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Chapter 1
"Look Rachel I know it's a really hard decision but adoption is the best option. It's going to hurt now but in a few months you'll be thankful" Shelby sat on the side of her birth daughters hospital bed
Rachel sat up in her hospital gown and wiped tears from her eyes.
"Giving you up was the hardest decision I ever made but-"
"You don't know how affected I was because of it Shelby. I don't know if I want to just give my baby away"
"Do you want to be a single mother?"
"I don't want to give away my baby" Rachel muttered "I can't do it"
The older brunette rubbed her face and put the stack of papers she was holding, down.
"Can't I at least take her home for a week and decide after that" Rachel looked down at the small baby in her arms
"Once you take her home you're done. You would never be able to give her up after that"
Rachel softly played with her daughters light brown hair. This was her baby and she couldn't give her up to random strangers and live with herself. It would hurt too much and she would end up regretting it.
"I'm keeping her, mom" Rachel sniffled "tell the adoption agency to tell the family that I couldn't do it"
"You're going to raise this baby...?" She sighed hesitantly
"Yes"
"What are you going to tell her father?"
"That I didn't give her up for adoption"
"Just be ready for him not to make any efforts. He didn't want her in the first place and-"
"I know I know" Rachel snapped
"Okay then I'm going to go call the agency. You're sure about this?"
"Positive"
Eloise Barbara Berry was born March 23 at 4:37 pm. She weighed six pounds nine ounces and Rachel couldn't have been happier. For the first five months she hated the idea of having a baby and already set up a plan for adoption. She had gotten pregnant at the end of her sophomore year. That was probably one of her biggest regrets ever because no fifteen year old wants to get pregnant but it happened. Sam Evans happened. He was cute and he claimed that he liked her and everything so she fell for it.
"Rachel wake up you need to get to school!" Shelby turned the lights on in her daughters room and pulled her covers off of the bed "it's your first day back!"
The brunette groaned and rolled over "what time is it?"
"Six thirty. Come on, get up"
Rachel groaned and got out of bed. She had already taken a shower the night before and set everything out. The first thing she did was get dressed and put her old school clothes on- her favorite reindeer sweater and plaid skirt. Then she did her hair and put a headband in then went to the kitchen were her mom was making something on the stove.
"Are you excited?" Selby asked
"...no" Rachel muttered and drank some water "I haven't seen my friends in a month and everyone is just going to be looking at me. Plus I really don't want to see Sam... I don't want to have to tell him i kept the baby"
"Don't worry about it. Now here try this. It's vegan bacon"
"Um... it looks gross... I'll just have a banana. I gotta go anyway. Remember to warm up her bottles and burp her after and she has to take a nap. I'll call you in a few hours to see if she's awake"
"I know I know, I can handle it. She'll be fine"
"I don't want to leave her"
"I know it's hard. You'll be fine, she'll be fine"
"Okay I'll be back at three. Bye" Rachel waved then ran down to the bus stop where she barely caught it on time
She walked down the middle aisle then sat down in a seat by herself. The apartment that her and Shelby lived in was about fifteen minutes from school so Rachel pulled her phone out and turned music on for her to play. Honestly, she was super nervous about today. Things were ten times harder nowadays and she didn't need people ridiculing her.
"Well look who it is" Quinn Fabray took the seat next to Rachel
All throughout sophomore year, Quinn had been a bitch to Rachel. She had gone out if her way most of the time just to make her life horrible.
"Um... hi..."
"Relax I'm not here to make fun of you" the blonde girl put her Cheerios bag down "how are you?"
"I'm good"
"I know what you are going through, my older sister went through the same thing. All of our old problems are behind us. I know you need a friend and a lot of people aren't going to be jumping at the opportunity"
"... thanks"
"So you gave the baby up for adoption? That's what my sister did. She said it was the worst decision she ever made but like come on you gotta-"
"I didn't give it up. I couldn't do it..."
"Wait so you actually have a kid? Like you're actually taking care of it?"
"Yea. A daughter. Her name is Eloise but we call her Elle"
"That's adorable but does... Sam know?"
"No. He still thinks I gave her up. He didn't want her in the first place. I told him about it and he didn't care"
"He's kind of a douchebag to be honest... I heard him and Santana had a thing over the break"
"It's better if he's not in my baby's life"
"So you take care of her and everything?"
"Yea. My mom watches her during the day then I come home because my mom has to teach at night. She's still the coach for Vocal Adrenalin"
"Right! Speaking of which are you coming back to glee club?"
"Of course. That's the only thing I actually like. Plus we made it to Regionals"
"True true. But um... Sam joined glee"
"What the hell why?!" Rachel felt the bus stop and the doors open
"Because of Santana..."
"Wonderful"
The two girls got out of the bus and walked inside together.
"I have to go see Coach Sylvester before class but I'll see you in glee" Quinn waved then left Rachel alone in the halls
She went straight to her first period where there were already a bunch of people at their seats. As soon as she spotted Kurt and Mercedes she sat down behind them and smiled.
