chapter one:thinking
i had always known there was a chance that Dimitri would be different if he came back but it had hit me hard when he rejected me and sitting here in a cell having nothing to do but think wasn't good for me. I just kept thinking about those words he had said to me and then the protectiveness he had shown back at the cafe. I wasn't sure but i had just a little more hope that Dimitri did love me. I think deep inside of him he knows it and still feels those feelings when he is around me but one thing i realized is he is trying to get those feelings to go away but they just won't. He seems like the old Dimitri in so many ways except for the way he treats me. What i don't get is how he will see everyone but me. I mean come on. I was the one who got the information. If not for my Lissa couldn't have done that. I didn't want to be jealous but it was hard when my first love didn't want to see me and spent most of his time with my best friend. We didn't even feel close even with the bond because of what happened with Dimitri. I don't even know what is going to happen to me. I got a feeling that Dimitri had thought a lot in here, in this cell, about all the things that he had done. And worst of all he had no idea what was going on. I guess compared to that my suffering wasn't all that important but i knew somewhere inside me that Dimitri wouldn't want me to suffer and i knew he loved me. The thing was i just had to make him realize it too and get those feeling to come back to him. Yet i couldn't get those words of his out of my mind.
love fades. mine has.
