Author's Notes: This fic was inspired by the most heart wrenching infidelity story I have ever read. It was so much to take in that it actually made me cry...


Sakura was a twenty five year old lawyer, a very successful lawyer in fact. She was praised for her critical and precise effort in the line of duty. She never enjoyed being a defendant attorney of a convicted criminal because it was always harder to reiterate their innocence to the people who were affected by their crimes, but she wasn't known for being the best for nothing. She much preferred to be the prosecutor however, it did her confidence and ego a world of good to be able to see the looks of despair and hopelessness on the charged.

She didn't think of herself as a cocky person, assertive and sure, yes, but not cocky. Yeah, even she knew their was a thine line between those aspects of her personality... She could concede that in some cases she would let her ego get the best of her, but that all came with being so good with what she did.

She was married, happily in fact to Naruto Uzumaki, successful architect. He was such a good person and a loving husband. He looked out for her interest, made sure to be attentive, and listened to all her problems when need came. Sakura had to admit she was a lucky woman.

It wasn't always that way. They knew each other since high school. She was always made fun of about her forehead but Naruto was the only person who pointed out the beauty in her flaw. They were never that close however, she always sought the attention of the heart-throb Sasuke Uchiha. He was every females dream, handsome, mysterious, rich, did she metion handsome? She was hopelessly head over heals in love with the Uchiha. She had done everything against the competition for Sasuke's attention, showing him her constant intentions, her need for him to be with her and no one else. All which ended in failure. Sasuke wasn't the type of person to visibly acknowledge a female's attention, especially people he considered fan girls.

Naruto however persisted for her affection, even when she had rebuffed him quite a number of times. Couldn't Naruto take a hint? Well obviously he couldn't, the rejections only seemed to cement his resolve to have her, to love her. She had always loved Sasuke, up to the point that she was willing to go with him when he left Konoha High just a year after he started there. It took a long time to for her to stop crying.

It took an even longer time for her to finally give Naruto a chance. It started out with little dates and it soon develop into a solid relationship, where love was truly the founding factor. They kissed, they hugged, the made love, passionate love, on her eighteenth birthday. From their onwards he was her everything, her foundation, her pillar of strength. He was the only man she would die to protect. She also made sure to let him, or any girl in his vicinity, know that he was hers and hers alone. There would be fatal repercussions for any bitch who would try to steal her man.

Naruto didn't mind however. He wasn't the sort of person to have an affair on his wife. They fought sometimes, mostly on her part, on money issues and suspicion of infidelity, even though they both had very stable jobs and Naruto was faithful to no fault, and she'd often said hurtful words to him. Naruto grew up as an orphan, something that was still a delicate subject for him. She would often bring that subject in their argument, and then profusely apologise after, he would always forgive her and blame their heated conversations on stress or just a bad day. Naruto treated her like a queen, bless his soul.

They didn't have children yet, even if Naruto thought that they were ready, Sakura was still uncertain. Naruto understood of course, and gave her time to come to a decision.

Life seemed good for her. A loving husband, healthy environment, and a great job. That should have been enough for her, Sakura knew she didn't need anything else, but contentment was never a definite or permanent part of life.

Their sex life was amazing, words couldn't describe how he made her feel. He was truly the man of her dreams...but she found herself lacking something. It was something that she'd always valued when she was young with no attachments, freedom. The ability to do what she wanted, when she wanted. Nothing serious, just a little more room for the other. Naruto agreed without a second thought.

Her life was so perfect, it seemed like everything was looking up for her...that was until that day.

Anko, a friend and fellow co-worker, was transferred to a different branch of the company in exchange for someone else. Sakura wasn't happy about it but when she saw who Anko's replacement was, that's when she became conflicted. At first she didn't know who he was, but he looked familiar. Her heart had skipped a beat when he had introduced himself as Uchiha Sasuke.

That's when she remembered him in high school. She had put those past thoughts aside to show Sasuke where he would be working, he was new and needed a tour. They talked and got to know each other. He had become a very good defence attorney, going so far as to have only lost one of his cases. Needless to say Sakura was impressed with how far Sasuke had come.

He was still as mysterious as ever, that cool Uchiha demeanor that had woman swooning. Dare she say, he affected her as well.

Over time she would find him trying to spend as much time with her as possible, even if nothing much was said, and she would find herself anticipating those times. She would always catch the glances he sent when they would pass each other or when they were debriefed on cases by Ms Senju. She would seek out his gaze often, looking into his onyx eyes and seeing the burning desire. She should have been disgusted in it, but she wasn't.

It started off as simple talk, but turned flirtatious in a few weeks. The experience had awoken her excitement and sex appeal. They would tease each other playfully a few times, her more than him, and continued with their duties. She found herself longing to see him every time she came home.

