Notebook Poems
Poems that I write in between notes and lectures – mostly in World Geography or Algebra
Screams
Pushed down
Smothered down
The water pulls me in
The waters push me down
I can't breathe
I can't scream
I can't cry
But the surrounding waters cry for me
Silence
Eyes are closed
The train tracks whistle in the distance
Arguments fade away with their hatred
The darkness clings to your figure
Behind your eyelids you see skulls
You hear the murmur of thoughts
You feel the love, anger, and envy they feel
All as the silence surrounds you
Busy Bee
I hear my teachers' lectures,
Not really
I hear my friends' secrets,
Not really
I hear the plans for the future,
Not really
I hear my parents struggle,
Not really
Wrapped up in solutions, arguments, school work, and relationships
I never hear you
You become silent,
As I became busy
As he stole me away
I became a pacing soul
Never taking the time
Cries
Children cry
And they're taken care of
Babies cry
And their parents rush for them
A cry for help
Goes unanswered
No one sees
No one hears
No one speaks
I notice but does anyone care?
I speak but everyone ignores my voice
I stand here but no one speaks to me
Another cry goes unanswered
Pity Party
Darkness enfolds
Light fades away
Our shadows turn mocking
The Angels weap of burdens
Demons bleed of their victims' pain
No one can see
Fore we are blind
No one can speak
Fore we are drowned in tears
No one can hear
For the pain is too much to bear
Our throats closed up and fill with tears
The legs that we depend on collapse
Before were were balanced by flaws and perfections but now all are is failure
Too much to take
We drown ourselves in darkness
Smothering Out
Always guilty
Always shamed
I smother it out
Exclude me
Include me, not
My heart is cold
I am untouched
I smother it out
Always guilty
Always ashamed
The beauty of the darkness melts my heart
The sadness of all the innocence lost melts my heart
So I smother everything else out
Speak
Holding on tight
My eyes burn
Can't you hear?
I want to say something
Anything
Can't you hear?
I'm talking to you
But not speaking
I'm telling you
But you act like you can't hear
Why speak?
When no one listens
In Wonderland
Follow the rabbit hole, Alice
Go down and deep into Wonderland, Alice
Come with us, Alice
Be mad like us, Alice
Have tea and unbirthdays, Alice
Play crochet and dine with our queen, Alice
We have everything you need, Alice
In Wonderland
Untitled
Never alone
Because he'll always be here
He brings hate and turmoil with him everything
He doesn't love me
But wants to see pain
Souls, he trades
Hearts, he eats
Desires, he kills
Loyalty, he breaks
Along with him he took everything
I was once good
Helping others, good – natured and polite
Now I'm his
I belong to him
And he is Adrian
Blessings
Prayers are said
Offerings are served
Faith is lost
Then found again
Drowsiness comes
Not enough time
Prayers are cut short in the head, but not the heart
Faith in something else
Love for not only yourself
Happiness glows off the skin
All are such great blessings
Laughter in the Darkness
The sun turns on its side
It shines down on every norm
As the sun speaks its golden language
The moon rises into a dark night sky
It blesses all of the creatures of the night
They all sing, dance, and rejoice of the dark
But when the sun shines down on them…
It all becomes silent
The laughter dies down
They sleep and rest so the golden sun doesn't t burn them
As the sun shines down on the norm
