Well hello there~! I would love to say first that I missed you guys, i feel as if a part of me was missing since I hadn't written anything in months. I know i had been gone for almost a year now, well i could confidently say that i was busy, dance competitions, orchestra practices and i was even forced to a pageant made me very busy and also certain events that happened which is explained below. My writing has also been rusty and this has not yet been edited i should stop my pointless babbling and let you get to reading.

Luna skipped thru the halls of Hogwarts while reading the newest issue of The Quibbler, her long blond hair bounced with each step. Luna was heading to her potions class , she rounded the corner before abruptly bumping on to someone, she slowly looked up to met the eyes of a tall Italian boy named Blaise Zabini, he looked at her intently before looking around and helping her up.

"Thank you," she said taking the issues of The Quibbler from Blaise "and I am truly sorry for not looking where I was going." She finished off with her signature dreamy voice and a smile.

"No problem Loony, but next time do be careful of where you're walking." He said gruffly before leaving.

"Blaise," Luna said, stopping him from leaving, she walked closer before continuing "here take it," she handed him the newest issue of The Quibbler that she was just reading a few moments ago "a token of gratitude." She smiled up at the tall Italian before turning around to leave.

"Lovegood! 'oy!"

"Yes, Blaise?" she asked politely, turning around.

"I don't want it." He said bluntly, his eyes unreadable but Luna just smiled at him and said.

"It's yours now Blaise, you can do anything you want to it." She said smiling at the boy before turning around and glancing back one last time "but I do hope you read it, you might find it . . . interesting."

The next encounter that Luna had with Blaise was at the library, he sat alone at the furthest corner of the library his back at her, deeply focused at what he was reading. Luna quietly approached him, they had somewhat of a friendship after their little run in at the hallway, well maybe Luna only acknowledged their friendship while Blaise just flat out refused it. Luna slid down at the sit in front of him, the said person only looked up to see who wanted to sit with him during his me time, he let out a sigh and flipped a page when he saw that it was only Luna 'Loony' Lovegood.

"Hello Blaise" she said, her dreamy tone alive with enthusiasm, she smiled at him and started to read.

"What do you want Lovegood?" he asked rolling his eyes and flipping another page.

"You looked lonely, I thought of accompanying you." She said, smiling at Blaise.

"Love-"

"It's Luna, Blaise remember we're friends."Blaise rolled his eyes by her claim but continued anyway.

"Lov-Luna I am in no way lonely as you put it." He said with a clipped tone "and I would love it if you stopped harassing me to be your friend."

"We're not friends?" she asked cocking her head to the side.

"Yes, we're not." He replied slightly amused.

"How 'bout bestfriends?"

"Malfoy already has that position." He said growing amused.

"Oh," Luna said a bit disappointed "Secret friends then?" she asked innocently gaining a chuckle from Blaise, Luna then decided that she liked Blaise's laugh even though it was only a chuckle.

"Fine Lovegood, but I would not be secret friends with you." He said causing Luna to be disappointed "We're not secret friends because you are my friend and I am not some coward to hide his friendship with someone crazy from people." Luna giggled and let out her pinky finger.

"Promise?"

"What in Merlin's underpants are you doing?"

"It's what muggles call a pinky promise." She explained "I've read that they do it to keep promises with each other" she continued to stare at her pinky finger before abruptly grabbing Blaise's and curling his fingers so that the only thing left was the pinky "all you have to do is to link it with the other persons pinky, like this." She explain as if she was speaking to a child, which caused Blaise to laugh and smile at her, yes she really did like his laugh but she has a feeling that she loves his smile more, she blushed at her thoughts.

"Ah, I must take my leave now Blaise, I still have to hunt down nargles." She said, smiling before taking off her heart beating rapidly.

