I felt like doing a songfic to this song, so here it is my pitiful attempt. I like the idea but that's all my writing ever is, a good idea, I apologise, but I don't care I enjoy writing ) anyway this is from Rens pov, and I do feel slightly bad for the way I portrayed 'his love' but it had to be done. I might write a sequel but I don't know it depends what I do after I complete To love the assassin.
Predictable.
Somethin' isn't right
I can feel it again, feel it again
this
isn't the first time
that you left me waiting
I sit, my back against the wall of my room, tears still falling from the fight, the blade cool in my hand.
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I
don't know why
I let you in
You had said you'd never hurt me, that you'd always be there, that you loved me. I was foolish, I let my heart take control, and I allowed myself to love back.
I knew it all along
you're so predictable
I knew
something would go wrong
You cried saying he meant nothing, but you still did it, my heart ripped into, seeing you lying there next to your lover, my friend.
So you don't have to call
or say anything at all
So
predictable
You had begged for forgiveness, my heart will never allow me to love again, I can never forgive…
Everywhere I go
everyone I meet
Every time I try to
fall in love
they all want to know why I'm so broken
They tried to warn me, I could never love; only hatred should flow, but even now with my heart in tatters, even when I could not forgive, the love I felt was still there, and will never let go.
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
My heart slowly beating, my eyes full of emotion, the room so dark, my thoughts so heavy.
I don't even know
this story's never had an end
I've
been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've
been dreaming you would come back
I slowly remember those days where I would be your only, where you would take me in your arms and not let go, where you would kiss me and I could feel the love from it.
But I know the ending of this story...
You're never coming
back
Never...never...never...never...
I imagine you now, with him in your arms, your eyes never leaving him, you lips slowly meeting, my world slowly dying.
I knew it all along
you're so predictable
I knew
something would go wrong
The tears come faster, as I turn the blade in my hand, would you ever notice if I was gone? Would you ever cry the way I have? Would you ever find it unbearable to let me go, the way I have let you go?
So you don't have to call
or say anything at all
So
predictable
The tears creating a small pool of water at my feet, my heart aching too much now.
Everywhere I go
for the rest of my life
Everyone I
love
Everyone I care about
They all wanna know what's wrong
with me
I know what it is
I'm ending this right NOW!
The pool of water started to run red, I smile to myself, my heart finally easing, as I feel the life drain out from me, the life I had willing given to you, before you rejected it, my love… my precious… my Horo…