The experience was exciting and very different from her everyday lifestyle that she found herself welcoming it wholeheartedly. It didn't take long for those flirtatious jabs to turn into want and need.

She knew she still had a crush on him, she never had closure when he left high school so suddenly. She wasn't surprised to know that those feeling of infatuation hadn't ceased.

She dared not voice any of it to Naruto.

The tension between Sasuke and her had become thick overtime and it didn't take long for them to break the unbearable obstacle. She found herself lusting after him, for something alien, he had the same thoughts.

The night she spent at his house, discussing a case, that's when things escalated. They couldn't get their hands off each other. They had rough, hungry, sex, like they were starved for days. They had sex the whole night, in every room, using every position. Sakura had never been so out of breath in her entire life.

When they had finished, she felt guilty. It was never supposed to end up like this, having sex with another lover while she was married. She numbed all the thoughts so she wouldn't lose control of her emotions. She left Sasuke's house without a word.

Naruto was none the wiser, he never suspected any infidelity from her and for a moment she felt her heart ache for what she had done.

The next time she saw Sasuke, they had hardly talked, hardly said a word. She was keeping to her duties and he was keeping to his. He tried to talk to her alone, in his office, but she rejected all his attempts. Then they started to argue, she tried her best to control her urges and stick to anger. She was infatuated with the Uchiha, but she didn't love him like in high school...but when he had forced himself on her, grabbing her, bending her over his desk and pounding the life out of her, she found herself screaming for more. She was so lucky that the office was sound proof.

Overtime the affair had continued in an almost casual manner. When she had an itch, she would come to him and he would satisfy her urges and fantasies. It wasn't the same with Naruto, they had sex out of love, this was just casual sex, to heighten fantasy. Her guilt had slowly receded overtime, but it was always there. The affair had been going on for a about three weeks. Sakura had convinced herself to keep the relationship with Sasuke a secret. She loved Naruto and she didn't want him to go through all the pain. Besides, what he didn't know wouldn't hurt him.

People had become suspicious of her and Sasuke's relationship. Some of Naruto's friends, who worked with her, had warned Naruto of the possible infidelity being acted out, but the blonde would always vehemently deny it. Naruto always got angry when someone accused his wife of cheating. However, Shikamaru was very perceptive to matters. He could see right through her. It would not take long for Naruto to doubt her as well, she hoped it never came to that.

It took sometime, a long time, but she had finally come to terms with her mistake. It was funny, she came to realize her betrayal while she was in the arms of another man. Naruto loved her, she meant everything to him. What she had done was a betrayal of trust, she had broken her vows. She had committed adultery and the revelation had hit her like a ton of bricks. All the repressed feelings and pent up emotions on the subject had finally gotten through to her. She cried hard, in the arms of another man.

She always loved Naruto, that notion would never change and he had always been faithful to her, even when she had accused him otherwise. How could she do this to the man she loved with all her heart? Stab him in the back? Sasuke had tried to comfort her but she had angrily pulled away. She left his house in a hurry, not before telling him that this would never happen again.

She had lied to Naruto when she came home, telling him of a late meeting. He believed her like he always did. She had to fight back the tears when he looked at her with those loving azure irises.

Shikamaru had become even more suspicious of her, taking note of her refusal to have conversation with Sasuke. She didn't care anymore.

The guilt had been gnawing at her, tearing her apart and she knew as a wife she had to own up and be honest to her husband. If she didn't do it soon then Shikamaru would do it for her, she knew he knew. He was the only person that Naruto truly listened to. If that were to happen then the hatred Naruto would feel towards her when he found the claim to be true would be ten time worse then if she confessed herself.

She had dreaded the day that came for confessing, but she did the deed and had to face the consequences. She knew that if she kept this secret any longer then it could be a disastrous future for them. The clever thing to do would be to keep this secret until her grave...but the right thing to do would be to let him know of her stupid, horrible mistakes. She just loved him too much.

She had told him to take a seat on the living room couch. She had told him to wait until she had said what was needed to be said. He had looked at her confusedly but complied, even going as far as to try and ease her nervousness. She knew right then and there that she didn't deserve him.

She started off nervously and meekly, but as the explanation continued, and the hurt and anger in his eyes started to show, she forced herself to be strong and tell him the truth with no pause. She didn't deserve to act like a victim, she didn't deserve mercy.

Naruto had listened to what she had said from the beginning to the end without saying a word. The heartbreak was indescribable, it was as if someone was stabbing his chest over and over again. He was angry, furious, hurt, confused. He felt many things and he tried his best to dull his burning anger.

