Arizona knew what she did was wrong, horribly horribly wrong. She had thought of Callie the entire time, and until she opened her eyes again did she realize it wasn't her loving Calliope, but the Doctor she had met just two days prior. She felt dirty, like she had just finished running through a field of shit.

God, what did i just do.

She felt like throwing up right there. She reached for the trash can that was by the bed, and threw up the coffee and donuts she ate with earlier that day. She felt numb, like somebody had pumped her full of anesthetics. It wasn't until she heard a voice coming from behind her and felt a hand on her back did she realize was still there.

"Jeez i wasn't that bad was I?" the woman behind her chuckled.

Arizona felt regret and anger rushing through her core. Did she seriously think this was a joke? Arizona had just cheated on the love of her life, one of the worst things she could possibly think of, and had the audacity to laugh? How was she not disgusted with what they'd just done?

"Wha-, what?" was all Arizona could mutter, because she knew if she said anything more she would most likely end up yelling or crying, or both.

"It's just- are you okay Arizona? Do you want me to get you anything, water maybe? Because you look kind of-"

"I need you to get out, please." Arizona barked louder than she intended to. She couldn't stand to hear the doctors voice after what they had done. What she had done.

"I just- i need you to leave. please.." Arizona could feel the tears starting to roll down her cheeks. She need this woman to get away from her. Every time she heard 's voice she felt more and more waves of regret and anger rush through her.

"Arizona, i kno-"

"GET OUT!" Arizona scared herself with how loud she yelled. She couldn't contain the tears anymore and they soon turned to sobs.

"Im- im sorry Arizona.." whispered as she pulled her scrubs back on and slipped out of the room.

As soon as she heard the door click shut she sobbed even louder. How did this happen? How could she let this happen? This was not Arizona Robbins. This was not how her parents raised her. She was ' A Good Man In A Storm' and there she was in an on-call room sitting naked in the dark, sobbing because she had just cheated on Callie. Calliope Iphegenia Torres, the love of her life, what she was sure was her soul-mate. After everything they had been though, the shooting, Africa, the car crash, theplane crash. Callie stuck by her through all of it, every single minute of it, and this is how she re-payed her?

What did i just do..

Arizona sat naked in the on-call room in the cold darkness unable to move, shaking and sobbing harder than she ever had before, next to the trash can of her vomit. She felt empty. Not only physically but emotionally, everything about her felt drained. She felt as if her whole world had stopped and it was only her in that cold dark room, alone, without Calliope.

Calliope..

What do i do..