Title: Just Realized

Rating: PG-15

Genre[s]: drabble, one-shot, 1st POV

Spoiler[s]: Few pieces of the Hyde/Jackie relationship. Nothing specific.

Influence: "Realize" – Colbie Caillat

If you would just realize what I realized than we'd be perfect together.

Why can't you just understand what I am saying, when I tell you everything about us. We could be perfect together; I can see it. If you could too, then you would realize why I am so eager about this, about us.

Is it just so hard to believe that this can last? We have already gone further, and lasted longer than anyone ever thought, including us. Yet you treat this relationship as if it is going to end any day. Have I not proved over and over that I am not leaving? Even after I gave up that job for you? How I took you back when you cheated, even though I was fully within my rights not too after all the shit from Kelso. Why Steven?

I just don't understand it; I am not your father or your mother. I have not only told you, but shown you my intentions and my truthfulness. My own mother and father abandoned me just like you, maybe even worse. I thought they were perfect, that I could rely on them before having them cut from my life and when I needed them the most.

But then you came in and you were the only thing in my life that made sense, my piece of sanity. Why do you think I wouldn't fight to hold on to the one thing in my life that is completely mine? I may act like a complete airhead at times but being with you wasn't something that I had to think about. It was natural and being with you just felt right. I thought you were mine; and if anything, this relationship has taught me is that I am possessive about what is mine. And you, Steven Hyde are mine..

No matter how many times I tell you that this is going to last, that I love you, instead of reinforcing this relationship you continue to push me away and shut down.

I know that you care about me, maybe even love me in some small way even if you won't admit it to yourself. This would be easier if you didn't care then at least I would know where I stood and where we were going. I don't know how much clearer I can be about this.

I want you. You and me. Forever from this day on.

I want the stupid and not-so-stupid fights.

The sex.

The grumpiness.

The playfulness that rarely comes out, only for me.

The stoner moments.

And of course, the annoying but extremely sexy Zen times.

Us, curled up on your cot, me wrapped in your shirt, and your arms around me. Pulling those mysterious shades to kiss you, trying to hide my smile when you finally stop trying to act tough and give in.

We could make this work, I swear on all my unicorns and Cosmo magazines that there is nothing more worth it than this.

Even if you don't, at least I can say that I gave it everything I had and more. Can you Steven Hyde? Can you?