"H-How long?" Sakura could tell he was holding himself back from lashing out, and she felt like crying, not for herself, but for him. She knew not to give too much detail on the subject, it would only make things worse.

"Three weeks," She whispered.

Naruto nodded in understanding. His friends were actually right, he didn't know what to feel about it all. He was still in a state of shock. His eyes pierced right into hers.

"Why?" It was a simple question, but under these circumstances it could possibly mean a death sentence. Sakura had to be very careful with how she answered.

"It wasn't your fault. You are always supporti-"

"Why?!" Dammit, she couldn't sugar coat her way out of it.

"I-It just happened. It was a mistake Naruto," Sakura said softly as she stared at the ground. She was surprised when she heard him laugh, it sounded so hollow and empty.

"A mistake?! Sex is a choice Sakura! You chose to do it! You knew full well what you were doing when you were fucking him!" Naruto screamed in rage.

Sakura flinched, she had rarely seen this side of him before, and it was never directed at her.

"Why?" He repeated gratingly.

"I..." Sakura bit her lip and looked anywhere but her husband.

"Tell me the truth!"

"... I had a crush on him before we got married. I... I just wanted closure. To live my life without any what if's. It meant nothing to me, Naruto, I swear!" Sakura pleaded.

"So, that's how you tell me you don't love me?! By sleeping with someone else?!" Naruto shouted.

Sakura looked at him with guilt and sorrow," I do love you Naruto. I'm in love with you."

"Shut the fuck up! How dare you say that?! After what you did you have the audacity to tell me that?!" Naruto spat.

Sakura couldn't retort to his words, he never deserved something like this in the first place.

"Three weeks! H-How dare you!" Tears started flowing down his face.

Sakura made to console him but she was stopped when he glared at her with rage.

"Don't you fucking come closer bitch!" The amount of hatred truly shocked her to the core. Naruto promptly left the house, banging the door on his way out.

Sakura fell to her knees and wailed in despair. She felt like scum, there wasn't anything else to describe the feeling. The self loathing, disgust, and regret were eating at her very psyche. The tears flowed with a vengeance. She had ultimately ruined her marriage and lost the trust of the man she loved. Suicidal thoughts flooded her mind but she knew that it would be a cowards way out.

Her eyes were glazed and unfocused as she skimmed through her wedding album. She was in the bedroom waiting for Naruto to return. She wanted to beg him not to throw their marriage away. She wanted to plead with him to give her another chance. She didn't deserve his forgiveness but she wanted to show him how truly sorry she was for everything. She wanted to fight for their love and marriage. Without him in her life, then she didn't have a reason to live.

She heard the front door open and she knew he was home. He immediately came into the room and went straight to the closet. He took out a huge travel bag and started putting clothes in it. Her sense of dread increased tenfold.

"Where are you going?" She whimpered sorrowfully in fear.

He just glanced at her and continued to pack.

Sakura was panicking at this point. Worse case scenarios were plaguing her mind. She didn't want him out of her life, it would be too hard to bare.

"Please tell me." She looked absolutely pitiful, but Naruto was not in the least sympathetic.

"I'm going into a hotel for the night. Don't try to follow me, don't try to call me. Oh, and you can go fuck that guy whenever you want now," Naruto sneered venomously.

Sakura felt like she'd been punched. She didn't like this side of Naruto but there wasn't anything she could do.

"I'm sorry," She whispered.

"..." Naruto only quickened his packing and then left the house without a word.

Sakura felt alone again. She felt like a decaying corpse, no other purpose but to just wither away. Her emotions were a mess and she could do nothing but cry in sorrow for her acts. Her life and everything she cherished was crumbling before her eyes. She needed him so badly. The marriage they shared meant more to her then people thought. She valued Naruto's blatant trust in her and the pure unadulterated love he had for her. Now he would never trust her again, and would be more suspicious of her, that is if he still wanted to be married to her.

That thought alone made her want to kill herself. She was getting hysterical. If he divorced her then it would be the end of their love, which she could not compare to anything she has ever felt before. The only thing that was keeping them connected right now was a piece of paper.

God, she needed him! He was her pillar! She wanted to beg him to do anything he wanted to her, beat her, fuck her, anything that would make him feel better, but he wasn't here.

She messed up so badly. She knew she deserved this but in some ways it still felt unfair to her. She was honest with him, the least he could have done was appreciate it.

"What the hell am I thinking?" She choked out. Had she always been this selfish? Only looking at her own interests and desires while disregarding Naruto's? She didn't want to know the answer.

She felt like absolute crap. Her body kept trembling from the constant sobs, she couldn't think straight because the only thing on her mind was the love of her life. She just continued to cry until sleep claimed her.


Author's Notes: Trust me, I'm far from finished here.