My Bittersweet Romance


Author's Note: this story is going to be a bit more sexual than my other ones, just a heads up. I decided that it would make the story flow better. I'm not used to writing about that kind of stuff, so pardon any weirdness.


Prologue

It's been two years since Natsu's disappearance. No one knows if he's dead or alive, but everyone assumes that he's dead. Fairy Tail has never been the same since then. Lucy, who was broken hearted after this, turned to Gray for comfort. After a while, they started dating. Everyone was shocked by this, but no one said anything about it.

It's obvious that Lucy misses Natsu, but she insists that she's happy. The truth is, she can't forget about Natsu. So she uses Gray as a "pain killer". She loves him, but she knows that she'll always remember Natsu.

But if Natsu comes back, what will she do?


Chapter One: Heart of Ice

[Lucy]

Gray leans down for a kiss. I let him do what he wants. We kiss for a while then rest on my bed. He holds me in his arms and I look at him. He smiles and kisses me once more. I give in and let myself go numb. So what? It doesn't matter anyways.

I make love with him so I don't have to feel the pain of losing Natsu. But I do love him. I love Gray very much. But there's always Natsu in the back of my mind. Natsu is my wound and Gray is my pain killer. His touch calms me and his kiss makes everything go away.

But it's not quite right. The way Natsu held me was different. The way he kissed me was different. But I got used to Gray and his touch. At first it was uncomfortable and emotionally painful. But then I became numb and got accustomed to the ice mage that lays next to me.

People have said that my heart is now made of ice. I'll neither confirm nor deny it. Why? Because I don't know myself. I don't know what I feel anymore, except that I love Gray and he kills the pain. Although, I have become a bit more mean since Natsu disappeared. I'm still friends with Levy-chan, but lately I've found her almost annoying. She won't stop going on about how much she and Gajeel are in love. It almost makes me sick. But I'm happy for her nonetheless.

"You're quiet today." Gray says.

I look at him and kiss his lips. "Is that a problem?"

He shakes his head and kisses me back. "Not at all."

-The Next Day-

I wake up to the familiar chill of Gray's body. His coldness used to make me sneeze in the morning, but I've gotten used to it. I kiss his forehead then carefully slip out of his arms. I go to the bathroom and wash my face, brush my teeth, and comb my hair. He probably won't wake up for another ten or twenty minutes.

As I get ready for the day, I think back to when Gray and I first kissed on my couch. We didn't have sex or anything, we just kissed. It was the first time that I hadn't felt the pain in my chest. The first time I finally felt better. I was free, if only for a few minutes. I could finally find peace in the arms of an ice mage that I had come to love. The ice mage that I still love, and always will love.

But what if Natsu comes back? I brush that annoying thought aside and change into some black pants with a dark blue tank top and a black jacket. It's winter here in Magnolia, Gray's favorite time of year, obviously. I've started dressing in darker colors since bright one remind me of him. Plus Gray says I look good in blue.

As I walk out of the bathroom, I see Gray stretching. He probably just woke up. I walk over and sit next to him.

"Ohayo, sleepyhead." I say.

He looks at me and kisses my forehead. "Ohayo."

I force a smile. "So, are we gonna go on a job today?"

He shrugs. "If you're feeling up to it."

I nod. "I'm up to it."

He grins and says, "Just gimme a few minutes to shower and get ready then."

I nod and kiss him once more. "I'll be in the living room if you need me."

"Hai." He says as he finds some clothes and walks into the bathroom.

My smile fades as I walk into the living room. I pick up a book and begin reading.

It's always gonna be like this, isn't it?