The next day Luna was really worried for Blaise because she heard that he had not attended any of his classes and she feared that he could possibly be held hostage Heliopath because he has a connection with Fire, well anyway Luna decided to look for him at the black lake because she recalled seeing him occasionally just sitting their deep in thought when she had her morning strolls, she sighed in relief. She approached him quietly only to discover that he was sleeping peacefully under the tree, she observed his features, high cheek bones, long lashes, the arch of his nose and his plum lips. He was indeed truly handsome, Luna slowly reached out her hand to brush of the leaves that fell on his shoulder but she was soon surprised when Blaise's hand shot up and opened his eyes.

"I'm sorry." Luna said, surprised.

"It's ok." He said, but yet his attention was to the lake, Luna sat down next to him and looked out to the lake as well.

"Blaise, is there something wrong?" she asked finally looking at his face "You know Blaise you could tell me if something is bothering you, I may not help but I would help if someone listen to your problems." Blaise let out a dry laugh.

"You wouldn't understand." He said bitterly.

"I may not, but it does help to just tell someone what's wrong than keeping it all to yourself." She said with a small smile and Blaise let out a sigh.

"Have you ever felt like your fed up with everything, fed up with people, fed up with their expectations and you can't even count how many husbands your mum kills to get their bloody money?" he asked seriously his eyes not leaving the lake, a moment of silence before Blaise burst out laughing "what am I thinking Luna bloody Lovegood, would understand all the bloody problems of people!"

"I understand." Luna said stopping the Italians fits of laughter "I understand, my mum died in front of me, people expect a lot from me because of my mum and dad, but i don't let that bring me down because if it does I would only look down at myself which you should never feel."

"I'm sorry." Blaise said regretting what he said earlier.

"It's ok Blaise." She smiled at him "just remember that you are the one that should decide what you want, you shouldn't follow what people want from you, you should follow what your heart and you shouldn't let people bring you down. You shouldn't change for people."

"Thank you and Luna if you need anything, someone to talk too or help just owl me."

"I would love that Blaise, now we should get going its almost supper we should get going." She said reaching out to help Blaise up, he took her hand and jolted but causing Luna to stumble a bit, Blaise grabbed her arm and they both start to laugh hysterically.

"You're heavier than you look Blaise." Luna said, chuckling.

"I could say the same to you Lovegood." He said laughing.

Blaise have you seen my other shoe? I do believe that i lost it somewhere near the dungeons.-L

Yes Luna i have it with me.-B

Mind owling it to me?-L

I don't mind but i do say you should keep better care of your things-B

Thank you Blaise and i would keep that in mind, i just got my shoe thank you again Blaise.-L

Anytime, anyway why are you awake in this ungodly hour?-B

It seems that nargles are bothering me, i feel different-L

What do you mean?-B

I had been feeling giddy ever since this morning, i keep smiling for no reason at all and my heart is beating rather fast-L

Well it seems to me your in love-B

In love? That would be impossible, im sure it's the nargles doing this.-L

Think what you want but i still think that you're in love-B

A LIE! That is a lie i tell you! I refuse to listen to you sprouting lies Blaise Zabini. Goodnight and sweet dreams-L

You always find a way to crack me up. Goodnight Luna-B

Why aren't you talking to me and avoiding me?-B

I'm not-L

Lovegood, I know and you know and Merlins sweaty underpants knows that your avoiding me-B

Blaise i am giving you a 'cold shoulder'-L

Seriously? is this about what i said?-B

Yes and i don't even know why im still replying to your letter-L

Because you can't resist me, look im sorry how about i make it up to you?-B

That is NOT the reason im still replying to your letters. Make it up to me how?-L

Hahaha, you decide how i could make it up to you-B

Mind being a bait for heliopaths?-L

What the bloody merlin? Your practically giving me up to those fire loving creatures-B

How do you know they like fire? Did you read the Quibbler?-L

I most defiantly did not! I just found that article about the Heliopaths somewhat intriguing because of pure boredom-B

