"This is a surprise," Oliver says jumping down from the salmon ladder as I walk out of the elevator.

"Felicity said you were down here training," I tell him walking over to where he is standing.

"Among other things," he agrees.

"Everything okay?" hoping whatever is on his mind is something we can fight because I don't know how to bring up what I came down here to discuss with him.

"Well I could be going to jail for a very long time for vigilantism and several counts of murder. My former team hates me, and I nearly killed Rene a few weeks ago." He tells me toweling off the sweat from his face.

I stare at him trying to unpack what he just said. I knew he was under indictment for being the Green Arrow, but I had no idea that it had gotten so bad after we all went our separate ways after the whole Earth- X thing. I need to start coming back to 2018 more often, just to check in on my dad and Ollie, there is always some bomb they have drop on me when I come back.

"Actually, I'm glad you came by Sara, there's something we need to talk about and it might take some processing. Quentin and I thought you needed to know, we just haven't found a good time to get in touch with you, it's been intense here since Earth X. Your dad and I haven't agreed…"

"Ollie," I say interrupting him because it really didn't sound like something we can go beat up and I only have enough headspace for one personal issue at a time right now.

"Yea," Oliver says totally focused on me.

"How do you make it work with Felicity?" Oliver looks at me curiously trying to figure out what I am really asking. I try to clarify, "I mean she's someone you take home to mom and dad. Someone who hasn't seen what we have or done what we have done. She's not…"

"…a killer," Oliver finishes for me.

"Yea," I agree glad that he understands a little about why I am here.

Oliver walks over to where the suits are lined up and stands in front of the Green Arrow suits, "you know I came home to right my father's wrongs. To stop the Undertaking. I never planned on bringing anyone into my crusade. This was going to be mission alone, but one day I walked into the IT department of Queen Consolidated and this woman with a red pen in between her lips made me smile. It was the first time I remember smiling since before Lian Yu."

"When she came into the fold because Walter was kidnapped; she was only going to stay on as long as it took to get him back. After time went by, I got to know her, but I promised myself that when we found Walter I would let her go. Find someone with her computer skills when and if I needed another hacker."

"But you didn't. Six years later she's still down here with you." I say.

"Then I started to tell myself that partners weren't a bad thing, and after Slade Felicity and I tried to go on a date, but I didn't notice someone putting a tracker on me and the restaurant got bombed. I stepped away because I couldn't let her get hurt. I had to keep my focus on the streets. After everything with the League, Felicity and I got away from everything and some days I wish we had stayed in Ivy Town. It might have been boring but the darkness within was easier to keep at bay and not think about when I am not facing down society's worst. Coming back, I wasn't able keep the darkness at bay and we couldn't handle the changes."

"Nor does an illegitimate son," I remark. One of the last conversations Laurel and I had was about William.

"I have a hard time opening up about the past and I have an even harder time talking about the past even with Felicity. After Prometheus held me, I was convinced that everyone would be better without me, if I had never come back. William would still have his mother. Thea would have hers and never have been put through the hell Malcolm put her through. Tommy… and Laurel…Laurel might not…." Oliver chokes.

I walk over to him and put hand on his shoulder, "Laurel wasn't your fault. Laurel wouldn't want you to blame yourself. I don't, neither does Dad."

Oliver takes a minute and turns to me, "I know Felicity deserves someone less damaged, why she continues to choose me? I don't know, but I do know that having her by my side makes me a better person even if the demons never really go away. Something I have learned by being with Felicity is sometimes its good to have someone to come home to, even if they don't exactly get the demons, but are still willing to stay and try to understand what happened. When Felicity and I traveled after the League I told her that I tortured the General who let the Alpha/ Omega virus which killed Maseo, uh… Sarab, and Tatsu son's Akio. I was so angry that he was dead, and I didn't feel like a monster until I saw Tatsu face. I had been thinking about that day a lot and I told Felicity about it and she told me that she knew who I was inside and that one moment didn't make me a monster and she reminded me of that again after Prometheus convinced me that I enjoy killing."

After Ollie was done talking he went over to Felicity's chair to get his hoodie and I find myself wiping the tears from my eyes. I didn't know what had brought Sarab to the League or that Ollie had known him.

After composing myself I finally tell Oliver why I am here, "I met someone, Ava, it's the first time since Nyssa, really that I wanted to try for something normal. Dates at fancy restaurants. Movies. That kind of thing."

"What happened?" he asks.

"The death totem," I say still cursing that damn things existence.

"The what?" Oliver asks.

"Magic. The six totems of Zambasi. It's all part of the anachronisms the Legends and I have been dealing with." I quickly sum up.

"Okay… what does this death totem have to do with you and Ava?" Oliver asks.

"It called to me and when I put it on. I wasn't myself. I hurt Ray and the rest of my team." Oliver stays silent giving me the time to get the story out. "Ava managed to pull me out of Mullus realm again." I tell him.

"Mullus?" Oliver asks.

"The being that is causing all of the anachronisms." Oliver nods and I go back to my rant, "I'm damaged. Look at what you and I did. What I did to Nyssa I left her without a word. I wanted to get away from the League, Raz was right I didn't belong in the League, but I can't take back what I have done. I left Nyssa without a word, Ollie and when she came back I poisoned myself and it had nothing to do with her. If that is what Nyssa will always remember about me. And then there is Ava. Ollie, I could hurt her. If it wasn't the death totem, it could be the bloodlust I still deal with." I tell Oliver laying it out there. Oliver and I silence, it was something I had actually come to really admire about us. That we can sit in silence without needing to talk to fill the silence.

"You might…" Oliver begins breaking our comfortable silence.

"I might what?" I ask.

"You might leave Ava, a bit Sara damaged." Oliver quickly adds, "What I mean is I don't think you or any of the Legends or Ava herself would let you hurt her because of the death totem or the bloodlust. Your relationship could end poorly, and it'll hurt you both. If Ava knows about Lian Yu and the League and hasn't run her off, I think you might owe it to yourself to see where it could go."

"How can you so sure that I deserve this?" I ask.

"For me, despite everything, every lie, every kill, every play Felicity didn't agree with, she stood by me. Felicity was everything I never knew I needed and I've come to believe that after everything. You and I deserve a little bit of happiness."

"Happiness looks good on you, Ollie," I tell him.

"Did any of this help? Advice isn't my area. That's usually what John or Barry are for." He says seriously.

"I think you would understand what I am going through more." I tell him.

"Well I'm always here," he tells me.

"How do I get Ava to even see me? I kind of already broke up with her." I say.

"Be patient and when comes back into your life. Be honest. Take it from me, sometimes that's all that needed." Oliver laughs.

I give Oliver a hug and a kiss on the cheek for the advice and begin to walk towards the elevator, but then I turn back and look at Oliver remembering he wanted to tell me something when I first got here, "Hey, Ollie?"

"Yea." He says turning to look at me.

"What was it you wanted to tell me before we got all emotional."

"Oh… um… you might want to come sit back down." He tells me seriously.

"Sounds ominous." I joke, but I sit back down when Oliver doesn't share my amusement at my joke.

"It's about Earth 2." Oliver begins.