"Hey girl hey!" Mercedes turned around "we missed you so much"
"I'm so glad you're back! You have to tell us everything!"
"There's too much to tell"
"Was it hard? I really wish we could have seen the baby before you-"
"I didn't give it up for adoption" Rachel bit her lip "I couldn't do it"
"So you have a baby now!?" Kurt whispered
"Get out!" Mercedes slammed her hand down
"Yea..."
"Boy or girl?"
"Girl" the brunette smiled "Eloise"
"I cannot believe you. I cannot believe this. So you actually have a baby? And you take care of it?"
"Yes"
"Oh wait until Sam finds out!"
"I don't want to tell him" Rachel swallowed "I don't want to know his reaction. I heard he has a thing with Santana"
"Oh yea they hooked up. She was telling the Cheerios about it" Kurt chimed in
"Yea... so I don't know what to do but Quinn was being really nice to me today so that's good"
"We need to have a sleepover" Mercedes looked at both of her friends "there is so much we need to tell you, Rachel"
"I can't really leave the house much anymore..."
"Then we'll just come to you!"
"Okay... well Shelby isn't home on Friday night why don't you guys come over and you can meet Elle and everything"
"Is that what you call her?"
"Yea it's easier to say. She looks exactly like Sam..."
"That must be hard"
"It's not exactly easy I'll just say that. I don't get any sleep but I love her. Shes so smart and funny and she loves laughing"
"This is so crazy"
"I know" Rachel laughed a little "and I wouldn't trade it for the world"
"Regionals here we come!" Mr. Shuester handed out sheet music to each of the kids sitting in the choir room "but before we get to talking about Regionals I have a few things I want to get through. First of all I think all of you noticed that this is Rachel's first day back! We all missed you Rachel"
"Speak for yourself" Santana muttered
"Shut the fuck up Santana" Noah Puckerman snapped
"How are you Rachel?" Mr. Shue asked
"I'm good"
"Great. Now that that's addressed onto the second thing I must address- as you know, Vocal Adrenalin is our biggest competition. All the Lima Show Choir chat rooms are buzzing about how they have lost their spark. Can anyone guess why?"
No one in the room raised their hands.
"Vocal Adrenalin is all about flair and big dance numbers but what they don't have is soul. They can't reach deep down to how they feel and sing a song about it. So you're assignment this week is to pick a song that expressing what you're feeling or what you're dealing with. In the end we are going to pick one and perform it for Regionals"
"So anything we are feeling?" Artie asked
"Yep, anything. I'm going to give you the rest of the class to think, brainstorm, and pick each others brains. I have spanish projects to grade so keep yourselves busy. I'll be in my office"
Rachel bit her lip and watched everyone else talk with each other. Sam was sitting alone in the back of the class at the moment because Santana had to go to the front office for some reason. The thought of having to tell him was eating her up inside and if she didn't do it now then she'd turn into a nervous wreck.
She stood up and walked to the back and sat in the seat next to him.
"Hey" she sighed
"Hi" Sam was stand off-ish
"Um... how are you?"
"Okay. You?"
"Fine" she took a deep breath "I need to tell you something"
"Look if this is about the baby I've been meaning to-"
"I didn't give it up for adoption" she bit her lip harder "I couldn't do it. I had the papers right in front of me but then they let me hold her and I couldn't give her up. She's my baby and I couldn't do that to her"
"Her?" He swallowed
"Yea... it's a girl. I'm sorry if you're upset or mad. I know you don't want anything to do with her or me but I just wanted to tell you"
Sam ran his hands through his hair and watched Rachel stand up and walk away. She didn't let him say anything else because she didn't want to get hurt.
"Rachel wait" Sam sighed
"No it's fine. You're with Santana and that's that. I planned on raising her by myself anyway"
"But why didn't you at least tell me you were gonna do this-"
"Because I don't want to hear how much you don't want her! You would have told me to give her up and I couldn't do it. Unlike you I actually love her" Rachel took a few steps back over to him "Just stop. You're free to do whatever you want; you don't have any worries"
With that, the brunette walked away. She was actually getting emotional so she ran to the bathroom and spent the rest of the period in there. When she heard the bell ring, Rachel grabbed her beg and walked out to the hall. She could feel all the eyes on her as she walked out to the bus and waited to get on it.
"Rachel!" Sam ran up to her
They had met the beginning of sophomore year in second period. Rachel thought he was one of the cutest guys in the schools so she would fling herself at him and, being a typical teenage boy, he would totally go for it. They'd have sex quite often but then she heard that he talked about how he was just using her so she stopped. Then one thing lead to the next and they were back at it.
"I have to go"
"Can I at least call you then?" he swallowed
"Why?"
"Because I feel like you want me to do something about it"
"See this is what I'm talking about. You don't want to do it, you just think I'm guilting you into it"
"That's not what I meant"
"I have to go" Rachel stepped onto the bus "don't call me"
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