And here i thought that i could talk to you about Crumple-Horned Snorkacks making people's brains go all fuzzy and that theory about the Wrackspurt not existing.-L

I would not want to talk to you about those mythical creatures you speak off and please do get your facts straight Lovegood Wrackspurts are the one that makes your brain go fuzzy and the Snorkacks are the one that don't exist-B

I knew it you did read it-L

I loathe you! fine I did and this conversation is over!-B

Whatever you say Blaise-L

Why are you always at the black lake?-B

I like it there it calms me down and no one says im weird or loony there even though i am weird and a bit loony –L

A bit? You are loony! Very loony at that and very weird as well-B

You think im weird?-L

Yes-B

And i like it, it makes you interesting hell it keeps my life interesting just talking to you!-B

Thank you Blaise -L

Your welcome Luna-B

I heard you had a fight with Ron-L

Yes i did-B

Why? Violence doesn't solve anything-L

He was being a prick and yes violence doesn't solve anything but it sure does feel good-B

But please don't do it again-L

What are you siding with Weasley now?-B

I'm not siding with anyone Blaise because i don't know the story-L

Well why don't you ask Weasley since you're protecting him anyway-B

Blaise your being difficult and i am not protecting Ron-L

Just stay out of it-B

Merlin! Im so sorry Luna! I didn't mean to hit you with that spell Potter and Weasley won't even let me get near you! Ive been such a prick to you this pass few days. Please talk to me.-B

Yes you were a prick-L

Luna im sorry i know this is not a proper apology but i can't get near you without Weasley, Potter and Granger stopping me-B

Blaise i fogive you-L

Please let me make it up to you?-B

Tell me what happen?-L

Fine , Weasley was being an ass about my mum and i already had a bad day to begin with and he wouldn't shut up about my mum and i just snapped-B

You should try to control your temper Blaise, the heliopaths will get more attracted to you if you keep that firey temper of yours-L

As long as you forgive me ill do anyting-B

Why were you with Potter?-B

He asked me to go with him to the slug club party-L

And what did you say? Why do you have to go with potter any way, just go with me instead-B

I said yes Blaise, i couldn't go with you it would be incredibly rude to do so-L

Why do you like Potter?-B

He is my friend Blaise, i should like him-L

So are you saying that you like him as a friend?-B

Yes, why are you asking?-L

Good. It is none of your concern. Bye-B

Are you going to Hogsmeade?-B

Yes i am , why do you ask Blaise?-L

Would you want me to accompany you?-B

I would love that, where should we met then-L

Outside the Great Hall–B

I had fun today Blaise, thank you for accompanying me-L

I had fun to Lovegood, we should do it again sometime-B

I would love that-L

I have something to tell you-L

I have something to tell you too. What are you going to tell me?-B

No, you go first mine can wait-L

i finally got the girl ive been fancying to go out with me-B

Luna?-B

Ah, sorry 'bout that. Is that so? Im happy for you Blaise-L

Thanks Luna i wanted you to be the first one to find out, since you're the only person's opinion that matters anyway, now what were you going to tell me?-B

It's not important-L

Luna, you rarely make conversations like this you always talk 'bout your creatures, now kindly tell me-B

I realized that i like someone-L

Who is it?-B

No one important-L

You like him his important and i don't want him to break your heart-B

He already has a girlfriend, i would want to stop this conversation right now-L

Luna?-B

Is there something wrong?-L

We had a fight-B

What was it about?-L

She just doesn't understand me and she kept on complaining about me not having time for her.-B

Blaise you should just explain to her what you feel and any way there is a reason for you not having that much time for her you are in the slug club-L

And she even told me i was like my mother! Seriously, my mother!-B

Blaise, calm down you are most defiantly like your mum, so calm down and talk it out with her-L

Luna most of the time i wish Ginny was like you-B

Blaise don't you dare say that, you should never wish that a person that you are with was deferent, you should go and talk to her-L

