What if the kitchen scene in season 1 episode 12 'Fool Me Once' ended differently?
While Piper was trying to fix the toaster in the kitchen, Alex walked by eyeing Piper closely while she brought clean towels into the room. "Hey", Alex said.
"You know what's overrated? Toast", Piper said with a frustrated tone to her voice. Alex walked towards Piper confidently and approached her with a low voice. "Wanna fuck in the pantry?
"Hey", Piper answered while flipping Alex off with her head. Alex walked behind Piper while Piper said: "Get out of here. You're gonna get a shot." Piper looked to her right to try and see what Alex was doing. Alex moved her head closer to Piper's ear while she said "I'm serious." She wrapped one hand on Piper's waist while she moved her blonde hair out of Piper's neck with the other. "I was so afraid about you finding out the truth, but now it's out and it's okay."
She pressed a soft kiss to Piper's neck. Right on the spot where she knew Piper's knees would go weak. Piper closed her eyes shot at the feeling of Alex's lips in the right spot, but at the same time she still tried to remember that she was mad at Alex for naming her in the first place. "It's kind of a rush", Alex said while she moved her hand from Piper's waist to her boobs and squeezed her right boob shortly before moving both hands over both breasts and back down to her waist, one hand lowered and stroked her mound.
"Cool thing about sex in an industrial kitchen is there's a ton of margarine in here." Alex kept talking into Piper's neck and Piper kept making angry faces at Alex attempts to have sex with her. "Stop it Alex".
"Come on, babe", Alex said while she moved her hands to Piper's shoulders and pressed her mouth to Piper's ear while saying: "Let's celebrate how totally fine you are with everything". Piper: "You're freaking me out." By this time it was clear that Alex was trying to get angry Piper to appear. She didn't stop. In fact she spoke again while Piper was trying to get out of Alex's hold. "You ain't seen nothing yet."
"I said stop it", Piper answered again. Alex: "What? Can't a girl be totally overcome with desire for someone who's being so cool and so forgiving?" At this Alex put her hands under Piper's shirt to feel her boobs. Now she had Piper. Piper turned around in her hold while saying "We're not okay."
There she was, angry Piper. "This is not fine", Piper said while moving her hands back and forth between to two of them. "Good. Now we could talk about it", Alex answered the blonde. "Is that what this is about?", Piper asked Alex. "Yeah. That's what this is about." Alex practically screamed at the blonde. "You find out that I personally got you thrown in here, at the exact moment your manicured fingers were, like, closing on the yuppie brass ring, and somehow you don't have a problem with it? You are so full of shit." Alex got interrupted by her last word by Piper pushing her hard. "Fuck you!" Piper shoved Alex again while screaming "Fuck you, Alex. You want me to be angry. Well, guess what? I'm really fucking angry, because I love you, Alex. I love you and I fucking hate you." The words spat in Alex's face. "I have really been trying to keep my shit together, but if you really need to see me.. Hulk out over this..", she said while she gave Alex another push.
Piper wanted to walk away but Alex grabbed her by her left wrist and turned her around to face her. Piper was about to really throw a tantrum this time, but Alex wouldn't let her. Piper was red faced and nearly sobbing, screaming and throwing her limbs around at this point, trying to get out of Alex's hold. Alex just hold her wrist tighter and wrapped Piper tight in her arms. At first Piper tried to get out, but after a few moments and inhaling the scent that was purely Alex, she couldn't help but calm down in her arms. Alex arms around her always used to calm down Piper back in the day when she threw tantrums at Alex. Most of the times it was for the fact that Alex was flirting with yet another mule. It always ended up in them desperately fucking each other in the best ways. Angry sex was so much better than regular sex.
Alex had Piper exactly where she wanted her. She didn't expect Piper to scream at her that she loved, but also hated her. Of course she expected the hate, but to hear it just now it really seemed to sink in. Alex always loathed Piper for leaving her in Paris when her mum died. But she also loathed herself for being the one who drove Piper away in the first place.
When she was being truly honest with herself, she hated herself more for the fact that she made Piper leave, than hating Piper for leaving her. She realised now that if she ever wanted to have another shot with Piper, she needed to apologize for all the shit that happened all those years ago. It was clear that Piper hated herself for leaving Alex the way she did. Alex always let Piper hate herself for it. She never once acknowledged that things perhaps would have been different if she chose Piper over the cartel.
All Piper ever wanted was Alex. Just Alex, not the money, the jewellery that made up for all those times being alone in all those cities. She just wanted Alex.
"Piper, I want you to look at me. I have to tell you something." Piper just buried her face deeper into the crook of Alex's neck. "Piper, open those blue eyes I love so much and look at me please", Alex said with a soft, pleading tone while she tilted Piper's face from her neck and brought her face up by her chin so that they could look into each other's eyes properly.
"I'm sorry Pipes….." Piper seemed to be confused by Alex words. She seemed to understand that this wasn't a sorry for right now, but for much more. Alex saw the confusion in Piper's eyes and tried to speak up again while a lump was forming in her throat.
"I'm so sorry I fucked up all those years ago. I never ever should've let you carry to bag of money in the first place." Tears were beginning to form in her eyes. "You were always pretty clear that you didn't want to be involved and I involved you anyway."
Piper's face expression was blank and impossible to read for Alex. All those years ago Alex could read Piper's face like the back of her hand. She knew when the blonde was sad, disappointed, happy, exited and of course she knew when the blonde was mad at her. She recognized the 'lust' look in her eyes as no other. She always knew when she'd been neglecting her girlfriend for too long and wanted Alex's attention. She knew when the blonde would want her to fuck her hard and fast, or when she wanted Alex to make love to her. There wasn't a face expression in the world that Alex couldn't read of Piper's face.
Maybe she indeed changed after all those years, because at this expression Alex seemed to be lost, and not only for words.
Piper seemed to be moulding over thoughts and answers in her head. Alex thought she saw anger, disappointment, but also a hint of appreciation and love. The last two gave her courage to speak up again.
"I know I've always been mad at you for leaving when you did. Okay, it wasn't the best time to leave, it still isn't. Sometimes I'm still so pissed at you for not even being there as my friend. I still think I deserved that much. But I guess I also understand you had to leave when you did. I'm sorry I never said that before. I'm sorry I never said I was sorry before. I'm sorry for letting you take the blame for everything. I'm sorry for naming you. But I'm also not sorry for meeting you in here again. I love you….so so much, Pipes. Please forgive me for being a fuck up all those years ago, and just now for telling you I didn't name you?"
All this time Piper was looking into Alex's green eyes and couldn't help but drown in them. All together with Alex apologies, her head seemed to be spinning by so many thoughts thrown in together. She didn't even think about Larry for another second until then.
Larry had left her. Alex was being all honest here, so Piper knew she had to do the same. "Larry left me", was the first thing she said after Alex apologies. Alex face seem to fall. "No, please don't be sad Alex. What I was trying to say is that him and me are over." Piper placed her hands on either side of Alex's face and stroked her cheeks softly with her thumbs. Piper spoke up again. "There's a thin line between love and hate Alex. Being in this place made me hate you for a lot of things. It also made me realise that I was still in love with you. After all those years, but even during those years apart."
"I never fell out of love with you Alex. I will never fall out of love with you." She looked her ex-drug-smuggling-girlfriend in the eyes. "I love you Alex Vause. Please make me yours again."
I hope you all like the concept 'What if'. I will be posting one-shots here from time to time. The one-shots will be based on the scenes in the show. I have not abandoned my other story 'It happened one night'. I will be posting new chapters soon! Thank you so much for reading my story. Reviews are very much appreciated.
