Piper,

I'm indescribably mad at you right now but I'm so, so fucking in love with you and it sucks. You left me. When I really needed you, you just walked out of the door and I hate you for that.

But if you hadn't done it you wouldn't be the Piper that I fell for, you wouldn't be that same girl that completely captured my attention and my heart. Everything I do has always been self-destructing and our whole dam relationship was destructive.

I can't stand what you did to me but what I did to you wasn't fair either. Our relationship it destroyed us both. But despite myself, despite everything I know is true I love you so fucking much Piper Chapman.

I don't know why or how the actual fuck I'm asking this but come back Pipes. Come back and take care of me, keep me calm and level and keep me sane, please. I need you right now and it hurts so damn much that you're not here right now. But fuck all of the past Piper. Fuck my pride. Fuck this pain. Just come back and help me, please. I fucking need you. I don't care that I'm begging right now. I need you.

Please.

Alex
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An attempt at, maybe a start of a Vauseman fic. Review?