A/N: I know Chapter Five needs to go up. I promise I am working on it. But their fight was amazing. I just wish that she had kept the baby. I don't know how far this story will go. Always love your reviews. Thank you!

I Want

Olivia stormed into the master bedroom at the white house. She was pacing in circles. Things had gotten stressful. She was starting to feel trapped. She wanted to be with him, but she felt like she was losing herself. She wanted to be a big dog again. She is a big dog. She was tired of planning parties, decorating for Christmas and talk to other wives about cookies and things. She wanted him. She tried so hard to enjoy their lives together.

He was all hers now. She had him all the time. With no breaks. She wasn't used to it. Mellie got most of him. She didn't have to be or do everything for him. God she wanted a drink. A tall glass of red wine. Even Mellie's hooch.

She wasn't sure how she was going to tell him. She wanted them. She wanted Vermont. But she wanted her identity, her job. Maybe she wasn't cut out to being a house wife. She wasn't sure if she was ready to be considered the wife of the President of The United States. The First Lady.

Could she be the First Lady and run OPA at the same time? Or was she going to have to give one of them up?

Fitz walking into their bedroom and was relieved to find her there. He was worried when she didn't make it to the dinner tonight.

"Where were you Olivia?"

"Something came up." Olivia responded walking in circles.

"Don't lie to me Olivia!" Fitz yelled at her.

"God, I need a drink." Olivia whispered under her breath. "What do you want from me?"

"What do I want?" Fitz asked confused. "I want us...I want you."

"You want me to plan your parties, be your house wife, your property, your First Lady?" She said in a raised voice. "How about what I want."

Fitz just looked at her. "I always ask if you have everything you needed. You just need time. You will get used to this."

"We didn't get any time!" Olivia said voice raised. "I need a drink." She whispered under her breath again.

"I can get some wine up here. We just need time to work this out." Fitz said walking closer to her.

"I can't. I can't have a drink...I can't do this right now." She said looking at the floor. "We didn't get any time. I told you if we didn't take time to work on us they would tear us apart. I can't live here Fitz. I love you but I can't."

Olivia just walked out of their room not waiting for his respond.

~Scandal~

Olivia opened her apartment door to find Abby standing there with a bottle of wine. She looked at her friend for a few minutes before she stepped aside to allow her entry. She was a little surprised to see her.

"Abby, what's going on." Olivia asked heading to her kitchen to get a glass.

"I saw you walk out of the White House. You looked like you needed a friend." She responded opening up the bottle.

Olivia walked into the living room with only one wine glass. She handed it to Abby and then curled herself up on one of the ends of the couch. Abby looked at the glass confused.

"You're not having any?" Abby asked.

"I cann...I don't want any thanks." She responded after a moment of hesitation.

Olivia never turned down wine. Wine was a like a food group to her. There was something big going on if she was turning it down.

"What's wrong?" Abby asked sitting next to her friend. She placed a hand on her knee.

"I..." Olivia wasn't ready to tell anyone what was going on. She wasn't sure if she was ready to even tell herself.

"Liv, I am right here. Let me help you." Abby said with worry for her friend. Olivia had helped Abby though so many things in her life that she wanted to return the favor.

"I AM PREGNANT!"