactly everything is going to be different. This city is going to be amazing for us, but at the same time it scares me to death." She says honestly getting up and rinsing her mug out.

"I know what you mean I feel it to. This city has the potential to bring our dreams to life. But at the same time I feel so out of place, like I don't belong. It scares me to death that she might be right."

"Peeta you can't let what your mother says do this to you anymore. We came here to escape that, to start new, be who we want to be and be comfortable with that." She leans over and hugs me. "You can't dwell on what she did to you, that's letting her win."

I nod into the hug and manage a sad smile when we let go. "I know, I'm trying. Its just so hard getting pasted it all."

"It's going to take time. And I'm here for you no matter what. We are going to be happy here Peeta. Its different then that small hick town. People don't care that you paint or like boys. You can be you here, sure people may still no like you but I know the real you. And I know you are a kind loving boy who was wronged all his life and just needs to give himself a chance to let his wings fly and be free."

I laugh at her and a tear falls down my check. "God I don't know where I would be if it wasn't for you." I hug here and try to convince myself she was right but there still was a voice at the back of my head, my mothers voice telling me I wasn't good enough. That I would fail and no one would love me. That I was disgusting and vile and not worth the pain I put her through bring me into this world.

Yes it was going to be a struggle but I could only hope Delly was right. That I could heal and grow into someone I was happy being. That the broken pieces that made me who I am would one day become a whole again.

So as I said before I hope you like to idea please tell me if you like it/ want me to continue. I know that chapter isn't that long but I wanted to stop there and bring it full circle with the title and let you get an idea of what Peeta is like in this story. I promise Cato will come later on. Anyways I really hope somebody out there like it. Xxx