Thank you-B

Blaise am i ugly?-L

What in merlin? Why are you asking?-B

One of the students from Slytherin told me thati wasn't pretty for the Yule ball, which i can't quite understand since the Yule ball is for the students of Hogwarts could it be that you have to look very presentable to enter the ball?-L

Don't bloody listen to them! You are pretty! No Beautiful, as you said before don't let anyone bring you down!-B

Blaise thank you but i was just wondering if i couldn't get into the ball if i was ugly-L

Luna you are bloody unpredictable and crazy-B

Is that an insult or a complement?-L

It's a complement because it makes you interesting.-B

I think your interesting too.-L

Are you going to the ball tomorrow?-B

Yes i am-L

Going with someone-B

No, im going alone, since Hermione and Draco are going together which did not surprise me, Ron is going with Lavender and Harry is going with Pansy, are you going with Ginny?-L

Yes i am, Well i still hope you have a good time and i can't wait to see your crazy dress.-B

I can't wait to see it too-L

What do you mean?-B

Pansy insisted that she pick one for me-L

Well good luck with that then, you'll surely look beautiful any way.-B

Luna stood in front of the mirror her long hair cascaded in long curls, her pale skin contrasting with her dark blue gown which fell to the floor the bodice fitting her perfectly that it showed her curves while the skirt flowed with every movement she made.

"What do you think?" Pansy asked, her long red dress trailing with each step.

"it's quite pretty." Luna said dreamily.

"Luna, you look beautiful." Hermione said calmly before standing right next to her finally showing her slytherin dress that Draco had given her.

"Are you going to tell him?" Pansy asked, she and Luna had developed a friendship because of Luna's friendship with Blaise.

"I don't know."

"You should, so you could finally know what he thinks about you." Hermione said encouragingly.

"But Ginny,"

"You're not hurting her, you're just going to tell him how you feel, its not like your bloody asking him to leave Ginny for you." Pansy said in a matter of fact tone.

"But,"

"No more buts because we're going to be late." Pansy said pushing the two outside.

Luna entered the great hall following Hermione and Pansy, they all stared as she made her way to the guys, people whispered is that Loony?, She looks very pretty if she wore normal clothes, where had she been hiding that! Comments were whispered everywhere about how she looked tonight.

"Luna you look beautiful!" harry said smiling at Luna.

"It's my master piece!" gushed Pansy.

"Well if you looked like this every day then guys would be flaunting all over you Lovegood." Draco said as he slid an arm around Hermione's waist.

"Thank you Harry, Draco."

"So where's Ron and Lavender." asked Hermione.

"Oh weasel and the mulit-colored girl their over there." Draco said half interested while pointing at the dancing couple "Well any way have you seen Blaise?"

"I'm here mate." Said Blaise as he stood behind Luna "May i ask who this is?" nodding towards Luna.

"It's me Blaise." Luna said before turning around, she watched as Blaise's mouth form an 'o' before breaking into a grin.

"Well it looks like Pansy did an amazing job." He commented "Luna you look beautiful."

"Thank you Blaise, you look quiet handsome yourself." She said smiling at him.

"Where's Ginny?" Hermione asked.

"Oh we had a bit of a splat and now she's dancing with Figgan so i was wondering if i could grab one of you ladies." Blaise said jokingly.

"Then take Luna." Pansy said, pushing Luna to Blaise.

"Have fun!" Pansy said as Luna and Blaise headed to the dance floor, Luna took one last look at her friends Harry mouthed a simple Good luck before smiling at her Hermione and Pansy gave her a reassuring smile and Draco just gave her his usual smirk. The music started to play and Blaise slid his arm to her waist and started to lead her.

"You look beautiful." Blaise said, smiling at her.

"Blaise you told me that for the nth time tonight."

"Because you truly do."

"Blaise,i have something important to tell you." Luna said, surprising Blaise with her seriousness.

"What is it?"

"I, for a long time now" Luna gulped and took a deep breath "i had started to feel something i had never really felt before, i wanted it to stop but i had no control over it, i don't even know when or how it started."

"What are you trying to say Luna?" Blaise asked gently.

"What im trying to say is that Blaise i think- no I know for a fact that I," she took another breath her heart was starting to beat rapidly she looked down at his feet, she was starting to have second thoughts, should she? What would happen what would he say?

"What is it?" Blaise asked interest clearly present in his voice.

"Blaise," she said gaining courage before looking up and looking at him straight in the eyes "I love you."

Blaise, stared at her and stared and stared before speaking up again.

"Luna, I-I" he stuttered "I don't know what to say, i- I have a girlfriend,"

"I know that and i understand, i'm not trying to get you to tell me your answer, i just wanted you to know, i know that you see me as only a friend and I-"

"I don't, i don't see you as a friend, Luna I fancy you but im not sure because i fancy Ginny too."

"What do you mean?" Luna asked clearly confused.

"I fancy both of you, but i don't know what im going to do i can't lose you both." He said looking at her pleadingly, they both stop dancing.

"Blaise, you have your decision it is all up to you." Luna said seriousness on her tone the music had stopped completely.

"I-"

"Blaise, im sorry about what i said earlier." Ginny said, interrupting Blaise, the said man looked at the girl in his arms and the girl that was apologizing to him.

"Mate, mind if i cut in?" Theodor Nott said appearing next to them, Luna stared at him and he could see the hope in her eyes, before looking at Ginny again. Blaise's hand slowly started to let go of her, before abruptly stopping he looked at Luna's blue eyes.

"Sure mate." The Italian said, before finally letting go of Luna and taking his spot next to Ginny. He could see the pain in her eyes, Nott offered a hand to Luna which she took slowly, he squeezed her had for reassurance.

"Is this your decision?" Luna asked as she looked at Blaise in the eye, silently pleading he'd say no. Her chest started to hurt as if it was being squeezed she felt as if she couldn't breathe, Blaise slowly nodded his head and then and there she felt it, she felt as if he heart stop and she couldn't breathe, she squeezed Theo's hand for support.

"i'm happy for you." She said, her voice breaking a bit before turning around and her vision started to blur, she felt herself be engulf by Theo in a hug her tears stared to fall , she taught that it wouldn't hurt because she had already anticipated his answer but, she was wrong it had hurt more than she taught, she clutched at Theo for her dear life, he was stroking her hair while saying comforting words, her sobs start to subside remembering what her mum told her when she was a child, At some point you will realize that you had done too much for someone or something and the next possible thing you could do is stop. Leave them alone and walk away. It is not that you are giving up and it is not like you shouldn't try. It is simply just drawing a line between determination and desperation. What is truly yours and will eventually be yours , and what is not, even how hard you try, will never be. Luna took a deep breath and wiped her tears, a final look at Blaise and she knew that love would always come and go, but maybe, just maybe, this love would stay. Or maybe, just maybe she would be able to forget and move on.

I am truly sorry for the people who had been awaiting my updates in my other stories i had been very busy and well in addition to that i had somewhat of a how could i say this, i had become uninspired because of certain events that happened with the guy I had liked for 3 years and well im still in the process of getting over him since summer, and this fanfic is somewhat my therapy writing for me, it is also a nail in the coffin, me burying the casket. I could say that I was at fault as well because i hoped and he feed that hope to grow more, with what happened last summer i was to crushed to even write anything, i had broke away from everything i did the dance troupe, the orchestra and most of all my writing fanfics, i had realized that he was not worth all the tears, the time and my sacrifices. I still might have feelings for him but I am starting to truly forget him and hope for your support in this!

(IMPORTANT AN: Well i was wondering if you would like me to make this a multi chap even though it is a bit rusty but i swear that i would let my beta edit it or maybe you would like me to make Blaises POV in this? Thoughts? Just review!)